the ability to continue lying in the comfort of my bed past 6 delights me today as i dont have to report for school. Woke up around 10, did my crunches, crashed the couch to watch mariah carey's special. cool music- the emanicipation of mimi..
headed to school to have lunch with Cheryl and co. had great fun, seriously, during lunch we just crap a lot throughout the whole meal, even after that we had a mini arm/finger wrestling session haha. Met Leonard at the booth. In fact, met lotsa people. oh well, got so engrossed in the fun that i forgot i was meeting liying for dinner at Republic Poly.
Rush out only to make a blunder on my way there, by the way, i was supposed to settle my UOB card today but stupid me, brought the wrong envelope out, just great huh? Estupido..Tontu.. Love the time we had at RP, the painful experience that i had at wheelock..ouch!! the chilling out and our plans and our conversation.
I found my MILKRUN kaki!! okok, i'm very tired now. *yawn* still lotsa things to do. 1. UOB card 2. Volunteer form 3. Tennis 4. Night Trekking form 5. things to buy...
so many things so little time.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
11:39 PM
carpe diem. suddenly it seems that everybody has been reading lance armstrong book and has got hold of this phrase. seize the day(english translation) the kindergarden in my neighbourhood is named after it. Hcjc campfire is also named after that.
okok. checking out the milkrun event. have to settle my UOB card.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
6:41 AM
come to think of it, trying to reflect back to my past one month of life since school has started, i guess once again i would say i wouldnt have any regrets, i have done so many things that i had never done before. But at the same time there are still many other things i could have done. I just wish i could have put in more effort in other areas, but i know better than to be too hard on myself, oh well.
Went to AISEC's International Seminar today, it was indeed an eye-opener, what was really insightful was we were the youngest among the people who attended this seminar. Felt a little out of place but still could deal with it. Thought us alot of stuff like when you're dealing with adversitites, dealing with unfamiliar environment especially when you're in another country, insights to india, and basically i had alot of fun learning about the global arena.
There were lotsa mingling around with people, testing your social skills, i realised i got to notice my Ps and Qs because they were people of stature, people who were working and were very professional indeed. So the socialising part was a little awkward but still i survived it. Could have done a little more but than again. Easy Clarice Easy.
That was today. By the way, yesterday at Harry's bar was cool, with the band on, i wanner be back there again. there's lots of things to do still. my basic theory driving test is approaching. Other seminars, taking up of sports, hoping to go backk to soccer training if i can, if time permits. so many things so little time.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
leonard's last day in TEP EVRS. Going to miss him. Great fun having him around. freaking shagged because of TEP star awards. my feet freaking hurts because of the heels. TGIF again:) went to harry's bar. great drink-> dequitas. or some sort. intl conference seminar tomorrow. still estatic over liverpool win. more tmr.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
10:55 PM
where should i even start? lotsa things happened today, the highs and the lows, shit happened in school and i am rather pissed about what happen, i might just take matters into my own hands. Other issues ranges from my rather messed up life, with so many things to do but not knowing where or what to start to my still messed up room.
but today's entry will be solely dedicated to Liverpool the new Champions of Europe. There was no doubt that i was very much looking foward to this match, but also i knew that the odds were greatly against us, and i had not place much hope on liverpool. But something irked inside me, telling me that its going to work this time round. So when i did when to place my bet for liverpool i was brimming with confidence. So afraid was i that i would miss the match cause of my tiredness that i told Couz Eugene to ring me a wake up call.
He called me twice and i woke up, switched on the tv, guess what? My mind was telling me to just forget it when we were one nil down, my body went to sleep, what made things worse was i woke up realising we were 3 nil down. I was sure i was out, but i knew back in my head that thats not the way liverpool end things, at least not often and definitely not now.
So i jolted straight up, and soon goals were blasted in, from gerrad, smicer and alonso. I was speechless, bright awake and estatic. Not only did i know i might have won some ka ching for myself but also the fact that i know for sure that there is no other club than Liverpool, who can make such a comeback and put life into perspective.
