Sunday, July 31, 2005
9:47 PM

thats me and Michelle( yea i know , i know alot of michelle, this one is BPOS michelle) yea we were there for NDP rehearsal. Part of the sign language contingent!  

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

See that line? Yea... a fighter plane just flew by too fast for me to catch it in action but it was awesome i tell you!!! 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

See that tanker there? or whatever u call it. Desmond Koh, Carrie Chong and Bryan Wong are all there.  

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Friday, July 29, 2005
10:24 PM

Seems that i have been complaining forever about how time is never on my side.

My whole day tomorrow would probably be taken up by NDP rehearsal for Sign Language.
I need to start getting Chalven's, Adib's, Boon Sze and Michelle's presents. Got to fix a date to get the celebration going. Got to look for peeps to help set this up!

More designing to do- Installation Invitation Card. Goodness, why am i always stuck with designing!?!

Thank God next week is my block leave. Beach Time. Its been ages.
Feel like having a long conversation on the phone. Anyone?!? Nostalgic

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Thursday, July 28, 2005
11:04 PM

No longer qualified as one.
No longer qualified as one long ago.
There was more i could do to help.
But shock got over me as i stood there. Conscience eating me up after that.

I am so freaking determined i wont let it happen again.
I have let it happen not once but twice. I feel so helpless.

Today while on my way to school, a guy fainted in the Mrt train, and all i could do was look. I am so freaking disappointed with myself. So what if my first aid pass has expired! Stupid me!

I am not going to make this happen again.
For starters, I am going to renew my first aid pass.

otherwise, a pointless day today, but great bonding session with Shari-anne and Cai Yun. Nice food at Shiya's House and good tuition lesson. Looking forward to singalong session tomorrow, unfortunately, i have got other commitments. hai~

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Wednesday, July 27, 2005
7:01 AM

This dreadful day is finally over! Over! OVer! OK! I feel so relieved! The Trivial Challenge that i was talking about, the one where i was fretting over, the one that i tried to read up but cant get anything in, yea? yea? That one! Guess What?

WE WON!! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!! Surprise Surprise. We were representing Year 2s and were supposed to compete with the champions of Yr 1 and 3s and we won! Most of the answers were from Shiya because she read up this website that had all the answers! Kudos to her! haha. Overall it was a collective effort from both of us! So happy.

After which was cramming for our Customer Service ICA. Not that i really mugged it during the wait to the ICA. Just that i find the time in between was dreadful. Urgh! But when i finally did the paper it was quite aiight!Rush to the Sign Language thingy, it was ASSESMENT DAY! But due to some smart Ideas we erm missed that.( i hope no one is reading this) But yea, still got our shirts and were told to report this saturday.I guess i got to start practising!

Somehow i am so not looking foward to this saturday, i guess cause i just want to have fun with my buddies. I miss hanging out with them, i too, miss hanging out. Somehow the feeling is all gone. Oh well, will handle it when it comes. Meanwhile i got to prepare for tuition tomorrow.

Investments, anyone can tell me more?

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

Check it out man!!!!! Champions! 3 cheers!! 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

Champions of Trivial Quiz 2005!!!!! Us!! 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

2 Participants Representing Year 2s!!!!! From BM 0428!!! 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

The only supporter we had CHERYL!!! Where were our class peeps!!!????? 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Tuesday, July 26, 2005
10:28 PM

i'm feeling such information overload today. Never would i have anticipated this day. Travel Seminar Competition quiz on China, India and Malaysia. ICA test on customer Service. Sign Language Asessment. Bonkers!!I swear i am going crazy sooner or later. But i am enjoying this craziness. Ya i know i am crazy, but trust me i wouldnt be doing anything if i did not enjoy it. Tomorrow all these would be over!

Disgusted by all the killings around, i have no idea what to say to make things better or to make it all stop. For all i know, Humans have changed perhaps evolved. haha. Nah, i think too much. One thing's for sure. A little humour and laughter can save a lot of things.

Thanks Shiya for your care and concern, thinking about my welfare haha. Appreciated.
Thanks Val Ong for your constant updates and craziness.

Okay, i have finally decided and took action to sign up with Amore. So that spells a crazy month ahead.Reading up on investments. UOB has some good ones. Meanwhile i can continue saving, try my best and work whenever i can. Okay peeps, more tomorrow or whenever i am free. Do update me about your lives too. tata~

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Sunday, July 24, 2005
9:27 PM

i'm so bloody full. I swear i am reducing the amount of food i eat. I wanner go the distance so needa cut down and i would get into some regime soon enough. Meanwhile so not looking foward to this coming week. So many issues going on, feel so stressed. Not really, i dont feel stressed but just you know, confused. argh! i dont know. tired.

Lance armstrong my hero, my inspiration!!

