i kinda miss riding da horse.. i kinda miss lazing at home and watching all my vcds. but it seems that i cant seem to want to slow down.... the only way i can slow down is to be away from Singapore.. though it seems like i am still not at the stage to do it. I've got a sweet taste of it a few days ago and like what i've told my friends, i dont feel the least bit home sick or the least bit worried about adapting there, because to me its easy.
Though i have build up alot here, it is not hard to leave it all behind and walk away. Dont worry, im not going to get all so philosopical here. Just trying to sort out my thinking...Shiya says i need to find a guy who is willing to move around and explore all my crazy ideas with me.. maybe i do.. thats why i taking my time...
he must be willing to do all those with me, and must have the guts to say it to me...
on the other note, just want to mention life without the stress of school is kinda mind relaxing for me... everything can be done without the extra burden in mind...
I have lotsa magazines on hand.. would be getting books real soon to do some reading... and i think getting the tennis lessons started, real soon i hope...and to end like how i started. I love da horse...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
9:05 AM
more to come...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 28, 2006
11:01 AM
okay.. wanted to upload some pics for u guys.. unfortunately its causing me some trouble. ma 4d3n stint at hkg has just ended as i touch down at 12 30am reached home at 2am and i;ve got teambuilding like 930am tomorrow. haha. madness.
Yesyes... Liying lets meet up soon, with the rest of our gang....... i miss them.. lets do something crazy soon.. hmm... sounds correct?? haha.. i dunch know ah.. lack of sleep.. shall go sleep.. and update more soon enuff... staytuned..
yes, i mean it... wait for da pictures to come up...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
3:16 AM
i am so happy, i perservered, despite the tiredness, i conquered 10km. Road, Sand and Trail run...... i did that all in a little of an hour. :) and i wasnt even tired or panting...so cool... i was like own time own target.. now i can aim for 55 mins when i go on the road.....maybe the great eastern women 10k run? hehehe... so cool....
and i managed to study like almost all of CCM by 6pm....and now i am going to start refresher mode on the module and i tell u i am prepared!!
Did i mentioned that i have also got my acknowledgement to collect my NEW passport. So no more worrying for that too.. and i can collect my air ticket:)
I am pretty happy that i have got through one more obstacle. :)
Now for the upcoming break it would be: 1. work 2. tennis 3.swimming 4. gym 5. language 6. (hopefully guitar back)
i want to catch forbidden city, the break up, play mahjong and go genting. There is the movie under the stars thing... any takers to watch or do these stuff with me?? hehehehehe.... doors are open. tag me!! hahah
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, August 18, 2006
6:50 PM
in the midst of exams...
i think i cant afford to screw like 2 of my upcoming papers.. so i am really forsaking gym practices, socialising for the two papers.....
nothing but A in my mind, got to stay positive.... got to be positive... it can happen:)
even my diet is healthier hahaha... nonsense....
everything will be back to normal after the exams... cause i cant even concentrate while running so it is definitely a tell-tale sign....
ok... I STILL CANT BELIEVE MICHELLE ISH IN GENTING>... that woman is even crazier than me... i like these friends of mine hahahaha......
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 14, 2006
7:54 AM
i enjoyed work again today. I am going to count my blessings from this day onwards.
i was alone in the shop for the whole morning. Our retail director came and i kinda find him an interesting character, although i could do without the scare of him coming down out of a sudden.
i had a nice lunch with Helen and Fadhil. Met my good ole digi pals @ merlion and when i was up there i had this wonderful feeling that i have moved on from that place... this breath of fresh air.. had a good chat with faizal... interesting to talk to people who are undergoing changes... i kinda miss rachael haha.. her loudness and blurness when it comes to work...
I was very tired in the morning, but am awake now. I am determine to take a break to hong kong but i dont want to spend my mother's money. I really dont want them to work so hard no more, this sudden thought came to me. I wish i was at the age where they can be the ones living off me. I mean i dont take money from them anymore but still its not like i have the ability to give them.
I really have lotsa expectations from myself huh? cause i have this pursuit of the Me that i want myself to be... so there are actually so much hidden stress inside of me that is actually covered by the daily hectic routines that i am undergoing...
but i am glad that i am buying my own meals, my necessity and my own transportation, my own lessons...
