Please dont make it all come back again.Just like how cancer will always be a part of you even after remission, and how cheryl has the phobia of operation, i hope i never would have to pick it up again. I lost the baggage but i lost myself at the same time. I guess its all part of opportunity cost.It will never go away till the day you are ready to say enough and let it all go.But i will never let it control my life at least i try,I will always remember your words, that i can always look for you, never to resort to substitutes if i can, when ican.how come it has happen so fast? so subconciously?at least i know it will all be okay, cause i am stronger than that.tired of explaining myself, yet constantly seeking answers- anoyomous |
okok..done with the past. dont want to talk about mistakes.
everybody needs time to settle down. and i have settled down, at least i really know what i want now. So no fear.
I am still a sucker for pain.
haha. was really tired yesterday, so i slept around 2 am and did get to talk much to Adib and company.. grrr....
Like i said, horse riding was fun, i wouldnt mind picking it up with Cheryl again back in Spore. I bought a fair amount of stuff. But its never enough which is why i never like to spend money on clothes. love more outdoors... where are my kakis?
hahah
anyway, so much for living a life of no expectation,still as ever expecting so much.
okok. anyway i had a good, nice chat with A last night, and it got many things cleared, and this special relationship that we have. like what i told him, love him still the same, miss him still the say will be there for him still the same. heheh
still lotsa things to say, but i need to process my thoughts, maybe tomorrow yea? maybe when my brain is less confused and ready for action... promise...tkcare peeps...
places been:
church
sorta like a flea market place
spencer village
harbour town
DVD place