forever.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005
12:04 AM

I always believe that being in a relationship is just for companion sake because i havent found anyone who is able to prove me otherwise. Or rather i havent seen any real life example to prove me otherwise too. I've always wanted to believe that it is something more than that. More than just being around and being there, but this invisible support and presence that lingers and stays and adds strength.

The one that says that everything is okay. The presence that stays long enough to prevent things from becoming stale. Friends have been asking me about relationships and all i can say is dont go into one too fast when you know you are not ready. Often i've seen people going into one for the wrong reasons, and in turn resulting in only 2 outcomes. First, being too dependant on the existence of it to be able to break away when things go wrong. Second would be indulging in false comforts.

Whatever it is, its more than what you think but not as complicated as it seens. go figure.Like i always say i would rather be in a dramatic relationship than a predictable one.

I've just realise how shortlived things can be especially happiness, yes i have tried many things and acheived so many but at the end of the day i just feel so helpless. Being int TEP doesnt really help either, the excessive long hours and the never-going-to-happen-breaks. Friends in poly seem so different,so superficial,i'm not saying all but let's just say that they come and go, of course i have those that have stayed for good. But, whose to say what might happen.

which is why i cherish my secondary school friends alot, especially people like LY, HS, SY and the rest. Seniors who helped me alot like Lixin, Stella, Hafiza and etc.I really badly miss them. Like how fatigue sets in during Events Management and Roadshow Days, it is beginning to set in now at Bpos. Thoughts running wild, emotions setting it.

oh well. No biggie. Shall arrange some chit chat session soon.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.