* i'm suddenly having flash back about those times in Aussie... so different, so simple, so foreign, so ................. peaceful.. an eyeopener still till today....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
9:38 AM
i had lotsa fun @ work today:) the beach ish fun, cause i am there. got the sun, sand,rain, mini tornado...awesome. i wouldnt mind my life to be like that all the while.
on time on target.... my own lifestyle. no stress after the projects... some rest before the final countdown... time spent on da body.... working it out more now...
islandlife....lalalala... cant wait for chalven to join da family.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
7:20 AM
so tired. i guess i'm almost through a week of craziness...
endless rush of projects. sleeping in the wee hours and waking early to work. the in between gym sessions and the socialising and entertainment needs. goodness. my mama says i'm crazy. my friends says i'm crazy. now i think i'm really crazy, haha.
time to slow things down? i'm sleeping on trains, taking cab to destinations just because i cannot wake up. my alarm rings and i use to wake up immediately, but now its like dragging and worst still, switching it off and back to sleep.
used to be able to eat home cook food, than it became fast food, than it became packed lunch now its just sandwiches and finger food.... oh man....dun worry its not self pity, i am enjoying life on the fast lane, but i guess i got to sloe things a little, i'm just lacking the brake.....
nonsense..... i'm like so tired, i cant make sense of my writing. love all.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 07, 2006
8:16 AM
Monday to Sunday Analysis??
They always say dun look back in life.. but i'd always love to do that, because regardless of the good or bad times, i always seem to be proud of it.. so enjoy the entourage of what i will be writing, if you are too tired, than spare yourself the run through yea??
Monday: Besides the rush of projects, i manage to wake up real fracking early for driving in the circuit and i guess it was a good experience.. first time in there... so far so good i guess.. will get myself familiar with it soon enough... after which it was nap time back home, needed the much needed rest, woke up and headed out for gym.. yum... great workout as usual... than it was the celebration @ swenson Chalven's 20th Birthday!!! Had lotsa fun, and great pool game... not bad... good time spend with the class..I hope you really enjoyed the day and the presents.. and the CAKE!!! hahaha
Tuesday: Met up with Jackson for lunch @ somerset for ramen @ Ah Ken. FOOD i like!!! yum it was delicious man, time was on our side so we walked and catch up with each other, all the way till middle road for tau huay.. yum yum.. so damn satisfying.. you know my stupid lifestyle always stops me from such enjoyment... but i really enjoyed it.. thanks alot!! catch pirates soon enuff.
Wednesday: was supposed to turn up for seminar but i guess i decided against it. Spent quality time @ the gym again. So damn relaxing when i am there... attending the sculpt and stretch class?? than ran 5km on the mill... all the machines.... after that met my aunt @ orchard.. i am like an idiot man.. haven been there for so long.. shopped, eat and slacked... good time spent... after that was home for projs again...till the wee hours..
thursday: work @ sentosa...movenpick ice cream.. home for proj.. great time @ work with rach.. its been such a long time since i got to work and catch up with her.
Friday : Presentation.. which went welll.. den it was work which was fun... had movenpick AGAIN!!:) drools...happy to have solved some issues..... projs again...
Sat and Sun: A canadian guy played frisbee with me....sorta ask me out.. but i dunno, i dont have a thing for ang moh guys haha... sorry.( thats a story for another time) when home with teck chun..... nice chat and great journey home.. not forgetting movenpick ice cream again.. On sunday, realise so many disappointing issues.... but i cant really be bothered anymore... slept only @ 4....
that pretty much sums up....okay i am tired.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
8:45 PM
so many things has happened.... hmm... i dunno where to start.. good or bad i guess it has only made me stronger... meeting deadlines... focusing on more than one thing at a time.. totally nuts... i am pretty amazed of how far i have gone... of course there is more to be done. i might be down and out before but i'd be strong and better the next time.... cant find a stronger me before...
so i'm going to finish up this week with a bang.. will update on wads going on the past week soon enough.. when i get a breather....
less than 8 hrs sleep two days combined... ciao till l8ter
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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