u had to come back into the world where u had been deleted and create waves of turbulents again.
u make me consider my choices all over again, when this time i am pretty sure my choices are certain.
u make me want to feel reliant all over again.
too bad u werent 'perfect' enough to make me say i need u all over again.
i'm evil i know.
but its the only way i can protect myself.
i am not afraid to say that i once needed you,
not afraid to say you once hurt me,
not afraid to say that you might have a chance lurking somewhere
( because u always somehow seem to get me when i am at my weakest)
but i am afraid it is precisely why i dont trust myself
i want a guy who knows himself, who knows his decision, who knows what he is doing.
till u know all of it, i dont think i can bring u in.
but i still love u very much as a friend.
and nothing can change that.
but though u stirred this bout of emotions in me, everything else remains the same.
the way to my heart is through doing things that i need that i dont have to say.
i'm not ready for a commitment now la, cant imagine myself in it although sometimes i do want it, i just cant go into a relationship because i think i expect perfection. Although many times, i have seemed to be able to compromise this fact, but when i compromise i am hurting myself. Aiya, just simply speaking i haven found the right one la.
i like fairytales.
actually this story above quite fairytale already ha ha.
Still no voice.