Thursday, December 30, 2004
9:26 PM
Lets talk about yesterday!
Ok yesterday mission was rather clear, to send out message for reliefs. We headed down to little india, to donate our clothes and money to aid the victims of the disaster. We were interviewed too by channel 8 much to our surprise, haha, cheryl, xiu mei, shiya and michelle ran away.
After which we headed to Suntec to catch a movie, yea, the thing was we were contemplating about 2 to 3 shows and settled for A world without thieves. It was a very touching show somehow, it made me realise certain stuff. But i shall not go further into that.
Dinner was at TukTuk at Sky Garden, wanted to eat at the Rice Table but unfortunately that was not to happen as ut was fully book, what to do? The food there was damn delicious. Accompanied Cheryl to purchase some CDs, as in her words she was desperate for some new music. went to tower records only to be disappointed by the choice and varieties of CDs available. So in the end we went to HMV. on the way back i met wwen, my primary school class mate from aussie. as in studying in aussie. haha. oh man , she changed alot man! haha. okok
till later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Oh my god woke up real early today at 6, it was scary cause it was early. Okay, basically cause i was freaking tired from the night before. But still made it for school shagged. Played through LAB lesson.
The highlight of the day was deciding to head to SPH to send in our next batch of donation. More friends who received my message actually brought stuff down so it was very very encouraging to see so many people wanting to help. We took 2 cabs down, and walked in. We were kind of surprised to see the overwhelming response from everyone. We came with the intention of just donating, but ended up being one of the volunteers too.
There were lotsa clothes in lotsa different kind of plastic bags. People from all walks of life, from all lines, came down to donate whatever they have. 1 guy, i remembered donate lotsa saline water, which was cool. Lotsa companies donated stuff too.
Oh a cheeky side, there was once JL and i went up this super duper cool lorry haha. ask me if you want to know mroe about it haha. Yea, there were lotsa reporters round again, we sort of conquered all the news, you could practically see us being interviewed and snapped.
Of course we skipped the 1 o clock class, but had to rush back from the 4 o clock class. So yea, we went back fully satisfied, had lotsa fun just helping around, i'd just want to say the people at SPH were very kind and patient and friendly.
Dinner was with my couz and aunts and Wisma's Pizza Taglio or something cant remember. But it was delicious. chatted and slacked around, Jolyn introduced me to something i just might want to try hehe. But i am drained out today, but i still have a tutorial to do how? :(
There are issues bothering me, and i feel like being alone, secluded from everything. I need time to think or rather not think. I dunno. Messed up.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
1:00 AM
i feel horrible today, i dunno why, i dont feel right, everything is just so wrong. But things are okay, okay i am contradicting myself , i mean i am have doubts about so many things about life, and i dunno how to handle this sudden confusion, and so i agreed to go drink with Ah Yap. I drank alot but the alot is never enough cause everytime i want to get drunk i cant.
When i wanted to take the bus back home, i was in an all time down mood but its because of a mixture of issues, like should i compromise my beliefs for an easier path? But hell, i know life can never ever go the way you want it to, its all about opportunity cost, so here i am struggling. :(
I am not happy with many decisions, if i want to dig deep, i can say i am not happy with life, but i am trying to take whatever as it comes, so i dare say i am rather cool with things in life no matter how shitty or sucky it can get but still, when i do think, which i do cause i have a brain, i still see the little holes here and there that i know i can make it better. But i know life is not perfect. So it is the here and there issue thing again, and i know the answer is to balance things out but i dunno how and i am not exhausted yet but i believe i will with all the monotony of life.
