Highlights of the week 1. Played Table Tennis 2. Completion of MMD 3. Children's Society Walkathon 4. Rotaract's Meeting 5. Planning of Flea Market 6. Gathering and treat from Mich ;)
More sports please? People please ask me out to do some sports!!!
I'm broke, can someone provide me with $$ for some books! oh crap. my life is so boring. and sheesh. i should stop complaining. and yes. i'm still at The Travel Connect making reservations and bookings attending trainings and looking at countries and what have you(s). grr... contact me people
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
4:39 PM
godsmack! I cant believe i am living in this kinda no life-er life of mine! After being in this third stopover, my life has been filled with emptiness and boredom. An inexplicable amount of stress and nothingness. Yes zlich!
Ok, maybe well i am exaggerating! But i hate it when life get monotonous. Maybe thats my flaw, i really cant stay at a place too long. I need changes, i need new assignments. I need something different.
I need to break some rules, be in control. Fack it man! I'm so freaking frustrated with smelling the radiation of the computer everyday! Yes i mean it everyday! Sorry for my language.
I want to run on the track, I want to laugh at comedies, I want to wake up late, I want to have a good meal ( although the lack of it has made my appetite smaller and i have lost some weight), But still, thats besides it, i feel so unhealthy.
I miss my buddies. I miss Michelle, Mel, Cheryl, Shiya, Chalven, Adib, Silas, Shannon, Boots, Jia Li, Li Bin, Valerie, Shari-Ann, Evon. And for those that i have always been missing, liying, huishan, steph, siyin, sim yee, ah teo.
I WANT TO SKY DIVE! I feel like just jumping of the cliff. I need to feel the adredaline rushing. I want to play sports. I want, i need some entertainment!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
10:41 PM
i'm sick, i think. I have no idea whats causing it though.
swollen eye lids. Runny Nose. The only conclusion that i have so far is: 1. Hay Fever 2. Eye Infection.
Thanks Silas for following me to the doc ;) thats all.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
5:10 PM
these few days have been jammed packed with trainings of different sorts. last minute errands to do before moving on to my next stopover TTC. I feel kinda apprehensive though i have gotten what i wanted. That's life i guess. I can safely say i dont think i will have a pleasant time with the people in there because we are of different frequency but oh well.
Shiya has been at my house for the past two days. Camping in for Flash. I have not been to guitar lessons. Smacks myself. My life's a mess. I have not done my namecard. I have not paid of First Aid Course. I am running low on cash. Flash is not done. Argh!!! TTC requires lotsa readings!!!
craaazzzyyy.. till the next time you hear from me.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
11:50 PM
so much things happen within these two days, have been wondering on an on and off basis whether this spells something good or something else, but i prefer to believe in the better good.
Anyway, a day ago Silas started short messaging me saying that its been a long time since we have met up and chat and requested for a breakfast or lunch meet up. I was kinda adamdant about the whole thing, knowing that i hate warming up after a cool off.So anyway, Cheryl and i still went along with the idea to meet him.
It was nothing huge, just at North canteen, casual chat that went with lotsa catching up and of course it ended up with a business idea. Come to think of it, how did we started with random conversations to investments to making that million bucks to a feasible business idea? Hmm.. so anyway decided to give it a try since i pretty much have nothing to do.
Also, agreed with Peisin to start a shirt business. more later when we do get into the details.
Halfway through lunch, receive calls from my mother stating that my aunt has been hospitalised, honestly speaking i am quite sick of that shit. Sorry about my language. I'm sick of people not appreciating life and going through the bull with me of however life's sucks and go into some sort of depression.
Rather, been there done that, sick of this nonsensce. But i know there are exceptional cases that i do look into it and these are the people that i care for. But also sad to say that emotion just dont come to me at that point of time when i received the call.
It was unlike when i receive Darren's news about cancer. Yes, i do feel sad, i'm not such ass to that extent but still. I know how much depression is a psychological problem as much as it is a medical problem. Part of me wanting to be a social worker is because a huge part of me believes that depression stems from psychological than it is from medical.
