when we get bigger,
we got to keep our feet,
on the ground
that is what matters.
the values and the principles
got to be bigger than your ego
you can have your pie
and eat it but
you got to have a bigger heart
to contain it
nothing in this world is forever,
neither is the pain in the world
part of my second song that came from an inspiration from eminem. was watching trl just now lifetime achievement award went to him. he is one hellava great guy. i have total respect for him, think he totally brought back life into life today. get what i mean?
i was working real hard today. did crunches and push ups today in the morning for 15 mins. gotta do play with the soccer ball tomorrow and crunches and push ups for tmr morn. prob get some running some time soon. no motivation.
rest till i set of for jcc. my usual study hangout. brought back lotsa memories. glad i was there alone. i really concentrated. got my stats done. think i can get the whole thing done by tmr. than i can start on the next. crossing my fingers, working real hard. almost putting my heart and soul, it gets real tiring though haha.
seriously i have no idea how i am going to continue to doing so for the next 1 week plus i probably die of exhaustion and overloading of information. is there a remedy?
I guess that is why i have sudden inclination to write and compose songs. watch lotsa dvds and vcds, trying to do tone up. all the crap.
yikes. my life is so crappy. and i get sleepy every 3 hours.
table tennis was awesomely funny.
lunch was great with company.
dinner was very funny and great too.
But the night ended with great deep thoughts.
thoughts that suddenly slam straight into my face.
its happening. its really happening. because of chalven's simple phrase it struck me totally that it is really happening.
i wasnt myself the whole night, i couldnt think straight i dont know what to do.
i was numb not only physically but emotionally.
sad truth. so typically when you feel the pain you try to replace it but i coundnt this time.
i am already starting to miss you guys.
the cab ride back was empty.
because it is all starting to sink real in now.
I have walk this alone till you came along.
We would walk down the pathway with that bounce in our feet
thinking that these days would last forever.
till the day you realise there was no more sharing of papers, the endless tasks to work on
this was than did you realise its really going to end
you pray that it would disappear without much effect
but you prayed more that it was have a lasting effect
cause you only have one last glance at all that you have
and say that one last goodbye to all that you once had
the usual breaks and special moments
now seemingly resurface without much call
you try to hide it, but yet it appears without any wrong
than it seems that numbing yourself with the what ifs seem to make things ride
thats before you realise its really going to end
You pray that it would disappear without much effect
but you prayed more that it would have a lasting effect
cause you only have one last glance at all that you have
and say that one last goodbye to all that you once had