Which is something i am so not looking foward to....grrrr..... this and that here and there... so many, too many. Everybody is telling me to take things slowly , hoping that i do not regret, and i know whatever i do i'd never regret. but..but..... but..... i dunno wads wrong.... why do i feel so confused so sad at this very moment......
i want to cry...i need to cry... i need to breakaway again.... shit. it is all starting all over again. no its not. i dont think so the thing is not so intense yet.. so yea... no, its not happening. ok i'll be alright again.... after tomorrow. it will all be okay...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, December 27, 2004
1:33 AM
Xmas was a blast. I woke up the morning after with lips that bled, eyes that hurt and neck that was twisted. Okok, sounds scary but think simple its not that bad,but it definitely hurt.
Was back for soccer training, its been long. You touched me and you were the only who could influence me my friend.
Anyway, kinda pissed about certain issues, more of the why why why thing coming back, because i am only human and i do miss everything about the past. But the past can only do me so much. thanks for making the first move, i hope thing will get better.
i slept at 4 last night watching soccer, and i was feeling damn tired for school today. *yawnz*
Oh yea, kudos for me i finally signed up for guitar course;)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
12:46 AM
Woke up late today because i spent the whole of last night preparing gifts.
But anyway, headed to Aunt Mary's house for christmas gathering hahaz. It was damn funny because we thought we were the latest but instead were the earliest. Chat and talk alot about australia, talked alot of craps which also included handphones. Wanted to eat lotsa stuff, but the queue for food was tremendously long. My uncle is a good cook, mind you.
My brother wanted to try red wine, haha, but he could not finish it. But i couldnt finish his for him, i did not want to raise any alarm.hehe, din want to let people know i drink too much. Wad else, hang around here and there. Than it was to meet up with friends.
Shiya And Cheryl
As usual our day started of with pool game at parkway, hahaz, the ever reliable place. Left the place took a cab down to Fisherman's Village. The wind there was fantastic, it feels so resort like. We ate seafood. Oh yea, forgot to update ya that we bought a huge log cake, easily mistaken for 5 pax and above. hahaz. But it was nice.
After dinenr we went to the pub just beside it, but it wasnt after much hassling. We settled down ordered nuggets, fries, and a jug of beer, wanted hooch but they did not have it around. haha. Ate our cakes took wacky photos, talked about our class, and yea drank and eat to our hearts content. The scenery was magnificent.
Xmas this year was white, fun, filled and bond-ful...
Christmas was kinda fun and different this year, oh yea thanks for all the presents, love ya guys to bits.
Tomorrow i have an outing with 4/5 peeps but i aint really enthusiastic about it, some bbq thing at marina, we'll see.. *yawn* i am tired.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, December 24, 2004
12:44 AM
I met up with my Big Kids and headed to Snow city. Boy , was it a white christmas season, the next two session was fully booked so we settled for the 5:15pm session. We headed to Pizza Hut to eat instead, and had tremendous stupid fun over there. hahaz. Went up to the ice skating rink. Told ya this christmas would definitely be white christmas, took lotsa wacky photos.
Snow city
When the pictures are uploaded, i'll let u see how crazy we were. we were skiing non stop, snow fighting non stop. It seems so surreal, it was snowing for once. It was really amazing. We kinda downgraded ourselves to kids, but its this simplicity that makes it all worth it. The whole 1 hour was fabulous...
Went to Crystal Jade for dinner. lotsa laughter, and i am back to preparing my prezzie for friends... too much to catch up with...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
9:40 PM
It was cousins day yesterday, and boy did we make good use of that day. I met Mich, Marc and Mindy out at Taka after a day of pool with Brishit. Eugene and Andy could not make it so we just make do with what we have.
Marc was hungry but the time was only 5:45. but we decided to head in anyway since there is no time limit. So we officially sat down at that time and it has been non stop eating since then till about 10 o clock. Amazing isnt it? I bet if Andy was here it would have been worse? Haha. We definitely was hoping to be awarded with the LAST TABLE STANDING award haha. I think we were around the last ten. The manager would probably have to put an UNWANTED list up at seoul these few months.
but, i guess i am bloated with food cant eat for the whole day today. bleah. today would be continuation of christmas stuff. hahaz. okok. thanks mich for the dinner yesterday. we will continue eating on saturday hahaz.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
9:29 AM
Its bright and cheery today and i am kinda in a very happy mood. Yesterday beach outing was very delightful. Although it started off slow but everything else was great. Lotsa volleying, lotsa nonsence especially with Chalven, Mr I-have-a-childhood-but-a lonely-one.
