pain is temporary, quitting is forever- lance armstrong
i've got multiple injuries to the head, nothing serious. but i guess couple of bruises here and there, contribution of tennis and gym exercises...
hmm........i'd love a hug and kiss...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, November 24, 2006
8:16 AM
grand opening grand closing
that has been me for tutorials and lectures, always late for 5 minutes exactly hee... busy busy... i can sense the tiredness. the high feeling you get when you drink and get outta control...weee.....
need to really watch my meals and diet. cant fall asleep..hmm sick i mean..
till later. i had fun golfing today:)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, November 17, 2006
8:59 AM
how do u define a life well-lived? is there even a hard and fast guide telling us how it should be? I guess not.
Guess, it is precisely why i worked it out pretty well according to my standards. So far it has been running past the lawful speed limit and its taking up more petrol than usual, but i am satisfied at the distance and the destination of my journey so far.
i'll do my best. i'll shall not let down such a gift destined and bestowed to me. its getting a little heavy in this entry. But i've received any friendly reminder from my friend about school life. I walk into school, not taking a second glance at any of its premises. It, to me is not of much importance for it has never given me the chance for me to fall in love with it at first sight.
But that really should never hid the fact that i have had recollections of beautiful moments of growing up... even the process of getting to know the school to neglecting its very presence has a lasting impact.
I love you. all of you. :) really long day. from schools to baking to dance class and baking again. more later. pics hopefully....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
7:21 AM
"take care, be careful," she said.
its nice to have friends who utter those words once in awhile. I have always been the gung ho fella. always able to cope with anything and everything, so much so that it does really matter much if its too late, too dangerous or too difficult. Such friendly reminders always remind me to slow down and think.
Another long day, i have started to skipped lectures. but i promise it will be the last. headed straight for the gym and den work. My prawn noodles today taste rather delicious. Packed one for Roanna and Shiya... hope it is good enough for them.
Pretty tired these days, been sleeping in the trains. more housework to do. preparation for tomorrow's lunch as well.. Fu Rong prawn egg with vege and rice.
till later...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
7:34 AM
tons of housework to do now that my parents are away for a week. considering the fact that i am out of the house at 8am or earlier and back home on average at 10:30 pm... the time frame before and after are always spent cooking and doing the ironing, sweeping, moping, washing, packing...
my brother just get to slack through the day, speaking about equality...
hokkien prawn noodles for tomorrow:) the purchasing and carrying around of textbook is killing me.. goodness gracious....
early and freaking long day tomorrow... till later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, November 13, 2006
7:41 AM
school is so weird. being back to school feels weird. have i really fallen in love with my job? I thought i was feeling the disinterest a few weeks back, why the sudden calling towards it? this is so weird.
i think i need to sort things out. but i'd be patient.
too many things to do now. too many sorting out to do.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
7:58 AM
there is this thing about music and dance that can run through ur veins get you moving and energize and at the same time revive your senses giving you the energy...
step up the new movie that got me all spurred up again!!
passion.
wet. tired. satisfied. no regrets.
really needa get an mp3
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
6:31 AM
a couple of days ago i was enjoying myself @ the chalet. it wasnt boom boom bang, but it was a good enough gathering. :) came back the second night in the wee hours, thought i should better rest my body for the next day.
only slept for an hour during chalet after the hours of night cycling and mahjong cum bbq. :)
and today was determined to really make use of my day off before i get back to work. baked my first ever banana cake which was delicious....:) cook a healthy soup based meal for shiya and myself to get rid of the toxic we ate at bbq heeh... watch the opening of STEP UP.. which isnt as bad as what the reviews put it out to be went for dance class to get rid of the excess baggage and some chilling out.... did some housekeeping at home.. and finally had a good dinner and good shows... as i type before you...
tomorrow will be the continuation of life... i swear i am good to live life to the fullest. tired i might be these days, lethargic till i can come up with so many easy excuses to get myself out of things, sick and tired of working things out ... stalemate it was but now i have given a new leash of life....
tanning tomorrow as i laze on the beach plus jogging to train up for my standard chart... and work....... oh well.....i'm smiling, because i feel rejuvenated:) i love all my friends really. i do. you guys light up my life.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, November 06, 2006
8:10 AM
there is this feeling, this ripping feeling. this very ripping feeling that is ripping me away from my naivety and my innocence. I feel as if i can no longer just be in front of you smiling and crapping away, i feel that my sanity is back in full force, that i am thinking and analysing which is in return erasing all my simplicity of life.
the responsibility really is greater now. It is not that i dont want these responsibility but growing up kind of scares me right now. I dont want to have any of what i am doing now be a burden to me, life would indeed be very miserable if i start to think that way. And, so what should i do right now to make all these go away? Can i still be nonchalent about what is happening around and still be as good in handling issues at hand?
I dont want to be scrupulous to pay the price, i dont want to know what it is like how there. I dont want to be who i am putting down now. I dont want to be the one you guys start to hate. I dont want to be the one in power. I dont really like the attention i am getting. I just want to be able to live happily sharing my life and ambitions with you, you and you.. all of you out there. I dont want the bridge between friendships. I dont want to quests to who is better.
Can we all just share? Can we all just be a tad understanding, loving and giving. Can we more importantly not judge? can we just take each other as mutually the same, and not mutually exclusive objects? There shall be no adoration, there shall be no competition of the best. Lets just be who we are now.. let this just remain.
I'll try, really. I dont want to look back and see who i know i might turn into and regret not knowing or putting a stop to it....
ok. just thoughts........hmm....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
6:19 PM
in my midst of slacking before i head for work, i'm feeling a tad worthless, a tad less intellectual.
Yes, i wish i was all that smarter, that i wouldnt have to slog so hard for what i want. Now i wouldnt in my sobre mind consider what i am doing as slogging but now that i have getting all sluggish and nonsensical and whiny .. i guess i do wish i had a better way of grasping life.
Its not that i dont want to resume and continue being the independant girl that i am working towards her own pay cheques than exchanging all of those for the lovely divine items that she can set her hands on. But it really really really, and now that i am finally beginning to realise that it is an endless chase... a chase that i am following.. unsure of the fact if it is because i am loving it or that i am just going through the motions....
i am indeed lamenting on how my friends get to take it slow and easy on these days where the sun seem to rise so high that any lovely lad walking out there would clearly be skiiping through....
hmmm.. but i know for previous experience that should i not be doing anything.. i most probably be regretting being a lazy arse. A good for nothing. So where does one find the right mix of life? Does it always have to be a choice between two?? cant we attain a balance or a right fit?
i suddenly do feel that i should retire............ :) gimmesolutions. enlightenme. thiscantgoon.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
6:46 AM
how great it was to be able to hit the snooze button for more than 3 times and not worry that i will be late for anything. :) i have been breezing through my past few weeks, waking up at the strike of dawn to whip up sumptious meals to bring to work. squeezing whatever time in between work for gym classes and other classes. gosh...its taking effect like now... after a month of it, i am feeling the impact.
nothing too serious, just the disinterest in work, which can be relatively dreadful since i work like a full timer, if not more. Rarr.... only food can perk me up these days and i am pretty glad i have accomplished that aspect of my needs. Yes, food, glorious food has became a need not a want.
tomorrow is the big OFF day of mine!!! i am really really happy or rather relieved. Now, we are really looking to sign up for THE BULL RUN.. but its pretty unclear on whether we are allowed to according to the terms and condition.
i love the surfboard. the red one. the one with the flower and the guy. its my fave colour. it is, really.:)
till later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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