I believe in mind and heart of matter. Or just maybe i am avoiding, avoiding that something again. Dont want to face it again though.
Whatever it is,i still went to visit her at SGH, was so freaking tired i'd almost missed my stop. Went to look for Darren at his ward first, that fella always moving about. haha. Couldnt catch him in the end so looked for aunt laila. Nothing much to comment on, but i'd always say, if you dont help yourself no one will.
Day one of training was crazy. Information overload. Life at TTC i presume is going to be rather tough to a certain extend. GOODNESS! wish me luck more later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 15, 2005
11:34 PM
creativity lecture? er... who needs a lecture for creativity?
the thing about creativity though is that it made me realise that i am an in between person, both a left brain and a right brain. One example was the recent changes in stopover, i was posted to CRMCC aka Customer Relationship Call Centre. But i wanted to be at TTC aka The Travel Connect. I wanted something new. 70 over people are at CRMCC and i dont want to be the 1 out of the 70 plus people. I wanted to try something different.
So far i had awesome stopovers. EVRS and BPOS. A mixture of outdoors and indoors, fun and serious, active and passive. Now i wanted new exposures. So this is the right move. I wanted to make a change, so i and Val seek the teacher advices and waited for fate.
You see the pattern? Take destiny in my hands but know when is my limit. So i'm rather happy with the outcome, though i would miss hanging around the people in my class. Sad. Miss the BPOS gang, EVRS gang and 0406 gang.
i;m missing darren and wondering how is he doing... my mum went to visit him yesterday.. he was doing some blood test. i hope things are okay for him. Always keeping him in my prayers.....
A view on the email we sent to our supervisor:
>From: Angela CHENG ">Angela_CHENG@nyp.gov.sg> To: val_ong@hotmail.com> CC: Denise LEONG ">Denise_LEONG@nyp.gov.sg> Subject: Re: 3rd stopover for TEP> Date: Mon, 15 Aug 2005 17:38:59 +0800>> Hi Valerie and Clarice, >>We have evaluated your request for a swop of stopover and are pleased to inform you that it has been approved by the management. We hope that you will put in extra effort during the round for the stopover you requested. Regards,Angela
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
4:26 PM
it was an early rest for me yesterday night, quite a disappointment because i did not get to rekindle the love for liverpool last night. Yes, the EPL match is back! I was so exhausted from yesterday packed activities that i hit the sack before 1am.
Woke up rather early for a sunday morning, did my crunches than had my breakfast, before slacking at the couch in front of some good ole television, than left to visit Darren at SGH.
Met up with Meizi at Boon lay before meeting Edmund at JE. It was a little awkward. Such a long time since we all have seen each other, but through the journey to SGH we warmed up a little.
Searched for Darren's ward and was a little astounded:
" Sleep Disorder Unit?", Edmund said.
I and Meizi just look at each other. But we found the ward in the end. It was at the other end. Its been ages since we saw him, Edmund started the ball rolling. My eyes wandered around the ward, all cancer patients, all much older.
He was the youngest around, quite horrible to see them suffer so much due to cancer. I hope Darren never has to suffer, he is at the early stages. Lymph Nodes cancer. Chemotheraphy once every two weeks. He already went for the first operation.
" It might spread, only a matter of how.... the doctor already felt another tiny one...", Darren using his nonchalent tone.
We headed down to the Polar Cafe due to strict visitor hours. Had a good ole chat over there. Chatted about Shu Yi and Xian Zhong, JC and Poly life, life itself, i had a great time. I have the utmost respect for Darren and his family. By the way his brother is cute! hur hur.
We left about 3pm because my dear two friends had to study, one was in JC and prelims was near the other head statistic test, and being him, wants to get an AD for his modules. So as for me as much as i want to catch up with Darren and give him a good old goofy hug, i did not manage to do that in the end. But i'd like to say that i'd love to spend time with him again.
So right now i am just hungry , gobbling down Tuna Sandwich and water.... completed my two reports. Dont wish to start on flash yet. I'm quite disappointed at this point of time with how i handle my life. Squandered so much opportunities.... So many other things i want to do but not yet done. Other things i am not giving my 100 per cent in.
