forever.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008
7:56 AM

this week marks a brand new start to life.
A life with renewed vigour to catch up on my studies.
A life away from sentosa. ( except to sun tan)
A life to catch up with old friends before i leave.
A life with healthy regimes.
A life to let go off the past, the useless expectation.
A life to live just for myself.

I have been selfish all these while, thinking about everything but myself. I just realise my trip to USA, the plain decision to head there seems like a selfish decision. It is true i ignored the financial aspects.

I was ambitious. Not down to earth.
In fact, since i became who i am today, i forgot humility, i have forgotten about the simplicity and the basic principles that made me who i am today.

I should seek to revisit it. But, however so? How do i seperate myself away from all these materialistic gains and seek what is truly important in life. I can no longer be the Clarice who was so passionate about social work, that she willingly give up anything for it.

I can only ask of myself to treat everyone with honesty. I should just aim to be considerate. I should tame my aggressiveness. Yes i should. I getting way to big for my own good.

So what if i know so many things, so what if i have learned so many.... I've got to learn to be generous, fill with graciousness and i guess forgiveness....

before i hit my 21st birthday, i hope i'd be able to put behind all the selfishness.
I am already happy typing these.:)

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.