Monday, July 30, 2007
9:04 AM
the picture below shows the cute, adorable plaster from my wounded days which was 2 weeks ago....:)
I'm tired. I ran 6 klits today but fell back to sleep once i reached home. I placed a Dvd disc into the player and watched for a good 5 mins and fell deep asleep till an hour later. I went down to the market area hoping to get the stuff i needed but it was not there, but its okay i got back home and cooked lunch for myself:)
Met amy for matric fair and met Jeslyn there. Yea!! another friend lost and found:) It was a tiring day in school bascially cause there was way too many things to see and carry. Ate some good apple cinnamon waffle and rushed off to meet Jeslyna and Shuyu.
Miss those days where we crapped non stop, eat non stop and got ourselves active non stop. Its okay i believe it'll all be back soon. Met Michael from Sentosa Attractions! he still remembered me! hee hee..
and Jap class was good, Nikai was so patient. but i was half gone during class, i was really tired and couldnt register most of what has been said. haha. but its okay i will revise.
Kind of sad that another day to discuss our business is gone, cause we are busy girls. its okay we will work something out.
Thanks Yong An for the call that gave me some company on my way home:) appreciated it!!!
more tomorrow.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
9:53 AM
the batam trip..weeeeeeee.......... we had fun!!!
work was aiite. the sunny island was just as relaxing as it shld be. I've been eating a lot. I think the time of the month is drawing near. I think i betta stop all the rubbish entering me by tomorrow, i've got runs coming up in a month time. How? should i sign up for the Singapore Bay run?? Its reporting time is 530am for 21 k. Am i ready for it?
I laid my hands on something called BabyBom! @ the food fest at vivo. Supposedly an arab food. taste pretty good.
Anyway, the war for next week starts now. I seriously need a personal assistant!!
hope everything goes smoothly.
More later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
7:45 AM
happy birthday babe!!!!!
i finally went to visit fiona at Yishun. There is one thing about me these days is that, though i know i should alight at the right stop, i'd always make myself wait for the next one. So totally does not make sense.
went for a run this morning and left for Fi's house before rushing down for MTV dance Had good dinner and got my hands on my TUTU kueh!
Today i ate and satisfy my hunger with Black Pepper Crab, Kueh Lapis and Tutu Kueh.
Mr Chalven is out of camp!!! Wee..... so nice to hear a familiar voice. When the unknown ID appeared on my phone, i was wondering for a second who it was, but when i answered, i immediately knew it was him hahaha. I miss my friend so much. arghhhhh............ those good ole poly days.
Yesterday, when i went down to give my blessings to Shuying on her birthday it brought back those good ole TEP days! how we worked towards those freaking early mornings the NAtas fair.
i am feeling so nostalgic. The present and the future may seem so bright and cheery but the memories of those days are ever so beautiful.
More later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
9:48 AM
i've decided to keep this just as an entry itself.
i'm packing my cupboards and i came across so many letters and diary notes and what have you.
memories are strong and good. the past wasnt the best. i mean i had beautiful memories but there was also that tiny part of the past that was painful.
However tough it was, it is my life and i as i look back, i remember the beautiful friends that stood by me or vice versa.
The friends that were part of the past with me previously. We went through it and came out fine. Today, we are enjoying life just like everyone else.
i am reading the past diaries and letters like a story book that is really really really categorized under the non fiction area.
life's real this way, we all have a past and its the foundation of us today.
i shall just lie on my bed today and read away......
more later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
8:44 AM
i've decided not leave anything to chance. or at least i try my utmost best not to and give my best for everything. Now with my crazy state of mine, i am considering taking up 3 jobs hahaha.. of course the third one will be tuition, it would be easier or at least i hope it would be.
Argh i think somebody ought to save this insane mind of mine.
i've been eating way too many breads these days.
i think i shall do some cooking tomorrow. i doubt i have resources though.
i just msged keat (sentosa) to drop by one day when i do cook.
my insane wacky nutty nut friend- mel c has advertised for a beach gathering at fabulous tan, hahah NUTS la woman!!
cant wait to put my batam piccas up , meanwhile enjoy stella's birthday during o week's pre camp hee.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
8:06 AM
i wish all that was needed of us was to eat and sleep. 24 hours not enough for me.