I shall go the distance. No rest today though i needed it badly, family commitments,gosh its been a long week and a longer one coming up.

NOW I AM APPEALING FOR A FREE MASSAGE SESSION!!! any recomendations?

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Saturday, July 23, 2005
9:46 PM

Fun on Foot Adventure was fun but real tiring! We started the race handicapped, haha, cause everyone had 4 pax and we had 3 pax but its alright! like i said JL spirit is with us haha! anyway, we did not expect such a huge crowd, gosh the number of people who took part was like WOW! The clues to destinations were rather tough, practically clueless about the heritage of Singapore. Seeing primary school kids, knowing more stuff than us bugs me alittle. But oh well. The race was real interesting, ran like crazy, got drenched in the rain, seen various different aspects of Singapore.

Througout the whole race we werent really running and pushing ourselves but still we were there to win. But not as desperate as others, haha, but glad to say we were among the first halves of peeps who finished! Not bad considered for us kukus and what more we were in the OPEN category. But want to say thanks to this Singapore Poly dude who let us pass though our chapteh skills sucks big time! ;)

After the whole event we did not stay for the lucky draw, waste of time we rested at HF than proceeded to RP's mini bazaar at NLB. LY's team's cart was there. Took a look, took some pointers;) haha. Cramped at FJ, and absorbed some guitar stuff.

Gosh, guitar was horrifying, think cause i missed too many lessons, so stressed!!! But thank god i got over it! Felt so relieved! Learnt a new song today. Got to practise. You know what? I still have so many things to do but i'm definitely going to take a break first. So freaking tired! Going to watch Tour De France soon. Than catch up on some acad stuff. till later. Enjoy the picts !

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

girl power!!! yea man! me and liying!  

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

me and cheryl after a long day 

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Friday, July 22, 2005
10:49 PM

Guess what? Our PEM class actually got in 1st in the travel seminar thing, and i, Shiya and Cheryl are supposedly suppose to represent our class to go on stage for this game show. GOODNESS!! Now i gotta read up on China, India and Malaysia. Furthermore, i am having an ICA on that day itself. My mind would probably be bombarded with informations. After which i got to rush to the NDP Sign language training or something.

Went to Cheryl's class for Flash lesson after which i just left for SAJC interact installation programme. Interesting, as usual we get to mingle and socialise with fellow peeps. So weird socialising, haha. But we warmed up after awhile. Not that bad after all. So weird being introduced as some International Service Director. Had a meeting with fellow sister clubs about some International trips to India. Very Interesting. Metting SIF's director. Brings back good old memories of YEP trip!! I forsee more savings of $$.

So tomorrow is the BIG EVENT! The National Heritage Trail! our foursome is being cut to threesome, but its aiight, JL i know your spirit is with me! haha. We'll work our asses off tomorrow. I am right now slogging the guitar hoping to squeeze the 2 lessons i have missed. Smacks myself! GO FOR YOUR LESSONS NEXT TIME!!

guitar lessons- 60 bucks
amore lessons- 45 bucks
total - 105 bucks
allowance 300 bucks
195 bucks left!
50 bucks transport.
145 bucks left.
saving 100 bucks.
left 45 bucks?
still can survive if i spend 2 bucks a day. haha.

oh yea, i'm going to set up an online business. WooHOo...more income!!

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

APPEALING FOR SPONSORSHIP!!

haha! just a joke!
I want a laptop.
I want to go to immersion programme.
I want to take up horse riding.
I want to take up archery.
I want to continue amore.

so as u see its al WANTS, so guess the SPONSORSHIP is not going to work out to those who are reading this, hahahaha! okok.
but the bottom line is i really need $$$.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Thursday, July 21, 2005
11:47 PM

5 million dollars, so much talk, so much controversies.
yep, today is the big day, the big day where every single one of us stand an equal chance to win 5 million dollars. Before the draw was out i bet everyone was thinking what they would be doing with the 5 million dollars. Interesting isnt i? i'd just thought it is, everyone staking their chance against this 5 million dollars.

I won a small price myself, a lucky draw! Won a silver box of famous amos cookies worth 12.50 bucks i guess. Not bad a start i would say.

Anyways, trip to school today was nothing much. Been evil, running away from school, not doing much , but let me remind you i have done whatever has to be done! met up with LY at Republic Poly with Cheryl. Had great Indian Food over there, proceeded to her room to mess around with. Seriously felt like staying there. Head back only after chilling at coffee beans at Wheelock. After that was nothing much.

Even tuition was cancelled today, had great dinner at Shiya's house though. Now there are still piles of things to be done. But lesser as i believe it would be.more later. busy right now.

kenneth are u really going to sponsor my trip haha. nah just joking. i'm so tired now, i need a full body massage. hmmm......

