im not the type who'll skin the fats off her meat when i do eat something good. im not the type who'll do what it takes just to get a hitch back home. im not the type who'll dress to kill to impress a guy i like. im not the type who'll go all outta the way just to prove im right.
i love the fats on my meat for god sake. those imperfection makes the meat even better. i love squeezing on the train thats when you get to see the many facets of life through the people around you. i love being different with the guy i like and not just the appearance. i love letting time speak the truth than just wasting time controlling what i cant.
These are lesson's ive learnt. i no longer seek i just wait and if it comes i give thanks, if not i just smile and be positive. I've often wondered why i cant be like those people out there who are so successful in their own fields. Who don on power suits and command power like the world are on their feet. They have every hair in place and every clothing well worn. You cant help but ponder if they were just like you behind those costumes.
Then, i wonder again at those who without power suits are able to sell their thoughts and their ideals. They are those whose ideas are sought after, if not have a proven record of good viable resume behind their backs. They live life like they do not fear any and they seem to have everything going on for them. They are those who i am impressed because of their impeccable charisma. Some have set up businesses, some are budding stars some are just in a league of their own.
So i questioned my mother, i asked her, why is it that we dont have such in our family? Why isnt anyone as smart and capable as them. Her answer was quick but it gave me the shot through my bones," aiya.. you dont have to have those, simplicity is more than enough..." Yes, why am i soughting after all these intangibles, when i know they are only false materialistic wants that one will always chase after - a never ending race. You'll never be happy. You'll never be satisfied. You attain one you'll go for better. You can never afford a moment of rest because those are what your credentials are about.
Do i really want those? Or do i just want to come home, plopped down on my couch, flipped through SCV be a bummer, get up occassionally for stretched. Cook my own meals, decide on my own nutritions, choose the type of races i want to join ( im joining MIZUNO), choose the movies i want to watch ( MANY), choose who i;ll like for sleepover ( BUT my GF always has excuses) and more importantly have TIME for all of it.
Isnt that what life should be about? the Time to live it and not wasting time finding time for things... right?
faizal says my blog is always about food. now this be something different. share ya comments ya?? i wanner be in love.
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