Eating- i love doing it for nuts. I can eat till the cow come home. I can safely say i eat everything and anything. Sure sounds like some garbage can, but no, i eat delicacies. drool** anything with thats new and taste good, i am game for it, which pretty much explains the food fest piccas up there.
I ran in the rain today. It gets pretty irritating- the weather, how it is so gloomy and cold these days. Its' definitely not something i am a big fan of,especially having to wake up to dark clouds. Totally no motivating, although running 5 klits in cool weather seems like a breeze. starting my swimming regime already!!
went for my medical checkup today, always had the impression that medical practitioners were unruly and you know arrogant because they think they know stuff we dont. But those i came across today were *claps *claps good!! haha, made my day though i they made me late for work and super hungry by the time i laid my hands on SUBWAY.
Amy and friend has to thank me for the wonderful trick!;)
rushed down to work,so afraid Anne might be angry at me. but all was okay! Oh ya, regarding getting a second job. Marilyn from NZ ice cream, helped me ask about working there to Franco their manager and he was cool with it!! So nice!!! free makan though pay slightly lower but i get more night hours!!! and i get to work with max and xianbing hahaha... JESLYNA JOIN ME!!! wee....... and its on sunny island itself too!! but of course i wouldnt be sure if Sharren is okay with it. My retail manager. but will respect her decision if she does not think its good working both retail and fnb.
ive got ellen asking about cold rock for me.
meizi getting tuition lobangs for me.
had dinner with shiya, went down all the way to bukit batok. i keep thinking or rather feeling that i;ve not had proper food for months. think i've not had balanced meals. But i;ve been eating like alot everyday, like sakae, mayin, fig and olive.. blah blah...
Ann pang sei-ed me today. so no reggae class. but its okay, extended working hours, if not it'd be stupid working jus 3 hrs today.
knight's leaving. weekee's leaving.:( i'm working for the krunk beach party event on august 8. till wee morning. though i know nuts about what the event is about.
more later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, July 23, 2007
9:07 AM
i have a friend who is the most courageous and independant person i have ever known. I dont think its right to elaborate too much about her private life but all i can say is that if i ever feel sad, tired or useless and that life is throwing its piles on me. I'll think of what she had to go through and i ignore it all away.
i am in a dilemma. Spoke to the many many and most object to me getting a second job, but knowing my character i'd fight against all odds. now searching for the right job is a matter of timing, tactic and skill. i've to get all those things that needs to be settled done first.
had a great chat with mel c today too and after work went for my jap lessons. I really cherish each lessons these days. A new class today but somehow it got me really focus, everybody seems to be really good in the language. and Nakai sensei was really nice enough to give us make up for my previous misses.
ok need to get ready for tomorrow.
next up: food fest @ taka
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
8:36 AM

check this picture out... its the class of '99 before the millenium. After so long we finally met up. The ones from overseas were all back from places like UK and aussie. All have come together from different points of life. Assembled at Superdog- Vivo cause of yours sincerely who was working. We reminisce the past.
The too-perfect-to-believe-memory of yih chyn, who remembered every single sayings of ours. The catch-no-ball duyang, who totally went clueless.
The perfect duo of eileen and alice
The future nurse Jessica
The lady xueling.
and of course me.
its nice to know that there are people putting in the effort to keep in touch, it feels comforting
had a very shag but fun batam trip yesterday with the lovely girls.
had a very hilarious start to mizuno run today! and saw dickson!!! hahah... yea!!! hahah.. ya i got my goodie bag!! did you? they gave priority to girls.. and we mastered the art of cutting e queue. had finally eaten FIG n OLIVE today!!
i really have so many things on hand. a little stifling, especially now that my mother is overseas, yea again!! haha
next up: harry potter premiere screening with aunt.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, July 20, 2007
10:28 AM
from the little girl who came into Sentosa not knowing a clue about what's what, to the girl who knows all the short cuts to it. I remembered having fears and doubts about being in a company who is always so upbeat and socialble. i thought it will never be me, but, today it is me.
i thanked those at merlion who helped me through so much.
i honestly would say that everybody had been so kind to me.
i've learnt so much and felt so much.
today, it seems i've grown and feel differently. Maybe with a much larger responisibility and not so much the need to prove who i am.
people come and go and yes, sad reality but a reality that we all have to face. When Rizal and Hung Ming came in to take pictures, there was this feeling that went through my body telling me its another person's time. i love them and i thank them for treating me not just as a staff, a subordinate. But as a friend,a daughter and someone whom they really can talk to.
