its 912 am now and i just got home from the countdown party at siloso beach with a bunch of adorable people. a couple of minutes ago my arms were filled with peelable tatoos. my hair is still being soaked with foam from the foam party. my mouth still lingers aunty chilvi's curry puff. my memory still stings with beautiful sharing moments with weising,meiling, syharil, zul, liyana, adeline, YJ, Taufik and others. Oh i really do miss being young. not that i am not. but sometimes its this young people that made me realise how insignificant paper chasing is.
i prolly cant do any sleep now because i am leaving for the botanical gardens in a couple of hours for a birthday celebration. 3 cheers to Team Siloso!! can sentosa offer me a job now!! haha as in a full time. a reasonably good pay.i'll grab really. i think resolutions are stupid. so are reflections. ok i take that back. im just not in the right state of mind.:) i love sentosa. hitting 2 years.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
8:33 PM
after last night's eating and mahjong merry making. i woke up reasonably early and wondered why i decided to turn up for work late. its just that my wound is lacking dressing that i need to change to. so i took up my newly baking weapons that my lovely friends lixin and sulaiha has given me and started baking banana cake!! haha. i changed the recipe a little. A little less sugar. sour cream to yougurt. and a cup more of bananas. we'll see how it taste soon. rawr. i really dont want school to start. i just want to head to the farm and do some baking and play some sports and catch up with all friends. mahjong tooo. haha..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
before the official nice pictures are up. lets have a quick preview at the beautiful event area.@ Furama Waterfront. Weddings are always so sweet and nice. i want mine to be equally dreamy and lovely. But that aside, i am okay forgoing the ceremony..... it is enough having a guy who loves you dearly. really.. hmmm...... its good to be picky. at least you know he's the one:) the recepttion table.:) the cocktail reception area. the wedding area.. the long aisle
the wedding phots for viewing.
just came back from the partay at shiya house... hahah..really do miss all the fun and laughter we used to have together. Seems that though we haave moved on to seperate paths but it just feels as though we are still the same:)
its fun nonetheless...:):): with the mahjong:)
dance was cool today with my injuries hahahah.than it had to rain and we caught a sneek preview of the previous hip hop dance group.
countdown partay is coming up soon. no expectations hopefully it'd be better than last.:)
looking forward to the botanical lunch;)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, December 28, 2007
8:43 AM
now now now.. before we actually move on with the wonderful wedding piccas( actually i am waiting for my friend to upload it hahah) lets view some delicious chong qing birthday celebration.... I kind of really like the desserts in the shop.. but .. always be sure to take the warm version.. the colder one is kind of bland.
my wound is kinda itching and still infecting a little.... but movements are slightly better. dont take service line for granted ok? give us some respect and love:) itching for more mahjong. its gonner be a helluva week from today onwards.
was up at the jewel box with the beach babes. kinda ex. haha.. but oh wells. all for the bootiful experience. i putting on weight cause i am handicapped now and i cant exercise. such a bummer.:( i still give a shot at the gym tmr and dance practice. a girl has to try....
more next time.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
4:42 AM
Ben and Ann's wedding Big day. The Sisters and the couple. The brothers and Sisters and the couple
The Brothers being punked!! The shower cap and paper underwear. wahahaha checked that out!! wahahah more!!!
This was the morning traditional ceremony. It was so freaking early but it was helluva..... but i will think twice again hahahha...
i went country life today. and we have advances in our business. aiming 2009!
more soon.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
11:59 PM
i'm injured. this time the knee and the arm.
i just had a blast at ma partay at ma house.
i just had a fun at my couz xmas gathering.
results out and i'm rather satisfied with it.
pictures will be out soon.
its such a bummer i'm injured.
how to dance?
how to run?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
7:18 PM
the kangoo!!! peisin's home sweet home car. hahaha taiwan sun bing!!! hahaha very delicious!!! hahaha!! front view check out that bike!! i
This was the fantastic feasting session with the poly babes... so glad i get to see peisin again. and michelle just got back from taiwan. aww.... she din tell me she went there!! would have ask her to bring back truckloads of stuff... but anyway..enjoy
the meat from claypot chicken rice.... hmm.. from the famous golden mile claypot. the one who will tell u to wait and if u dont. too bad1!!! the savory rice!!! but i still prefer clementi's/ the babes of the week!!! haha the hokkien bee hoon mee... not bad not bad!!! check out the table... the fondue was the best lar!!!! wahahaha.. the liege germany waffles!!! the nice auntie helping us!!! guo tie!! we had ppl aasking us where we got our food from. maybe the stalls should hire us. haha thai pineapple fried rice....
of course we had satay and bbq chicken wing and lotsa other stuff. too bad most of the stalls were close when we reached about 8 if not. we would have tried more wahahah..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
1:35 AM
i'm exhausted.
wedding. i;ve received awesome feedback. *claps* reached home way past 2am.
feasting at golden mile center. wow... table full! we even had to stack!! peisin came with her kangoo!! yea!!! so happy!! drove us all home. slurps.
yap's birthday. im just glad to be around the girls. home to pack and leave in time for morning run before flying off.
back from the 4day thailand trip. wad a blast minus the nagging and the hours of walking. everthing was great. food. clothes. accesories. culture.
