forever.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005
11:21 PM

Reading Couz Michelle's blog makes me realise that i havent been doing much updating, oh well here goes...

The past few days have been visiting my good old friend Shamimi and TTSH. I practically push away all social commitments just to be there for her. She needs it and i love being there, although i'm no doctor nor nurse but at least the presence help. I would try as much as possible to be there for you girl.

I went to school today, was rather listless. Luckily, i have not gotten my license, i bet i'd be sleeping behind wheels. I was practically dragging my feet but it could be due to gym yesterday... 40 mins on the treadmill, first time.... 10 mins on the step-o, 15 mins or more on the weights machine..

Upon entering TTC, i sense something negative.
true enough, it smells negativity... that places definitely isnt a supportive place... like i said, they are forever asking too much from us and giving too little in return except for the you-know-you-will-learn-and-benefit-from-it part.

So what if i took leave the day before, our manager approved it so why do you have to raise your voice at my colleague who was just conveying a message, and even if so could you jolly well ask what is the cause of it... dont sterotype me because it hurts especially when my intentions are twisted..i'm not angry...just sad and disappointed

i came in and heard from my colleague that you said, "if you want to fail, fail la..." like waddahell.... you dont understand the situation i'm in and you come up with such a statement.....after so much trust in you, this is what i get. thanks alot man.

you made me feel so helpless of top of all the negativity already present.....

anyway, its over,i'm ok. So glad Adib came to visit Shamimi....havent been spending time at home for a long time... we'll see how things go, i'm tired... good nite, till the next time i update..

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.