With this, i thank you Dien, though u may have left for your own business, i believe i will not see the end of you. and... Wee Kee... the chats i had with you, you taught me alot. ... more on you later.
had fun today 20072007 with the girls whose friendship i know i cannot live without:)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
8:43 AM
happy 21st birthday YJ!!
Hope you did enjoy ya PSP although it came with no memory card and wadsoever . haha
rush down after work all da way to yishun to have a good zi char at yishun area.
I remember me and Cheryl had a really hard time finding his block. we could find every other number except his block number. My patience was almost running thin cause i was dead tired, but luckily we found it.
ate to our hearts content and of course discussed with Cheryl our business plan!!
the girls from ma class.... hahah

sumptious food la... u know food =my life , my life=food

the birthday boy with the phone and guess what the next day he would be entering NS!!! all the best birthday boy!!! whose actual birthday is 2 days from this post!! hahah
oh yea!! GOOD NEWS!! i;ve got a potential business angel who can pump 50k into our biz when we get our proposal up!!!! Clarice is a happy girl though this information has not really digested in. but it will soon enough!!
its been rag, rag, oweek, dance,work, runs.....
sometimes i feel im not good enough, i get down and start analysing but than again i realise its all about admitting that ure only human and work hard towards it.
the fall that caused abrasions on my knee hindered my progress to my running build up.. felt damn useless and lost and down. but i got up and i guess i just try my best on sunday.
i need more jobs!! just abrasions on the knee costs so much $$. and with uni and stuff .hai! i need to earn at least 1000 a month. how when sch starts??
next: Sentosa lovable people:)
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
10:49 PM
i know at times we'll find it hard to meet up. its not like we are all in the same working area right now. We all have choosen different routes and what really matters is that we try and work things out. I am sure we can do it. we'll make this friendship, long and strong and unique. It will be good and better and at the end of maybe our 30th year of friendship, we will see that it is all worth it in the end, yea?
I had a great time at minds cafe.:)
see you girls around soon.
for food the next time round??? and our farm trip?? when hahah....
next: YJ's birthday.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, July 13, 2007
9:37 AM
life at the beach.. yea.. tribute to all beach babes and hunks!
the gathering to see Meili off to Images of Singapore.
Apparently, we got gatecrashes from Oscars and Company, but its aiight!! haha we still had fun didnt we? The only downside was the bad attitude from the cab companies, not one not two but all of them. How we waited from 9 till 11 and were still stuck on sunny island!! bummer.
By the way, food at Lau Pa Sat seriously not up to standard! So overrated.
i love the beach and how we are in our world but are not ignorant about the happenings on the island!! We are one big family!!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
8:45 AM
happy birthday, evelyn
big20!!!


met up with them after a long day of activities as can be seen from my previous entry. and, STELLA, this was the day i saw you and shouted your name loudly as you claimed it to be.
By the way shopathon was like some networking event too, met so many of my primary, secondary, poly and future uni friends, some of which i do have some inkling, others i remember ever so dearly. :)
my friends says i am crazy, my family says i'm mad, the schedule i organised or lay out for myself are always one after another. If i do have time out for myself, they'd be more than surprise. However, i remember the promise i made to a certain handful of people who are either no longer physically part of my life or have impacted me in one way or another.
The promise was to live a life for myself and for them. A life i know they would want to if they had a chance. To X, i know there was once i hugged you real tight and told you it will be okay and when it turned out otherwise i promised myself i will live my life dedicated to you. The way you have lived it out till the day it ended.
