i've been doing much of sleeping these days. Not the 12 hours straight of sleep, rather is the unintentional 'sleeps'. Just in case you did not manage to understand my lingo, here is the illustration....
Illustration 1 I was suppose to wake up at 7am for gym routines. Instead, i smack shut the alarm and when to sleep all the way through 9am. And yes! 9am is still early, but hell i got to wake up to rush some dumb project presentation that i have been avoiding for so long. Please also take into account the fact that i slept at 3 am the same day.
Illustration 2 I had a comfy seat in the train. So naturally with the music streaming in my ears i fell into a deep slumber???? Not exactly a perfect place to rest, but i was too freaking tired i slept through all the way till the train reached my station. Thankgod, my station was the last one, and this nice soul was kind enough to tap me on the shoulder to wake me up from my slumber.
Illustration 3 Slept pretty late again, due to the fact that i am determined to not screw up my school work and be hardworking from now on... so i studiously finished all my tutorials just before 3 am again. I have an 8am lesson. Technically speaking, i would have to be awake at 5:30am. AND I DID!! only to realise the toilet occupied by my mum, so i went to the bed and was knock off immediately as if i had downed a dozen bottle of alcohol. This happened all the way till my friend gave me a wake up call at 7am. (thanks alot appreciate it alot but what a good timing, my house aint exactly near da sch) so had to skip the 8am lecture. but managed to be at school for good breaky.
Just as i was travelling from school which is YCK to Bukit Gombak station to dilligently accomplish my gym routines, i was dozing off again, and i successfully almost did that again while i was working at kumon today.
* AND PEOPLE ARE COMMENTING ON MY EYE BAGS!!!!!!!!!
There are just so many things to do, i need the night. work, school, friends, family, ccas, commitments, gyms.... and what have yous....
somebody tell me its not wrong. its not screwing myself. No right??? hahaNot so easy to kill me.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
7:18 PM
i'm dreaming of a nissan march. me in da car. driving down da lanes. me,myself and I. hehe.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, June 26, 2006
7:35 AM
just came back from school,, time right now is closh to 11-ish in the night of course. havent been in school for that long a time and i guess it has been wearing me down. Feels kind of tiring. With so many tests and projects coming up, you really wonder when it might all actually end.
Chalet was alright, the barbeque was the best, would have to admit that it was quite delicious, kudos to the guys, ought to give them some credit... I'm pretty worn down by the immense amount of time spend working, socialising and what-have-yous. I have already attended chalet, a farewell party. 3 days worth of work straight in a row. Lotsa football actions and i havent even started on my projects.. which i am of course guilty about.
There are still so many things not done yet. Had my driving this morning and it went pretty well to say. I am kind of getting the hang of swerving my wheels around and accelerating this machine of mine. Had the idea of hitting the gym this morning, but my body seem rather reluctant, i fell asleep soon after the minute i woke up.. so much for being discipline huh?
one accomplishment of the day was the fact that i got to eat @ the Naked Fish. I guess food= my life.. would rather die than live without the luxury of food.
so many things got me thinking, i guess its alright to feel overwhelmed by so many issues at one time. I'm so glad i have so many friends around me. Sometimes its good to have different groups of them, you'd get to break free from the ones that is bothering you.
haha.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
8:44 AM
i wouldnt call it politics. just calling it selfish-ness. so sick and tired of watching that. i really should just take a break from there..... and just breakaway..........
work- i really hope i'd never have to slogged it out when i get older. piece of shit. people and their differences.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
7:59 AM
almost through recovery, except for the irritating throat problem. Just in case you guys have no idea what when wrong with me, i think i suffered a system breakdown. the doc could not come to a consensus what went wrong but i think i kinda guess it must be from over exertion or fatigue. that is like the last thing i want to happen to me.
i've got to listen to my body and do nothing but rest. fever hit an all high 39.8, amazing huh? i never had fever over 38.3 and now its like wow!! couldnt move any of my limbs was seriously paralyse to da bed. took me about 2 days to cure. considered a fast recovery, but was left with the side effects of it.
i just hope i okay now. hehe. hate to be on those jargon medicine. shall take good care of myself from now on, good food and stuff.... er.. i mean nuitrious food. haha... got to start training next week for the Real Run. oh boy.... really must keep fit. reduce stress level. and hai~think i am punishing my body too much.
really a lesson learnt.
Napfa was a success did i say? i got a bronze. hehe. would have gotten much better if not for my pathetic standing broad jump. haha.... the rest were like bs and As. hehe...i have projects to do..... sentosa work still on, kumon work still on, driving lessons on.. i guess i pretty much on da right track huh?
ish there anything eles that i am missing out?
you know i am not going to be serious even if i get into a relationship so why persists? why suddenly the love? i dont want to limit my options, so i cant settle with you. there is someone out there i think i might have something for him, but now ish not da right time. even for the guy i think i might have something for. do you understand? relationship is not my thing now. maybe accompanion but not relationship ye? i need a shoulder to lean on when i am tired. need someone to crap with me but not something i must pay attention and develop in. how do i explain all these to you tom?
Clarice can do it;) tee hee.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, June 09, 2006
8:32 AM
so everything has come to an end. the tests, the fitness trials.. they are all over. sudden sigh of relief just escaped my gap, its good i guess, was starting to feel the heat these days. getting sleepy although i have been sleeping sufficiently.
I woke up today to grasp the essence of Contact call mgt, called me stupid in my time management. but i am just glad that i manage to cramp the necessities in 2 hours. after which i could not stand the tension so i carried on my VCD adventure. Of course, i soon fell asleep because i was exhausted by god knows what. woke up only just in time to get myself prepared for school.... the last paper and of course fitness test....
paper was aiight i guess.... just depends on luck now. ya, so much for saying that i dont believe in luck haha.
Napfa was fun la, seriously, because we practically enjoyed ourselves and i am rather proud of myself la, quite an accomplishment for someone who has not exercise for quite some time. i know some of you out there will probably be screaming your heads out saying that you guys havent been exercising for years longer than me, but i used to be exercising like every other day? haha. take that.
after that was a nice dinner @ Lot 1. wanted to head to the airport but i guess we're too exhausted and hungry. so we went to SUKI SUSHI. damn that place is cheap man... first time the two of us ate sushi for like 20 bucks???? haha. and i met Juliana there. havent seen her in like ages and when i do its because i wanted to eat Tiramisu cake?
oh well, today is a helluva adventure. couldnt make it down to Ann's party @ momo cause i am seriously exhausted, and there is like the world cup match coming up? how can clarice miss it ye?? anyway, now that the tension days are over, i bet the fun will start coming in. Chalet is in place oredi!cool! Mahjong session in progress. Karaoke session organised. wat about pool?? movies. chilling out?
not forgetting projects ye?? oh wells. lets just make this 2 weeks worth it ye? work tom. and makan session again @ Mayim. Did i say i had a wonderful sumptious dinner with Rach @ Secret Recipe??hehehehe.. oh boy the fun has only just begun. hehe
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
8:13 AM
thankgod the worst is over. i'm kind of free now but lost. your know when this kinda shit happens when i get hungry over and over again. cravings for everything and anything and the emotional rollercoaster.oh crap. i knew my life shouldnt be too dependant on another person. i'm pretty much happy being me, the life i had so why screw it up ye? haha. randomness. okay, a girls got to do what a girl gotta do,ye...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
7:59 AM
now that all da fun is taken its back to serious business. damn i hate to be serious. but i guess i have got to draw a line as to what has to be done. no nonsence till this crucial week is over. hai~i thought i din know the word spelled S-T-R-E-S-S. but its ok.... tis is getting exciting
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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