All the way till extra time and till the penalty shootout i knew for sure Liverpool and secured it, See and you will know which team had a greater hunger and passion. Kudos to every single one of them. I wont take anything away from AC milan but liverpool made history in everyway they knew and it made me realise why i am behind liverpool all the way since young.
I am proud to be a liverpool fan, sang my way to school- you'll never walk alone. smsed my friends to announce the victory. Lets keep in short and sweet, Liverpool is my dream team, the club that has defy the odds time and time again to create such beautiful memories. Thank You for reaffirming my beliefs. you thought me passion, you thought me life- all over again.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
11:01 PM
it was really an eye opener checking out the different schools in my school. sounds complicating? er, well not exactlym, part of my roadshow today was to do publicity so i was doing my job and so was also having a tour around the school. quite interesting if you ask me.
anyway, i did my best today no regrets whatsoever, probably the only regret was not being able to play badminton. haha. crap right i?
i just got myself signed up for a whole lot of seminar and stuff, going to busy the next coming weeks or days.(whichever comes first)
okok.. trying to fixed some part of my life now,or rather rearranging some doccuments, sorting out what and what not to do. so many thing so little time, erm? typical saying huh? right now till the match, i am going to gear up all just for it so tata.. see ya later..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
somehow i am just unable to recollect todays's happening, i'd just know that it went rather unproductively. nothing much was accomplished, but what got me going was that i continued with my lance armstrong book and gave me motivation to the so many things that are coming.
meeting tons and tons of deadlines, attending meaningless lectures. Sometimes i do wonder at times do we actually know what the hell we are doing? Oh well, apparently so i guess.I am rather broke this week, so i'd just got myself bread from my home and ate it for lunch. Yet, i still bought a magazine worth 5 bucks. Full of contradictions, but oh well, i am so obsessed with self improvement and sports that i have to get it so tada.
attachement started quickly and ended quickly today, mainly cause there wasnt any specific task that needed to be done except for my posters, and to get the supplies for the mega TEP award event. oh yea, fack, i'd just realised i havent bought much stuff. But hell,i am running low on cash.
anyway, hopped on the train down to raffles, ate dinner, real budget, cause my well is seriously drying up. what more, erm... learned some stuff, made new friends, and hopped on the train again back home, only to realise how messy my room is, did a little packing than, it hit on me that i am freaking hungry. so my stomach hurts now, but i am just finishing the draft of my poster for my roadshow, shall leave it for tomorrow then. Sleepy and super messed up, because there are so many things to be done but i have no idea what to do next. like the registration tomorrow how in the hell are we supposed to get 50 kids.
grr.. its okay, positivity pays. cant wait for the liverpool vs ac showdown. couz andy just msg me from shanghai, damn i want to be on hols!!!!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, May 22, 2005
10:36 PM
when the buzzer went off, i so badly wanted to just lie in the comfort of my bed, but sub conciously i thought, laziness? i couldnt live with that. So i got right up and get ready in the fastest possible time to meet the girls for the big walk which was supposed to start at 7:30 am. We werent exactly very late when we reached there, but it was way after our kick off time.
From the station all the way down to the stadium it was one hell of a walk, but it was fun. I saw Edmund, yes yes, my edmund!! I miss him so so much, i havent seen him for so long and when we finally saw each other we were like awww..... haha. speechless.not really but if only we could like hang around a little longer.
Anyway, the walk began and we it started off quite funnily, there was this association- Fa Lun Gong, they were quite a big group and you know big groups hinder our progress, so i and Shiya and company were like cutting our way through running through masses and masses of people trying to get ahead. It was hilarious. Wad made it even better was let me see, how we tried to push beyond our limit, i guess i havent really hit mine. But we sorted had the buddy system haha. I was with Shiya, Michelle was with Cheryl, it wasnt said but it was known. So we had to sorta pull each other along the way whichever falls away.
That was how we trudged all the way from kallang to raffles place than back. 10 kilometres in total and i think we accomplished it in an hour and 45 mins, which was quite slow, but i can live with that. After which was down to raffles shopping centre for our lunch, i was running low on cash seriously so i just ate the cheapest food outta everything there.
