forever.

Sunday, September 17, 2006
7:48 AM

is it a mistake a made once in a blue moon, or do i make such mistakes consistently without knowing. Do i take my friends for granted, really, honestly do i? That is the last thing i want to happen.I definitely do not want to appear to be the one not playing a part in a friendship, i definitely hope all my friends understand.

I do have lots of things on my mind, lots of up coming events. I might be busy with keeping track with my own life that i tend to neglect the ones that are right in front of me. So should i change the way things are working now? But than arent we all selfish creatures who tend to leave some contingency plans so as not to ruin it. I believe there are good souls out that who differ and who truly treat everyone with utmost respect. But i am not there yet, and i do doubt my ability to be that.

I am afraid of letting go right now, of the back-ups. I dont know, i guess in a way it is me already, embedded somewhere inside. I made poor Chalven wait for me, after saying we would go home together, and though i could have came up with excuses, i knew better not to, this is a friend i cherish. While in an exact same scenario, i let shiya wait for me an hour before having dinner. I do feel bad, just that i know this is friend who will understand.

Maybe i am still not good at this multi-tasking ideology... I appear to be doing it all, but i get caught up once in awhile. Guess this is one of the times... oh well, i shant be too hard on myself again... i know better.

The run today at sentosa was good, clocked 40mins for 9km, had good meals. my stomach is satisfied and if that is the case, my mind, body and soul would be happy too.
my well is running dry, should control the spending process. I do need to stay focus for this week. at least for this week..... we will than see how things go a week later, more analysis and decisions might be made later. i'm tired, should listen to my body after a long day.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.