How do i fair in my life, can someone tell me?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
12:56 AM
however reluctant i was to wake up at 6:30 am on a Saturday, i very well knew that i had to attend the zonal assembly. I refuse to be the irresponsible me again. I left the house on time and decided to take my time when i received a call for HuiZhen.
Fellow NYP Commitee Rotaractor:" Can you meet me at Clementi?"
" Yea, Sure, what time do you want me to meet you?", I said.
" Actually, i kind of overslept, so i would be late, i would sms you the time again, ok?"
" Yea, sure."
So i woke up early for nothing really because everybody was so freaking late, but i had no problems with that. The point i am trying to hit at is, Joseph( Fellow NYP Rotaract VP) has a car! Wow! He drove the others to Ngee Ann. Goodness Gracious! Finally some hope in mankind. Who know i might be sitting often in his car soon;).
So, the zonal assemble did not start only till around 9:30pm. Some thought it was still held at NYP, while others were just plain late. There were alot of talk and speeches including a training for all board of directors,so halfway through i had to move to smaller rooms for IS workshop.
By the way IS is International Service. After which was Rotaract District 3310 installation, which was quite a big thing. I am sitting in the lecture with some of the millionaires and some of the big shots. The only one i could recognise though was Claire Chang.
I have a job to do as an IS director and i already have some plans in mind. I hope i have the ability to carry out this job well. Help me out yea?
Like i say there were many big shots around, and while waiting for out turn to the buffet table, one of the GOH turn and said," Go, help yourself to the food."
I turned my head and was like WOW, than it was OH NO! So shy, hur hur, without acknowledging it with a smile i turn my head around. Wow, how rude can i be right. But at least when the 2nd GOH came and approach us, i presented a smile and said thanks.
Food was great we left the ceremony thereafter. Met Shiya at JE before heading to Orchard for our mini spree and dinner with 0406 later at seoul. The spree was awesome we have not been to Orchard for ages. Met a couple of familiar faces around, like Qian Yi, Ken and Cheryl Lam.
Seoul Garden was disappointing because of the attitude of the staff. My fellow table mates were disappointing too, they are full fast man! haha. Nobody to accompany through my appetizer, main course and dessert.
Oh Pebble joined us too. Some argument with her boyfriend. She can eat man! But she is nice la so i am okay with her joining, though its weird. But oh well. Cant really be bothered i am getting old. What nonscence.
Left at 10:30pm met Weishan at the fountain after TAKA, goodness she was on a shopping spree. Rich gal! The gals left while the guys, mel, Pebble and Weishan stayed on for perhaps more night entertainment. I am just too freaking tired.
Train ride was horrendous, this girl cant keep her mouth shut. Blabbering throughout.
u asked why? the answer would be because you caused all these. i am just sick of un uncertain mood swings. So afraid that one day things that i have now would be ruin because of your mood swings. You inability to adapt to changes. I know you sacrificed alot, i love you but at times you dont know how much you are screwing it all up and leaving scars behind again and again after the wound is healed time and time again.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, August 12, 2005
10:51 PM
it can really get to your nerve knowing that your computer has failed you time and time again. What more, to think that you refuse getting yourself a laptop because you have full confidence in your computer at home and what has this faith done to you? It screwed you. Oh well, i will just got to live with it. It certaintly cant be as bad as the FUNNY VIRUS a few months back.
These few days attachement has made things a little easier for us. With tons of tasks to do, time during TEP really helps. Lets see considering that i have 2 reports, 1 flash, 1 database as well as one new assignment on hand. How cool can that be?
I intend to fully accomplish my reports by the end of this week and get some flash on hand because it is getting on my nerve. You feel so useless when you cant control the software well and have to settle with something mediocre.
You know the thurdays dinners at Shiya's house are something i really look forward to. Home cooked food, how good can it get, it might even taste bland but i just love the beauty in the blandness. i'm loving it.. ;) Looking foward to conquering other people's mother's cookings. hur hur. I'd love to cook for myself but i dont even have pans at home.
