in the midst of our buzy schedules and uncompromising lack of time have we also neglected the fact that we have thrown hopes of the innocent ones out there? What is worse is that we have all becomed victims and have yet done it to another darling out there without realise the vicious cycle effect.
I'm not sad that someone has thrown the effect on me because i understand the circumstances and the obligations that gets in the way. But i think its only natural to think... why? Den i realise that it is not because of the fact that that person has stood me up but more because i could have used the time to do something more constructive. I get pissed and jumpy because life is so important to me that every minute use to slack or do nonsence is a definite no-no to me.
hmm.. come to think of it, its more of a selfish behaviour. I just dont want my life to be screwed up. I dont want to be wasting my time. Okay, there you go, its all about I. oh well.. just random thoughts...... cause i just had another day wasted..hmmmmm...... smacks myself...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
7:24 AM
there are loads of overdue stuff that i should have done since ages ago, and god knows why i have been doing a lot of proscrastinating. Should have put a stop since the minute i got it started, but i guess thats where the fun comes in huh? Unpredictability of life. Just the way i love it.
been meeting awesome people everyday. Why awesome u ask me? People who have been there done that. Accomplished and failed in things that they have done.. Point is they all have done the things that i want to do and sometimes i do look back and ponder a little, yea, just a little, too tired to ponder too much.. pondering if i have given the similar feeling to others.
have not been very good at handling my own tasks and responsibility, because i seem to be taking more of them as each days pass by, its the subconcious mind playing the trick. It dubiously made me succumb to the temptations of MORE IS GOOD.
In the midst of all the hassle, i've began to find working out less of a hassle anymore. It serves as a motivation now, i AM looking forward to each gym sessions, and having good food around is no longer a necessity but a supplement. My adventure has already began with makan sessions at Ichiban Boshi, Pastamania's buffet, Crystal Jade kitchen and what have you. My outings can never remove the fact that food colours my life.
its no wonder i needa work doubly hard to be fit. The planet fitness trial card would be of good use next week, if only all my good companions are willing to slog it out with me. Pretty please???? heh....I really should get started with my tutorials... but my body is begging me not to... not a wise decision huh? the continuous dragging. oh well. the smarter side of me decided to exercise the use of my hand and brain...so till later..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
3:58 AM
just retired from the badminton with Rach just now... ya i know, why only Rach, because 2 GUYS flew our aeroplane. haha... guess Rach was rather pissed with them, but oh well, we know guys cant be trusted 100%.Aiight, just kidding.
Anyway, glad that we have things in common and we enjoyed ourselves throughout. Man, i had no idea why the giggles were coming fast and furious. But thats just girls right? like what can you expect, than we were like talking about work and stuff, how we'd like the environment to be POSITIVE and lively. Seems like i just got attached to these two words after studying CRM in school.
One more thing, never knew that her dad and mum sells fish. Would love to try out working over there for a day. Life in a market, definitely would be one helluva experience.Told her that and she warned me about the smell and the dirt. Like..... hmm... this is Clarice you are talking about, i'm no primma donna. I can take those. :) Pretty proud of myself because of this fact. Fact Check: I cant stand girls who go eeee... and aww.... around.
I really needa get back with my books, seems that this semester modules are rather pricky. Its not that its too dry, its just that i cant understand anything since day one when the lecturer opened her mouth to say Hi.. ya, i kinda lost her since then.
Oh there is one more thing you guys got to congrats me upon, that i finally called up my deranged instructor to fixed a lesson, and the next hurdle after this would be that you prayed i stick to the lessons. Exercising and practising good eating habits everyday from last week. Kinda refreshing infact and it makes me feel good about myself, like i dont already feel so. Anyway, do join me on a healthy lifestyle adventure, till of course, when my NAFA is over.
okay. you might see some changes here soon enough..
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, May 22, 2006
6:38 PM
like when i have thought there was nothing much entertaining to comment about these days, i've started browsing through some blogs that i have not been visiting since the day i grew unattached to technology, and it started this chain of thoughts running through the already jammed pack brain of mine.
oh yes, we're all of the same age we are going through the same situations, but oh why do we have different thinking and thoughts when it comes to it? Screw upbringing, i believe we have gone past that stage, but i guess its just your choice and priority when it comes to handling such an issue. Go ahead lament and cry when such things happen but think again does it call for such measures?
oh yes, it gets us thinking what we have been neglecting all these while admist the hussle and bussle, but realise how life is, that things change, circumstances chance and this world when nothing is guaranteed dont expect us to stay guaranteed to the tiny promises that we all made once when we were little girl.
now, oh no, i am not trying to push away all responsibilities or wrong-doing that i have done, hell know, but recognise the fact that since it has happened cant we recognise and work towards a different direction. Being there doesnt mean you care, being there only means that your attendance is noted and a source of presence that seems comforting either to the benefitor or really, it is just towards the organiser who gain much satisfaction.
nevertheless, whatever that is written here will remain controversial. and please, dont think too much into it, because it aint no personal attack on anyone nor is it targetted at any one that knows the presence of this blogs existence. rather it is just a need to splurt all these need to exercise my english language after the long haul of absence. haha. really whatever is written above requires a disclaimer.
screw whatever is written here. because it really is nothing. :) more useful updates soon ye...
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
7:29 AM
i'm kinda sad now, not really sad but just i dont know feeling the lows. I've been having too much of the highs, thats why. Sentosa has always given me the highs, and i am really grateful of the craziness and happiness there. Den when i am back home, i feel so screwed up because i have so many things on hand to do and there are so many people to meet up, so many decisions to make,so may deadlines to rush,...... arghhh....
of course those who know me knows that i like this type of adredaline rush haha... mad I KNOW...
wad to do????
Clariss mah... haha... ya someone spelt my name like that.
anyway, i had fun destressing today by playing badminton. i should blardy pluck up the courage and call my deranged driving instructor by tomorrow to book appointment for next week. i am sucha ass.... arghhhhh...............
*just realise behind some of my friends, there is a story left untold...... i'd love them to share it with me....so my ears are open, my hp is always on.... do beep me even though i have no time to meet up with ya guys.. i still lurve ya people alot.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
7:38 AM
got crazy cravings for food these days.. dunch know wadssup with me... so much responsibility when ya grow up... dun even know where to start complaining.. haha.. but i am too tired today from the shift at sentosa. will elaborate more later.....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
8:09 AM
dun really feel like blogging but i guess there is some obligations.. like there are any of you reading this right? haha. if u are please tag!!!! although i dont.
school has started, and life is going to be one helluva rollercoaster. i am grateful i had the time to chill with Yap, was not a long session but meaningful. Think my expectations for guys are real high... and i am not sure i have the time for one right now, unless the guy is willing to give me space to do my stuff...
but one thing is for sure... i owe it to many friends to spend quality time with them. been oweing them that since very very long ago. really miss all of my friends. and there are alot of things to catch up on....lotsa pics to update but the com has got a little insane so i guess thats for later.
hope sch will be cool from now on... cross my fingers.... friends do msg me to hang out. miss ya guys loads. really.....
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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