To R, i have left many messages and though we are miles apart, you seem to be able to sense my support and presence. Though you have cut yourself away from the harsh critics of your life, i know despite the many inabilities, you have carved out many niches in your life. I read and i know however tough my life was or will be, i know you'd want me to understand and cherish life for what it is and what is most valuable.
I had an incredible teacher in secondary school who shared his many readings and findings and i would like to share this from The Freedom Writers Diary with Erin Gruwell.
Those who have watched the movie would know what im driving at:
Moment
Let him wish his life
for the sorrows of a stone
never knowing the first thread
Of these
Never knowing the pain of ice
As its crystals slowly grow
Needles pressing in on the heart
To live forever and never feel a thing
to wait a million lifetimes
Only to erode and become sand
wish not for the stone
but for the fire
last only moments
but change everyting
Oh to be lightning
To exist for less than a moment
Yet in that moment
To expose the world to every pen eye
Oh to be thunder
To clap and ring
To rumble into memories
Minds and spines
To chill the soul and shake the very ground
pounding even the sand
into smaller pieces
or the mountain
brooding extinct
yet gathering for one fatal moment
The power to blow the top clean off the world
oh to last the blink of an eye and leave nothing
but nothing unmoved behind you
VIncent Guilliano
next: beach gathering!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, July 09, 2007
9:44 AM
Shopathon 07
Combination of retail therapy plus fitness
i love you girls!!!!
070707
i think i might be sick..
have been staying out late every night due to various reasons.
just the very night yesterday, i was caught in the rain and i was in shorts n t shirt so the wind was blowing and i was freezing before the beach gathering at lau pa sat...
i hope im not sick.:)
my dear couz michelle,
if there is anyone i respect the most, you'd be one of them. :)
i see the hard work and dedication and commitment you put into the work that you do.
I which to be at least 1/2 of what you are or at least the passion and drive i see you putting into your work of art.
i guess its when you look back and realise that it is all worth the while....:) you made me realise the possibilities of the impossibles of life..
hee...
next up: Evelyn's birthday
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
10:36 AM
NYP Graduents Class of 2007
Auditorium
1000am
Diploma in Business Management
we were trying to do the jump. Obviously it doesnt really capture well la.. hahah but good try everyone....
outta the harry potter robe into our formal attire with our very nice PEM Ms Diana Tan... love her to nuts...... dinner and supper soon ya?
the class shot BM0428 Services Management...
me solo.. damn kukoo la.. hahahha... shld have gotten a smaller one..
the guys in our class... smart huh.. haha
the stage is our.. the day is ours too....
the parent-less group. hahah the 3 of us told our parents not to come.. so we were cam whoring up at the auditorium in the aircon before we went out. hahaha..... had good fun...
the memories that you all have given me are good enough to last me through my life. I remember the days of Freshmen orientation and yes our first meal- fish burger!! haha.... and the endless projects and stayovers at the com labs, or rather searching and fighting for one for availability.
the sneaking in of food into tutorial halls. Ya i know we're a very 'on' class. haha. always booking and making use of the sports hall facilities. Badminton, gym, table tennis etc. i think we are professionals. haha. The north canteen queues. The shopping arcade visits. I love how we give nicknames to our tutors and lecturers.
Remember TEP too. how we dread it cause we're are the only poly with so many attachements. but we are smart people always digging through the rules and regulations taking easy way outs haha..our lanyards and our footwears haha. hilarious.
I miss all of it. the time we spend at Bishan J8 and Ang Mo KIo during our long breaks and also nt forgetting the Grassroots pool and arcade/bowling area.. and Naked shoppe. haha.
I love you all. thanks for everything.
thanks for the grad vacation.. hahah had fun...
thanks for turning up for grad day. think our class was good attendance/
thanks for the wonderful fun lunch at Vi'lage. eat and eat only
the movie @ cine and all our crapping session.
the day started as early as 7am till night.. and we all had fun..
we had no tears or anything cause we know its not the end... at least NOT YET....
more later... shoppathon'07
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Friday, July 06, 2007
9:17 AM
I miss my family.
its not that they are far away.
we are all living in the same house but....
we are all always so busy.
i feel guilty neglecting them with my work, studies,friends and other commitments.
i feel guilty not saying no to certain things.
sometimes i do ask myself why? Why is it hard for me to push back other appointments to spend time with the family?
but there is no doubt that i love them lots.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
A special tribute to NUS FASS Astral OG...
boy did i have fun....
thanks alot people.. love love love you all..
the cheers and everything are still in my mind.....