Came home and slept like a pig because i was really exhausted, dinner was at Garden Hotel, it was a sumptious buffet, the free flow of wine reminds me of my time in aussie. just miss it back down under. i want to go back.
oh well, as for the day before i went for spanish classes and sing along sessions again. haha. check out the pictures below. BIG WALK 2005 accomplished!
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FInish line!!!!! finally!!!!!!
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half way through the BIG WALK
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first few klits of the BIG WALK 2005
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me and shiya-> the buddy system
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
10:10 AM
TGIF. That pretty much sums up how i'd like to approach this very day. Can you really imagine Clarice, being stuck in TEP from 8:30am till 6pm everyday, and head home every night because she is so freaking tired and this whole cycle continues for god knows when? Well, you hit the buzzer if you say hell no! Because no! haha.
Anyway, in the morning my team was supposed to meet some supplier, and so we were told to fetch him from the OPs room. But we were slightly late, in raiha's words, its cause clarice wanted to head back to take her lanyard!, haha. yea probably so. So i went into Team 1 to Team 3 room, so call the roadshow room, and was told he left. But throughout this whole process, Chalven was actually speaking to me, saying hi and hey nice shirt!, but i sorta subconciously shut him off. haha. hey sorry dude! it wasnt on purpose. It was really funny man!
The product that we were going to hold in our 3 day roadshow would sound even funnier though- Ding Dong Bell. hahahahah.
Ok, there wasnt much time spent in school though, i left for school for entertainment and work. Went singing some tunes with Michelle and Peisin, than headed to lavender, to source for items for our next upcoming events -TEP star awards as well as Children's Fun Camp. Slacked a little, as we played pool, when i lost 2-3 to raiha. Cant believe it! haha.
It was down town to Raffles for Sakae Buffet with Cheryl. We tried to equal off the cost price so in total we ate about 20 dishes? we had great laughs there, because she kept disturbing me, haha. I was wearing the Jack Daniels shirt and she could not resist making fun off both names, but we were laughing at other people's expense too. haha.
We could had lasted longer on the buffet table but we had to meet Cheryl's friend Ming Xing for some job thing. ( this i keep for later) if anyone of you want to know what happen, ask me ye? I need some advice too anyway.
I miss Shannon! ahhahaha... yea shannon, i miss ya too!!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
11:14 PM
If you think sitting through a 3 hour lecture is long enough, think again. Passing time when you're in TEP can seriously makes you go crazy. Not only so, you'd be so much more clever and street smart in the coming years to be. Guess why? Cause you will constantly be thinking of alternatives to kill time, like how the guys played soccer and how we watched part of it, how i and cheryl went to play pool on a billard table at grassroots.
And if all things go smoothly, you'd be able to scrap through TEP with a reasonably well result, provided you are still able to answer to you lecturer and at the same time still able to get things done. For me, life after lunch is normally my entertainment time, you used the time to play all kinds of sports activities, but at times only to rush back to your room when your lecturer calls for a meeting.
oh well, guess what? My lecturer told me to attend an audition for the emcee position for the TEP star awards. great huh? Wassup with interviews, resume and auditions these days? But i guess i'd just give it a go for fun sake. After TEP was down to town with Shiya, we basically walked around before having dinner.
On a personal note, i was glad she wasnt so uptight during the night, she was able to relax and have fun throughout the trip. As for me, i was able to leave certain issues behind, and enjoy the moment with her. Lotsa things happened these days, and all i can say is that we all need our little getaways, our little crazy moments to ease the pressure of us. She made me go crazy, with her uncertainty of directions, making me turn left than right than left than right again and again. haha.
MEL i miss going crazy with you!!!! *moves to the beat*
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
10:00 PM
basically, today is all about my first(s).
1. I did not talk to Shiya during the whole train ride. 2. I had an interview with Mr Terrence Ong who wasnt very friendly. 3. I had to write a resume. 4. I was being filmed by Jiali and Co. for their Macdonalds Project 5. I, Cheryl and Chalven 'stole' food meant for the emersion programme peeps. 6. I played table tennis with Eugene, PeiNam, Chalven, Cheryl and Co. The real deal. 7. I went home early today. 8. I took a longer walk back home from the interchange. 9. I actually took a nap the minute i laid on my bed. 10. Oh yea, the TEP SEX AWARD! hahahahahah.. hilarious.