Performance costume making. Dance rehearsal with the dancers. dance and acting rehearsal with the beach babes. merry making. acting cute in my costume. tada!! performance!!
i'm talented?? thank you wahaha.. but no lah. hard work hardwork!!
marketing executive calling companies.
souvenirs distribution. up coming party planning.
it never ends does it. :) pics soon. overload.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
9:49 AM
ok..im going to fly off to thailand. important ppl who needs to contact me pls sms me at 98333767 or SMS!!! SMS is da best!!
or u can try email me. i'll try to check with my smart phone.
important ppl are: Sentosa Management ppl regarding performance n costume Reggae Dance ppl. Bike quest stuff. food hunt stuff. or if u need me to get u guys stuff.
hai~ packing the bag is tough. im meeting the newly wed couple there. weee.... and shuyu coming with me. its like my second time travelling with my parents. weird huh? yea. i go overseas with my friends and couz mostly. tata ppl. keep the number its important. i'll be pissed if u cant reach me ahahha
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
8:21 AM
this is the thousand dollar worth of electrical appliance my mum won from best denki.haha
i had less than 2 hours of sleep this two days. busy with the wedding preparation. so happy and i had lotsa fun. we the sistas together with the brothers. creating havoc. and me the emcee of the day:) and pretty pretty hair,makeup and dresses.
i met a stupid cab driver, who tried a stupid pick up line. freaking stupid. i met a nice cab driver who showed me the value of life. guys=gentleman. not so these days. but there were some nice guys around:) will chit chat more when the piccas and videos are up of the wedding. so beautiful.
i've got two things to follow up. a party. a performance. a costume. sorry, i need to do this to remind myself. I met lotsa new friends.happy happy girl.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
10:30 AM
have a good look at the piccas below... its the day i forsake golf and my fave man meeting to go to my dearest nigel 21st haha!! and lookout for the pastries and cakes!!! the best i've eaten so far. totally handmade.and the texture is oommpp!! i was so lucky i got to eat it. its normally sold out by lunch;)
so scary how things are unfolding so fast. a minute ago i was worried i failed my japanese, than the next i passed and got to the next level. i thought i'd never get the right fittings for my outfit. i thought i'd never get the make up done. the next minute. its all done. thanks to the trip to chinatown and the bugis exploration. but i still am so so so afraid i dont have the time to get things done. i've got a major wedding preparation in 24 hours. Me being the EMCEE!! goodness. i never thought after the YEP event i'd be an emcee for another event. and its a wedding event!! i hope i dont trip and fall. i hope people are nice and cut me some slack. i have a performance to plan. costumes to design. 2 xmas gathering to prepare and contact. 2 arts com stuff to follow up. sentosa work to arrange. thai trip to prepare. guitar class to arrange business to discuss.
but its fair. we all have 24 hours each. its how we use it:) still clarice is afraid of regrets. hai~ i ran for 67 mins today. thanks to the rain.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
6:17 PM
my goodness. i have no idea why life is getting messier. it seems as if i have my planning all screwed up. i overestimated my abilities. i'm pretty much dead. cause i was so addicted to A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila at youtube that i have not started revising for my japanese exams. I put off meeting my couz eugene- my fave man, and my aunt for a Nigel's birthday. I put off golf. i bet they are all quite pissed. i put off the YCM interview.
I have a wedding to attend, prepare and be part of. which i could do with a car. but of course my dad cant live without a car. so poof! i need to get my attire up. my hair done. my nails done. things to buy. fittings to be done. i just messed up some meet up dates, cause i tot i'd be back on the 17 before dinner for the meet up. damn! I need the gym visits badly. and yet i have to be stuck here studying.or at least i try to.
but...... i just listened to life's a tatoo. and weee...... i;m not out and down yet! now i am involved in another two projects. and i;ve got an xmas party to attend and settle. brr.....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
6:33 AM
it feels like winter. im freezing down at hub3. my tummy hurts real bad. been running to the toilet 4 times in a row. it feels slightly better now though.