The recent haze situation in Malaysia and the report that was feedbacked from the astronauts has really got me wondering. To what extend must the Earth suffer and show it symtoms for humans to realise their actions. I know, i know i havent done much on my part but at least i am doing whatever i can. So PLEASE DO SOMETHING PEOPLE.
I'd just realise our team loves folding letters. hur hur.
CRM or TTC lets just leave it to fate. Whatever it is, i am just looking foward to the next stopover, but of course i hate being the same, so TTC brings that difference. But than again CRM is what i'm enjoy. I like calling, i think. hmm...
On a heavier note, i received a call from Edmund today. Gosh, what a surprise, and i should have known it wouldnt be good. It called to say that one of my secondary school classmate is diagnosed with cancer... you know how i always read books of people having cancer, my compositions are always around it. I know of 2 people who are down with cancer, one survived it and is still surviving it the other passed away.
I'd be visiting him this Sunday with Edmund and Meizi. BLess the child. Brings back painful memories somehow.
Would be at some major conference tomorrow at NP supposedly held at NYP. More later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
7:57 AM
i came out of school today in need of a breather. But before that i had wonderful lunch with Cheryl and saw this cute guy that shiya like so much that she ran up all the way from her stopover just to catch a glimpse of him. She fell in love with his hair.
After which camped at The Travel Centre(shiya stopover: wishing its mine for my next) for a period of time before 1thats when My Supervisor gave me a surprise msg. It states: STAND BY WILL CALL YOU SOON TKS. I was like.... waddahell. I was preparing to escape and here this msg come. But i took the risk anyway and left for Kbox with Shiya. The risk paid off she only called at 6:10pm. Which is after working hours. So yea, cant do much, so got to wait till tomorrow. I swear i will get the work done well for her;). I am a good girl.
Anyway, i am taking pride in my student. Shiya Sis. Printed a set of question. ;) I'm getting a hang of this. Would be at Ngee Ann Poly this sat. I hope it is a short one. Some major conference of some sort. Looking foward to this sat too. Buffet with my classmates!!!! Ex! But still. Happy hur hur. More later
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
10:29 PM
National Day-NDP'01-GirlGuides-craziness-extreme-fun. ok nothing much. bleah. breakfast: Raisin Bread(2) Lunch: Buffet Lunch. Fish,Vege, Beef Dinner:Vege, Meat, Rice
*Food are arrange according to the portion i ate in descending order.
As you can see i am bored. National Day is boring me. I'm getting old and whiny. Screw that. I want back those marching days!! Archery!!!! Bleah. My life is so boring now!!! Argh!*Slaps myslef* Inspiration for flash-zlich nil. Weight regime progress-zilch nil. time(not enough)-ya raally not enough. sorry bored. Unproductive life.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
ok. sorry ruiqi, decided not to go for NDP itself. Got lotsa stuff today. anyway, we're at marina square not padang so its no biggie. But really sorry to disappoint you, but i do the whole sign language thing in front of you. Anytime. And yes, i cant wait to hang out with you after your A levels. Than you can start crapping to me about JC life. haha. OK set!
Wassup with those pics, cant they show without that tiny cross up on the upper left hand corner. hmm...
ok. i just had a lunch buffet, din eat much because i am on a proper diet regime. Losing weight but increasing muscle power. See how it goes. No mentor around. But i'll survive. I am still pretty much stuck with Flash. Mine's on Singapore 40 years- So i came up with the theme The Singaporean Dream. I need inspiration for the whole movie.
Practising Cant help falling in love with you and Better Man... finally i am practising some guitar. Getting lotsa Crunches and Push ups done. Argh...l. Ouch. I love yesterday.
I love hanging out with Shiya and Cheryl. Sourcing for Birthday gifts for the babies of july and august. We're broke. But it was a cool trip had lotsa fun and laughter, its been a long time.