I just wish i get to play sports everyday during TEP, have a good shower, and a good meal and just return home to a good bed, and a few good chats. Thats all i am asking for these days. i'll give u a list of things i am actually looking foward to.
1. More Table Tennis games. 2. A few more Chilling out session aka drinking session with my soccer pals and others. 3. beach-ing on saturdays 4. Job application. 5. Spanish Classes 6. Basic Theory Test
JL was suggested tennis classes. well, i am all for it. just gotta check it up again.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
the round of tennis last night was really cool man! haha. Chalven, Cheryl and Clarice. I just realised that our names all start with Cs, haha. okok. Lame. Anyway, we had our fun and laughter there, what more was that we had a mini gossip session. wasnt supposed to happen, but oh well, thats life. the ride back was torturous. Sometimes i seriously wish i can just bunk at my friend's house. But than again, already having so much freedom, i think its only right to have the decency to head home after a day. Hungry and tired and feeling unbearably cold. was seriously thinking i might just come down with a fever, but it was just a false alarm.;) back to TEP again today. Sometimes i just wish this whole vicous cycle would just end. Going to meet about the Exchange programme later. I am having serious dilemma. I want to go but obviously i am not really financially stable. But i know i would seriously regret if given the chance i dont take it. That i really cannot live with it. So should i stay or should i go? Sometimes i just wish i wont get chosen at all. Great! huh? slamming my own chances. So many chances, so many opportunities, so many limitations. Somebody willing to sponspor me 4 k? haha. i'd sincerely thank you in advance ye?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
8:34 AM
Cool man! check out my big walk number!!! finally finally.... after so many years..hahah just joking though hahaha.. but i am happy lalalallala....accomplishment of the day
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I think today i accomplished the many simple things i set out to do since TEP started.
1. I slept continuously for more than 8 hours straight. 2. I wore a super short boardshort out. 3. I practised my guitar. 4. I did my 100 crunches without stopping. 5. I did not meet much people.( havent been feeling like meeting anybody since last week) 6. I did not stay out late. 7. I come to a conclusion that i shouldnt take life so seriously. 8. I come to another conclusion that i want an exciting love life (haha. dunno where this came from though) 9. I am trying to sort out what i want to accomplish. 10. Finally, to the beach this sat.
I am seriously still having problems with no. 9. Damn. I feel so lost. why why why?? Its okay, its part of growing up, finding out what i really want. haha. crap. full of shit.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
10:42 AM
just finished my set of 100 crunches.
Was supposed to head for a game of tennis early this morning, but i guess Cheryl had not booked the court so perhaps either tomorrow or another day. Sunday is the day i dont feel like heading out though. But we'll see haha. Anyway, i bet we will have the whole of TEP days to play around.
Have not been updating much these days. Basically, upon reaching home, i'd seriously be so freaking tired, that though the computer is on, i would just sleep right in front of it, and it doesnt help when i have to get up for school the next morning at 6.
But its been pretty alright these days except for the little gliches here and there, some people got caught for gambling, i have tried sneaking out of TEP a few times. Hang out late at night outside school only to reach home in the early morning, like i said feeling them shagged.
Not only so, i am currently in the midst of wanting more but not sure what to want. I lost the hunger for whatever i was looking for. Like i cant even be bothered to go for my events, though i badly know that i want to be part of it. I want to sign up for so many things, but at times i just cant be bothered to put myself into the emotional challenges whilst in it. I am just so freaking lazy.
I am also such an ass. I cant attend Stephanie's birthday. I am such an idiot these days. Feeling so freaking lost and always seeking senseless pleasures. Upon seeing SBM grand finale today, i realise that i jolly well could have been those up stage, those were the things that i had wanted to do, but did not do. Why? Because i am just such a loser. ok, sorry, i am just trying to be harsh to myself, to knock some sense into my head.