*teardrops* i really love my poly days and the friends and camps and activities we had.
more later.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
8:42 AM
Thanks dickson!! den do visit my blog often.. i'll try to bring the best of life to ya.. haha.. sounds nonsensical.. but oh well.. haha
i went round PAGE ONE for close to 2 hours and finally got the book "Freedom Writers" to complement the movie i watched a few months ago. good book. good buy.
Took a bite outta Mel's botak jones leftover when i met her at Nike bird.
I want to really thank Farid and Meili for being so nice and understanding. I take responsibility with regards to the mystery shopper's issue will ensure that it wont happen again. But the incident aside, i see a side of you guys that i will always remember and be grateful of. The patience and understanding and the respect you give to me inspite of the situation. I salute and respect you guys. The support and confidence you have in me. I love you guys and beach rawks!! I wont disappoint any of you again!!!
busy busy tralalalal..... ITS GRADUATION DAY TOMORROW!!! SO STAY TUNED!!!!
more piccas soon!
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
8:50 AM
i think im really really really tired.
break from work today for reggae and back to my regime to prepare for my marathon run.
woke up at 7 am only to find the stadium close!!! bummer.
grab the opportunity to watch the DVD and thereafter head to the gym
1hr on cardio itself. den strength. amore instructors all recognised me hahaha.. regular.
caught transformers with mel... tan was called off so we caught an awesome movie at GV MAX!!! its really not just about the actions and the impact.. it has its humourous side too. But silly ole me, was so tired i fell asleep in the midst of it. I was like dozing off here and there. A little retail therapy after that at Pull and Bear and Zara.
after which rushed down to meet Ann for reggae.. nice chat and everything. took the 20 min walk back. I had fruits,sushi and wholemeal bread the whole day.. hahaha...
the fitness regime is right on working towards 10klits soon...
so many things to do so little time.
*coughs* cant be sick.. :)
take care everyone. back with more piccas soon.
Jeslyna!! i want your MUFFINS!!! i wan to bake with you. the reason why i couldnt come today is also explained above. hahaha
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Monday, July 02, 2007
9:02 AM
the secret garden.
Yeps, thats the place we went to for yummy cakes.
quite a secretive place.. had to walk quite a distance around to get there, but it was worth it got to see fighter planes and choppers and fireworks on display.....
we even tried vegetarian food!! MZ recommendation- ROma Deli... pretty good.
We shall go for more vegetarian hunts okay?



Carolyn called and told me to work for a sports event in the month of july. She said she will calll me to confirm. You know what babe? haha you have to remember to book me a week in advance ya??
Anyway, met up with Shuyu and Jeslyna for our final jap lang class..... we had a test today and we passed!! oh well.. not really a proud winner but still we received our cert and are ready to go for the next level.. wee..... clarice is a happy girl!!!
met layyin.. my YEP team mate... miss those days too..
thailand soon?
Saw how stress Meili was today, i guess thats life and thats work huh? love you girl.*hugs*
Suddenly miss all my friends and those days. On my trip home, i skipped walking the distance back to guide this blind man . We had a nice converstation and once again how sad it is to see humans ignoring the needs of those around them. How often are we so engrossed in our own world to see and feel for those around us.
i just hope those around would care a little more for the people around you.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
7:51 AM
met up with one of my good ole primary school best buds.....
glad to hear ure doing well..
more gatherings ya? perhaps this time with the rest of the class...
aye!! im back and i sure had loads of fun....
shall update more later.
im still in the midst of so many things to do under my to do list...
but once again arts camp was helluva fun.... had made a great bunch of friends. totally no regrets.
started work today!! haha had fun with the bitches!! mel cheong and sulaiha.. and of couse sweet izzah. Taufik Batisah came along with some indonesian stars and mel got his signature, funny incident manz.... life in sentosa... damn farnie....
more later.
jap exam tomorrow
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.