After which was our ride to Pasir Panjang Market to eat seafood. Junsheng and Mel met us along the way, which added to the fun, we had beer along with our seafood. hahaz... the trip was great.I hope Christmas would be just as fun. ;)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
11:12 AM
ok, christmas preperations aside, i want to say that there are lotsa things that are reminding me of you, and it kind of makes me think back and realise that it might be that you had something hiding away from me. You put me through lots of thinking these days. I dont know if it should or should not be something that i should be thankful about.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
5:28 AM
I think i am in Christmas mode right now. Whatever i am doing it would probably be related to CHRISTMAS. The fabulous thing is that it gets me all excited and cheery which is a good thing. My friends, beware wads in store for you guys haha.
Right now everything is about me and your presents. haha. I really hope you guys would feel happy after receiving the presents. Ok. I let you know about wassup later..
till later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
10:45 AM
Boy am i in one hell of a mess right now, ok? What i thought i used to want so badly i am chucking it right aside now. Honestly , i have no idea how to get my priorities right on track. totally no clue. Should i just quit it all up or should i start going for practices, damnit. I had the chance to make it all right and i screw it up. Damn. Damn. But no regrets, because i know i wouldnt be happy doing what i was doing. Arghh...i just wish i was more sure and certain. More. argh..............I need to start it all up again.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
why wont you work?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
suddenly i feel it all again, when i thought it was all over. I guess the moment comes and go just like the side effect of a drug. I feel sad that you choose not to walk this path call life with me, but the more i despise this feeling you are making me feel. But i think after this i'd be better and stronger than ever. If only you'd tell me why...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Okay if this gets out i am going to continue using blog, if not it is back to opendiary. WEll, nothing much happened today, so yea. but i was kind of shagged. And to the person i used to miss, i am glad i have forgotten you.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
4:45 AM
YipeEee!! I just came back from Leadership Training Camp at Camp Christine. I wished i went there earlier because it was kind of fun, those camping days but you know what? I guess its because my senior was there thats why. Its different when you dont have to be the one to always lead and instead be a follower for once, at times you get to enjoy stuff better this way.
Yea Canoeing Rawks!!! I love the sea the feeling of being into it and just drifting as it comes. It totally is an enjoyable experience. After all, we did more than just normal canoeing, we played games along the way, and did a little capsizing drill.. haha!
Ah loh, even treated us to sakae sushi! Oh boy, it was real nice, now i am just tired. Looking back, i have been doing lots of pool and i finally went to Kbox. haha. my first! okay i wasnt a big fan of that place before but oh well, i got to get some rest first. catch ya back later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, December 09, 2004
10:23 AM
I am kinda heartbroken. And,yea i do have a heart here. Reason why it is shattered into pieces is because i placed my life to someone i thought i could trust and in return i get place aside without an explanation. Ok, i have not gotten over it, for one big reason, i have not accepted the fact that it has happened. I am not the type of person who can move on easily without a reason, though i am trying really hard.
You said you have changed, but does the fact that you have changed means that we cant even talk to each other? That we cant even hold a proper conversation? I dont know if you have some unforeseen reasons but if you dont than i guess you dont know how much it hurts to lose a friend.
Like a child born who lost its mother
Like a business without its capital
I lost something important, damn. Sorry for ranting on but i do need some closure, and i have not receive the right amount of closure on this issue to say i am done with it.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
6:12 PM
OoOOooo...my first entry at blogspot. I have decided to make the change because i guess majority of my peeps are here. So heya! I'd be here to stay unless there are other changes! So till later. I send my greetings to all here.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.