I dont want to waste time anymore. hai~Wake UP girl!!!!!!!! I just got to find the right balance now, and i really want to go France and i hope i can get the money. we'll see how it goes huh... we'll see how the next few days unfold. bring me back to life..hahaha.. i dont even know the date today.
haha okok, Clarice, relax.. hahaha
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
9:30 AM
yogurt as dessert?
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our delicacy.... yum yum.... we actually had more than just that hahah:P
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thats the way life should be, full of smiles, full of energy. but anyways, lets not take life too seriously ye?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
11:59 PM
so many things happened these few days. But i am too lazy to write it all down. but right now at this point of time, i am very angry. Angry at myself? I dunno. Angry at her? I dunno. Angry at the situation? i dunno. Maybe i am not even angry, maybe i am just sad? disappointed? no maybe i am just lost.
why do you always take us for granted? I dunno, it might be that i judge too fast. But you seem to take our care and concern like shit. And you know what?You cant accept certain things about urself, you have your own barrier but seriously, think again, its affecting everything. Damn it. I dunno why i have sucha strong emotion suddenly. Please forgive me.
*the ring is lost, issit a sign? hai~
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
11:48 AM
savouring the delicacy of our food...
the day started of real slowly, i was really going to fall asleep every minute, plus the weather wasnt a bonus. met Cheryl at Bugis to get our much needed shopping spree. We needed to destress somehow. We got a shirt each and after which headed for our guitar lesson.
This sat, was a break away from our usual routine, we did not meet up with the guys for our daily chat and chill session, but instead with had a girlz nite out. Met up with Shiya, and the 3 of us just went eating and shopping around town. We were like bitching every single person, especially erm erm** that 2 particular person. haha.
We were laughing like crazy and i think we made alot of funny noises cause everybody was seriously looking at us. the best part was the food that we got from marche. Yum Yum!!! MORE OF SUCH NITEZ PLEASE!! LESS OF TEP!!!! I AM DYING IN SCHOOL!! hahaz.
my back hurts, my arms hurts....ouch ouch ouch
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Yum Yum... Churds, Hot Dog Bun, Cafe Macchiato Ice scream from Marche!!!
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Saturday, May 07, 2005
10:10 PM
buncha gals at bugis liang street... feasting!!!!
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me and mel!!!! guess dinner wasnt enough ahhaha
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My TEP days really couldnt get any much worse. But i was glad i got a retreat away from my group today. I volunteered to go for an external roadshow at JTC with Chalven's group. We left as soon as we could get out of that room filled with animoisity. Went up the bus and left for JTC.
There were loads of things to carry. Tables and shelves we had to carry all by ourselves. Pei Nam and Ken were actually quite nice and cool guys to be with. They were cracking jokes all the way throughout the roadshow. We were also like screwing all the different chinese singers that we could think of.
The packing up was dreadful, basically because all the different vendors were fighting for the only cargo lift that went all the way up to 31st floor every single time, when we were on the 4th floor. haha, but i had fun, because at the end, Chalven, Ken, Pei Nam and me wer the soul survivors carrying the tables and the heavy stuff and having fun teasing the others. * thats what you do when you go to gym often to train, you have to carry these stuff* haha.
Journey back to school was wet but satisfying, their lecturer offered us Goreng Pisang. Fuck, i wish i wasnt in T6 at all. I got another 5 weeks of shit to endure. I got to clear up my leader's shit. Really dont even feel like heading to school on monday, since its not my turn to present during sharing session.
Did i tell you that Pei Nam took cup noodles from our roadshow and went to Cheers to steal their hot water? Guess he was too freaking hungry haha, we did not get lunch there at JTC, i had to call for help (shiya) to join me with my late lunch in school with Cheer's Curry Puff and double expresso, because i was seriously tired and falling asleep. We sat at the high stairs and i started eating.
