forever.

Saturday, October 25, 2008
3:47 AM

Snapshops of me in actions during the training in Vietnam.

me, deep in thoughts.

this game really got us troubled.

I was totally clueless at how tired i was till i could easily fall asleep on my bed.

I havent realise the quiet and alone time i need till i find all the noises at home really irritating. When it comes to decision making for now, i would like to psych myself to keep my options open. It is not really wise to get too sticky to an option. Especially when it comes to work, i really got to keep my options open.

I definitely miss the time in the US. Where the dormitory was just mine,and i get all the freedom and alone time i can get in the room. Vietnam was a tough but i enjoyed the feeling of being away from home. I guess people question why i do not get home sick. It is not because i am heartless,but i cherish all these alone time.

But, that is not to say i do not want to share myself with others. I appreciate time with friends and i am awaiting that special one. Well, that one but the many ones that takes part in my life. But i have got to admit that i have problems communicating with my parents. Ironic, aint it.

I love confident guys. I love working out in the gym. I love the music. I love datelines.

Happy birthday Nicholas!

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008
6:45 PM

After returning from the conference, i feel that i have so much to share. But, i have not organized my thoughts. It feels like i have 1001 resources but i dont have the time and energy to match everything together. It is another case of too much things on hand too little time. How sad?

Well, the first step taken is that i have set up the group for International Volunteerism for Disaster Management. Hopefully everything else will start falling in place.

I really dont know how i am going to cope with the school part, but trust me i am doing my best. Minus the need to be physcially present.

I am also trying to catch up with exercises. time is really not on my side.

Maybe i shall end of with this picture, courtesy of terrence.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

Friday, October 17, 2008
10:07 AM

I ask myself how i have spend this 21 years of my life. I was wondering if it was well lived. I had lots of expectations of myself throughout the past 4 years. It was only recently that i have decided to let it go. It definitely felt easier. Things were easier to cope. I could just sleep really early and wake up to gym.

Now, things are a little more complicated. Sad to say, when it comes to survival, it is never easy. I have got to admit. This need for the sense of gratification is eating in me. I need to feel busy to erase the negativities. How sad? Very, i say. I used to think it is okay to feel tired and that you are busy all the time. It means you are still useful.

I dont want to live to people's expectation. I have got my parents right at the top of the list. I have to but i hate that. Honestly. Set me free, things will be easier. That is not to say that i am blaming. I dont do that. I take it on. So i am ready.

Just got back from Vietnam, from the conference. May i elaborate more on it in the later posts. But it got my energy back from the negativity i had before the trip. I came back tired but recharged. Somehow. I believe that everything happens for a reason now.

Aim for now, to design my room, be pretty and healthy. determination.
got to go pack the room. More later.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008
12:05 PM

one big happy family. i like and love it.

I am leaving for Vietnam today.

It is 3:05 am in the morning, and i am still awake.

I was trying to sync my itouch with some cool functions but i dont see it working. I need a person good in technology to help me out.

I have my bag packed. But it feels like i have left out tonnes of things.

I hate packing.

I would really miss the people back in NYC. These days i have grown on the place. It is kind of scary the sense of attachement and feeling that you can get from a bunch of people and a place you once would not have thought to be yours.

I will miss them alot.

I will miss my friends.

It is my first trip out ALONE.

Me, myself and I.

Representing an organization and Singapore.

Those who are reading this can keep emailing and sms me.=) keep me company.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.