August= broke because of Seoul Garden + Manhattan Fish Place. (Future) Harry's+ Settlers(Past)
and ruiqi, i'm been to holland village one too and if you know Xin Ai from XNPS? She works there.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 08, 2005
12:02 PM
You guys who have not been to Settlers Cafe must make it a point to go there soon. :). Meanwhile i shall check out more places for your benefits. If anyone of you have any idea of the how to do flash movie regarding Singapore 40 years. Please do let me know ye? I am idea-less. Thank you in advance.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, August 05, 2005
11:39 PM
awesome day! except for the fact that my computer suck. always down with viruses. i collected my spectacles. Had a great time with Valerie and Cheryl at Settlers Cafe at Clarke Quay. Had a great time with Shari Anne, Val, Michelle k., Evon, Desmond, shaun and Chalven at Harry's bar. The pictures would be up soon. I'm tired. *yawnz* More tomorrow. decided not to go for mentoring. might attend YA meeting than head for guitar class. which i have not practised. grr.... hate myself. but oh well:)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
10:30 PM
OOoOooo Ruiqi found her way to my blog. hihi girl. Thank you for visiting me, and remembering me since the secondary school days. Miss you alot, those crappy days in 4/5. haha. How ya doing? do drop me a note soon again!
Yesterday had a great 1.5 hours of tanning, only to be overwhelmed by this huge cloud. ( scroll down to see it) Goodness, it really depicts the scene from the War of the worlds. We totally did not expect it.
Mind you even before it occured, we were like super freaking hot, i felt so microwaved. But after that 1.5 hours i felt refrigerated. It was raining like cats and dogs. Ran to the toilet for a shower, thank god the ran stopped.
Travelled back to YCK for lunch at the naked fish shoppe with Shiya and Boots. Yippee!! Renuion. Feels so good coming back to school with a different status. I can wear shorts and slippers. SSHHHiiookkk!
After which we played some photohunt, which we deproved alot.
CCA meeting after that. Preparation for Installation. My Card was approved and sent out. Haha! delighted! More discussion of the days event and yea. Thats how it went.
Was called back for an urgent meeting today(wednesday). I took a cab to school, turn down Silas request to go Bishan together only to be notified that the meeting was postponed till further notice because she had a meeting with the director.
I was like argh!!! Firstly, it was my block leave, secondly, oh nevermind. Long list to go! Lotsa things to do so i better catch up. Should i or should i not be back in school tomorrow? We'll see. No time to even collect my spects. Have not called Settlers Cafe for reservations yet!!!!!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
yea its just the two of us at the beach again! hmmm..... but it was fun!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
check out the sky doent it look like the day after tomorrow. or the scene from war of the worldS? goodness!!!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, August 01, 2005
1:04 PM
ok, time for some action here, was really tired after continuous activities, but what is great is that this is the start of my block leave. Some rest finally. So i was supposed to be at the beach now, but the weather was threatening this morning, so changed of plans, slept till 12.
Gosh you have no idea how wonderful that amount of sleep was. FANTASTIC!
Stupidly enough the sun rose when i woke up, its alright, Cheryl and i vowed that we would be at the beach tomorrow. No worries. There will be at least 2 visits to the beach this week.
Rewind a little and lets talk about Saturday. It really was a whole day of activities. Goodness i was so freaking tired. Settled at Marina Square for NDP rehearsal. So we sat and waited and practised and repeated that for over 100 times. What more. The weather was wet so that did not help much either. Good thing was we were super up front and close with Bryan wong, Carrie Chong and Desmond Koh. Especially my side. ok, so lets see, after the whole event ended we waited for our freaking bus for close to 2 hours.
Poor me who lived all the way to the west only reach home at around 1. So much for rest on the weekends. But oh well, i was so tired i slept the minute i laid on my bed.
Sunday was cool, because i got myself a cool pair of spects. Loved the design to bits. Its white in colour. It costs less that 150! Plus a pair of contact lens to giveaway!! Shiya jealous?? It seems that i always get the cheapest pair of spects compared to others. But of course, i paid it myself so my account is again being reduced.
Decided to go for the Malaysia exchange programme sinced its the cheapest. a week away from school or rather attachement. So why not? so my expenses is being increased again.
I really should stop increasing my expenses. Anyways, i am loving my monday. Free and Easy. Lotsa rest. Lotsa time to enjoy myself. La La La loving it!
* did i say my designing skills improved?? haha.
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