After school, we watched the guys soccer game. They were supposed to play with the freshiesbut unfortunately it was cancelled. Haha chalven was so looking foward to trashing them haha.Game still went on. I wasnt really paying attention to the match cause really the lightings sucks, and i and Shiya were busy looking at guys. We left earlier with Adib, there was this tiny conflict that happened*more later*
Met the girls at Bugis for dinner, man, it was helluva fun. Ate all the way till 10 than headed to this arcade place that MEL insisted on playing. It was fun though really. had great fun. * reach home real late* more tomorrow.
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Thursday, May 05, 2005
9:04 AM
pool after the food intake.... Our usual pool hangout
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dinner wasnt enough... we were freaking hungry still....
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our dinner after a long hard day......... peekaboo
Shit happens, and shit happens in bulk today. Supplier came with the wrong order. Fucking Lecturer has got some communication problem. Wassup with favouritism? More conflicts are starting to arise in my group with the other group members. And i thought my group was saved from such trouble, guess it has joined in the gang too. crap, so sick of this shit.
i'm just glad the day was over fast enough for me to enjoy my steamboat dinner with cheryl at parkway parade, our rotiboy as well as the pool game at our usual hangout. hai~ i am so freaking tired, but i have not been doing much, i am so fucking pissed with myself over i dont know what. This entry is stupid i know. but i dont know, i am so at a lost, i am losing so much of myself. I just feel like letting it all go now for once. I feel like quitting, but i know i cant, you dont just quit this way.
i guess i'll find my way somehow.
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005
11:00 PM
fuck! my ear hurts so badly.. or rather my ear lobe. I have no idea if it is my ear ring or did i just poke through some flesh. But even if i do, it never hurt so badly before. i sprayed some antibotic spray, hoping to numb the pain but it seems to hurt even more. There is this stinging sensation, hurts more than piercing ur ear.
Man, i am so freaking tired today, my body is seriously failing me, i feel as if i am running a temperature. Clad in jeans and t shirt, i was manning my booth for the roadshow in school. Fuck. I was so tired today, and the weather was so unforgiving. I seriously could have passed out any moment. I was really hot, sticky and uncomfortable.
I am just very tired today. Never felt this drained since i dont know when. Seriously felt like i'm having a headache. Weird thing was Silas was feeling that way too.
Met my aunt after school, to get some stuff from Flash n Splash, after which we chatted and went for dinner before heading to the Samsung Shop to get her phone repaired, I met Mel's girlfriend friend there. haha, and we hit it off quite easily, i chatted with her while my aunt was waiting for her turn.. haha. cool.
man. still i am freaking tired, and sick. my body is failing me. my gum is bleeding too. thats a sign.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
11:29 PM
got out of the house feeling hopefully that i had control of the day, because i had planned the night before as to what i would be doing today. The train ride to school today was great, at least thats what i remembered it to be.
Entered my EVRM room only to realise everyone has played smart and decided to arrive late. Damnation, i should have done so! But i than again i am glad i didnt do so today, my lecturer in charge came in early today, so there was no way i could sneak in after that. Could see she was rather pissed about us. We did get our stuff done though after that.
I got to thank Chalven for his call, he saved my arse. I was tired being in the EVRM room, his call came in time,we went out to chill. He finally got his mobile changed. Was it N3230? I guess it was, it was damn cool with all the functions, though a little hard to navigate at times. My chilling session with Chalven was short as i met Shiya for lunch and we again, sneaked out of school!!!! hehe.
Came back only to more nagging and work. No one wanted to be in charge of the flowers, whose to blame, thats dirty job man! So much shit to cover up, what more, my lecturer couldnt stop asking questions. I seem to be the one answering most of her questions. Damnation, should have shut my mouth, now i am in charge of the bloody thing, and i got screwed big time by her. Skipped sharing session to finish up the forms. I was really angry with everything, i dont know why. Shit! now i have to worry about sales figures, forms, consolidation and manpower of both booth. hmm.... gotta work out something ye?
Thank god it was 6. Silas accompanied me to SSDC to sign up for my Basic Theory Test. My queue number was 777. Silas said its something to do with perfection. hmmm... well, it was quite a long queue though, we chit chat, walk around inspecting cars and bikes, sat down again, chat more. Was real tired, leaned on him and found out he was using DUNHILL cologne!!! the same one Chalven was using and the same one my uncle was using too!!! Hell, i love that smell, and it brings back good all memories.
