i went through driving today like a breeze, and it seems that today is the only day that has happened. God knows what have been running through my head the past few days, or perhaps the lack of it.I dont think i am worrying about things but it is just that there are things left untold. Its so confusing like an identity restructuring.
Anyway, i had a nice chat with chal yesterday. My brother is really my brother. Chalven has enlightened me on many things and has somehow reassured me. I felt quite light after that.
But i still have no idea what i am 'fan-ning' about...
Maybe its cause i am unorganised, thats why i always dont know what to do next, or maybe because i am pulled down by how i use to be in the past. I think now, i analyse and logically speaking i'm more sensible. But its not easy keeping up with this,maybe i just want to let it all go someday.
But it seems that i am always complaining.. and this is also getting on my nerves. when there was TEP i grumbled about the immense long hours and the tiredness and the lack of life... than when school is back, i complain about the piles of workload... and the forever tight schedules and commitments with god knows what... hai~ maybe its the lack of motivation...
what than is my motivation? maybe i do need to go back to square one.. and ask myself what do i really want out of so many things that i am doing... who knows i might just want to stop everything and run... running is not that bad either huh?
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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