Sunday, September 23, 2007
9:19 AM
that was the farewell to our dear madeleine.. off to her chinarian country
,joviene came to sentosa today.
my amore dance instructor.
though it was just a 15 min chat, it felt like good lessons being imparted.
She said she was tired, she needed a change. Singapore is too small. She need to stop giving and start receiving.
My cousin did that. Singapore is too small, she went to aussie and she is doing so well. I am proud of my cousin.
Mag ( my another dance instructor) said she wanted to leave and pursue greater things. She spoke about her dream so openly.
Seems good to be around people who knows what they want to do in life.
I am kind of enjoying my life now but feeling a little tired.
I shouldnt be chasing life, i should be enjoying it AND yes i am. It is not like i am not. But part of me also want to take it slow.
My ideal:
To cook my 3 meals all by myself.
To call friends and family round to enjoy my recipes and creation and spend the day together.
To finally say that i am ready to commit and take on another person in my life.
To really concentrate on building all these.
To have a sip of tea and really enjoy the taste of it.
To read a good book from front to end and not having to fold the edge only to continue weeks later.
To put in a good dvd disc and watch through the whole afternoon.
To simply love and let love.
If i can only be this selfless. I wish i can.....
At times, i sigh and complain and lament and wish to do the things i wish i could. I am human after all, i aint no superwoman...
BUT
i am happy, really to give a run an YOUTH and the vigour of being in it.
I am just 20 for god sake!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