I saw ranjit today!! wow after so long. did i mentioned dance was reeaalllllyyyy fun yesterday and i got my motorola q9h. issit really surprising for me to get it? even the operator questioned my UNIQUE decision. haha. ok more packing of the room. im revamping it to fit xmas!!!
man! i'm packed for the days leading to xmas. hmm..... and i am hand making all your gifts this xmas!!! wahaha.. i am already in xmas spirit!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
5:31 PM
ok, so since exams out. i said more food enters. so wahaha... its the RED BEAN EPISODE. You know down shaw towers lido at orchard. The bakery called sun moulin. i;ve been tasting their bread for ages but it was only till i read thebakerwhocooks blog did i realise i need to do a little experiment. so viola.
this an pan bread is the least sweet with real bean in side. and whehn i took out the paste, it looks real. this on the other head is frigging sweet. its just paste and sugar.. and yes i took only half and gave my bro the other. this was a good combination of both.:)
so tata. im going to pack my room now. den gym and dance. exercise day. hmm.. monday was hair day. tuesday was baking day today is exercise day. so tmr ish?? work yaya.. haha
next: red wine cupcakes, green tea cupcakes, cereal cookies...wee....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
My Grown Up Christmas List
Do you remember me I sat upon your knee I wrote to you With childhood fantasies Well, I'm all grown up now And still need help somehow I'm not a child But my heart still can dream So here's my lifelong wish My grown up christmas list As children we believed The grandest sight to see Was something lovelyWrapped beneath our tree Well heaven only knows That packages and bows Can never heal A hurting human soul No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts And everyone would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end This is my grown up christmas list What is this illusion called the innocence of youth Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth(there'd be)
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I was watching a fairytale, i complained how i dont feel the impact of the lovely ending and how i might just have lost the innocence in me. But i came home, with a packet of gift,my "labour of love",the one held so proud and dearly.
yet, you thought its one of my nonsensical fantasy.
I moment of false fallacy.
And, with a word you crashed it .
My belief.
My hope.
My dream.
I felt angry, than i felt sad, than i felt disappointed. I felt all i felt.
just like a glass of red wine. pungent .
it went right through me.
you were supposed to play the supporting role.
the perfect model.
supporting me.
giving me hope.
but i dare say throughout my 20 years.
i depended on myself more than on you.
i never felt pity for myself.
beacause i know you dont owe me anything.
but at least, dont always GIVE me HOPE so HIGH, and pull me back down.
but a sliver lining behind each trial.
i am gladthe innocence within me gave me the courage to hope and dream.
thus the pain.
den i smiled again.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, December 02, 2007
5:33 PM
i am contemplating the below phones. if you have an opinion do tag me ya... heeh
the hair catalouge thingy that i was helping in made my hair into as below and now i am waiting for them to change my hair colour and length.... weee.....
okay anyway, saturday was a blast shiya, shijia and myself went for Show's concert.I never was a great adoring screaming fan of such. but i was always interested in good entertainment.
Ann and Jeslyna were there too. It was a good renuion from friends of different area. Poly,Sentosa, external. hmmm....
i enjoyed myself because i was brought through 2 hours plus of good dancing and sincerity performance.
Of course, with the accompanion of great friends who spills nonsensical jokes along the way.
Even the cab driver was sprouting nonsense along with us. haha.
Sunday oh Sunday. I went for the run. but due to my lack of exercising for the past 2 weeks of so, i took it easy and completed it with ease. Okay. So i miss sulaiha so much while working at da beach. I never understand how china girls can catch so many singaporean guys and live well on them. Guys out there, are singaporean girls that bad?
Yea!!!! Chalven is back from Taiwan.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
8:32 AM
i am done with the dreaded examinations. it was not life threatening to me because i must admit i have not put in the tremendous effort that my peers are doing, and i do respect them for it, just that i hold different perception of how i should lead my uni life so yea.. at the rate of how i have been studying, examinations has already been of hindrance now that i am given my life back i shall make full use of it.
A tribute to the 5 dragon boaters. A tribute to the friends i have lost to the beautiful alternative they are at now. These people have a life lead much better than i have with mine. They left with leagacies. From the 5 dragon boaters, of which 2 i know, though not closely, yet, i do remember their zest in life. I saw them during my sports hall visits at the gym training hard. I guess you cant miss them. their presence lay lingering.
to the other friends i have lost during my twenty years of living. i miss you. but i fear not because in me lies your memories. beautiful thoughts of how you guys have been so good at what you are at. you are the motivation of my life. i live my life for myself yes. but more importantly to continue the legacies of yours. i know this is how you want life to be renacted.
may you rest in peace.
i shall not say much more in this entry. but just a salute and tribute to those who gave in their utmost in anything they are doing. thank you for showing me life is not just about the minorities but the bigger picture, and i have thus gained so much since my younger years.
be back for more...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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