Okok, anyway, my initial plan was to pay my last respect to Dr Wee Kim Wee, but time was against me. So i pushed the idea to tomorrow. oh well, headed back to Jurong it was already around 10. Hungry like crazy, had a brief dinner and i guess its back to work again. Damnation!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, May 02, 2005
1:51 AM
i'm so supposed to be sleeping now, but i'd rather cherish the time i have now before heading to the dreadful place later. i have been slacking through my whole day today, hoping to gain some enlightment through slacking but unfortunately not.
Music as the background. the tv switched on, and the food by my side. i just lay on my bed through the day.Did not really feel like talking to anyone, so my msn messenger was on an away mode, but there were occasional chats.
What was great was it rained!! haha. i went out and let the rain fall on me... boy, do i miss the it!!
Anyway, i am so sick of the nonsense that is surrounding me, damn it man! Please dont let your insecurities screw this relationship up. i cant help you if you are not willing to help yourself. I've been giving too much and i am afraid at times you might have taken it for granted, i dont know, but hey, its not too late. Save yourself, be happy, its your life not mine that you have to be responsible for at the end of the day.
I wake up each day happy to meet you at the station, knowing that thats one of the few times we get to meet before school's dreadful attachement, and sometimes you just got to make things difficult. Do you know i wish to see you smile and be happy?
All i am asking is to be happy, and it will make me happy.
till later peeps.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
5:21 PM
thanks for everything people, from the boxers to the g strings, the red wine, the self decorated photo albums, the shirt, organisers, the belt and the spectacular Video. I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart... thats for all that you have done for me...:)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
this is roughly what my new hair colour is like.. but it varies with different sunlight hahaha..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
okok.. i just woke up from my deep slumber...and i am still trying to adapt to the surrounding of my home. Sometimes i wonder what the hell am i doing, always out of the house since i came back from Perth, till i find it strange somehow to be back here.
anyway, like i said this whole week is my week and i am really going to try to make the most of it. Part of why i decided to do so was cause TEP really deprives me of much time to do the things i need, a daily mudane routine of having to report to work from 8 to 6 is really driving every single one of us crazy. I really mean it, Silas is definitely going crazy with his mood swings, ok i hope he is not reading this, if not i am definitely going to get it, chalven is being super wacky haha... shiya has her on and off days.. in fact there are many more to name of. Damn TEP.
I want to do well, but how do you do that when the school judge u base on your personal selling( a way of earning revenue for the school base on what you have buying and selling of school products ) and its not as if the products are fantastic. Most of the time all of us are actually using money from out pockets. okok. Its okay. Leave this ramblings as it is.
had celebration with soccer peeps, and my sec sch mates. after which was my stint away from home which includes, getting to dye my hair at some *special place* secret. smuggling LY into China Black. Spending that night at my friend's house slacking!! FUN!! the next day was more slack, then to guitar lessons, then chilling out and slacking down town at orchard with my buds from poly, saw adib again!!! OKok, i din realise they were actually planning my surprise birthday celebration. stupid me, did not suspect anything at all.. haha. they made this video collaboration of everybody behind my back with speeches from everyone, thanks guys!!! Appreciated!!
watched late night movie with cheryl and michelle being heading to her house to watch the production of their videos, chatted and play poker! time flies, headed for breakfast,den it was back home, where i ran straight to sleep. sorry for the long entry.
finding ways of not going to sch on tues.haha.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
hello.. i havent been home for the past few days... so for now i will have a short update. past 2 days have been fun but tiring too. I spent a bomb. Would seriously be rather broke the next few days. There are also certain things that i am not happy about. sad to say, it always about him. anyway forget him, haha.. i foresee myself being so tired.. that i actually do want to sleep the next 2 days away. But if you people want to call me out, i am all for it:). I seriously need some enlightenment and to chill out before TEP. hai~ life. So my mobile will be on. do contact me if there is anything...:) love ya guys... till later i will update more.
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