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Wednesday, July 20, 2005
10:15 PM

hello, mr or miss anoyomous? care to leave ur name the next time you do leave something.
was at suntec with cheryl today during lunch to collect our shirt for our heritage fest. ate at crystal jade and felt so lethargic after that. Came back to school for the travel immersion seminar. Headed for the NDP sign language training with Michelle K. Told cheryl to take note of the Archery course for me. Busy Busy Busy!

I still owe so many people so many things. No time to really settle the stuff.
I've got to settle my guitar. really got to practise. As well as the sign language.
The heritage trail research. I need some entertainment.

I want to go for the immersion programme, but come to think of it, it doesnt really help. Its not as if i'm rich or sort so no point wasting it there where i can use the money to pay for my guitar course, probably archery and amore right?
ok will write more later. gotta perpare tuition tomorrow.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

I always believe that being in a relationship is just for companion sake because i havent found anyone who is able to prove me otherwise. Or rather i havent seen any real life example to prove me otherwise too. I've always wanted to believe that it is something more than that. More than just being around and being there, but this invisible support and presence that lingers and stays and adds strength.

The one that says that everything is okay. The presence that stays long enough to prevent things from becoming stale. Friends have been asking me about relationships and all i can say is dont go into one too fast when you know you are not ready. Often i've seen people going into one for the wrong reasons, and in turn resulting in only 2 outcomes. First, being too dependant on the existence of it to be able to break away when things go wrong. Second would be indulging in false comforts.

Whatever it is, its more than what you think but not as complicated as it seens. go figure.Like i always say i would rather be in a dramatic relationship than a predictable one.

I've just realise how shortlived things can be especially happiness, yes i have tried many things and acheived so many but at the end of the day i just feel so helpless. Being int TEP doesnt really help either, the excessive long hours and the never-going-to-happen-breaks. Friends in poly seem so different,so superficial,i'm not saying all but let's just say that they come and go, of course i have those that have stayed for good. But, whose to say what might happen.

which is why i cherish my secondary school friends alot, especially people like LY, HS, SY and the rest. Seniors who helped me alot like Lixin, Stella, Hafiza and etc.I really badly miss them. Like how fatigue sets in during Events Management and Roadshow Days, it is beginning to set in now at Bpos. Thoughts running wild, emotions setting it.

oh well. No biggie. Shall arrange some chit chat session soon.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Tuesday, July 19, 2005
11:24 PM

Ok anyways, day 2 of life after camp focus was rather cool, could say it is one of the best days of my life, mainly because work at Bpos was cool, completed most of my stuff without any difficulties. Had a great gossip session with my group mates. Had lotsa laughter and games. Had nice lunch with my gang.

More importantly, while on my way to my test, i received a call said that i am in the commitee, as such international dont know what, cant remember, happy to be in,but apprehensive as usual. Same old me. Afraid i cant offer stuff, and i have another installation this friday, which means i would miss siyin's birthday celebration how? :(

On another note i pass my test. hehe. estatic.
sign language for NDP tomorrow.
Archery tomorrow too. Damn!
Seminar too! Damnation again!!

its so nice being able to spend time with your friends, friends that not necessarily share the same life as you. Its so comforting, but one thing's for sure you risk the chance of wanting to lose everything for them. i'm just rambling. its alright.

Really want to go for immersion programme.happiness so short lived.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Monday, July 18, 2005
9:47 PM

lemme shhow ya some pics before i start.



Wonderful isnt it? Friday was the start of camp. Reported real early, met JL at somerset before heading for school. real tired because it was 8am. There we got into our new groups and thank god i had Valerie with me. My Bpos mate! Haha. So proud of it. Met new friends like Nigel, Amanda, ShuYi, Jeeven, Vif and Yani. Our group is called Lamb Chop.

The first day was already filled with loads of activities. Ice breakers, Life journal, Sports Games, Retro Games, Night Trail and a movie to watch. Only got to sleep at 5am. It was a strenuous first day, back to back activities, but it was real fun.

The second day we had to wake up at 8am for our physical training. Boy was it crazy. Think we did like so many push ups. Did i tell you val, JL , cheryl and me slept at the bench which was rock hard, and woke up with muscle aches everywhere? haha. With PT, it made things worst. After we had breakfast, val went for her grooming course and exco meeting for A team, while i,Jl and Cheryl excused ourselves from camp. Basically the 4 of us, needed some space so we excused ourselves.

Cheryl went home to sleep. While i and JL left for Pulau Ubin. Crazy right? We were so freaking TIRED!! that we slept on the train and bus and boat. We ate nice kampong chicken rice at Pulau Ubin. Met a nice dog and headed for Changi Airport, hoping to get some sleep cause we were tired only to realise terminal 2 viewing mall was under renovation so we left for JL house, slept there than met Cheryl and headed to SETTLERS CAFE!

ok, before i continue, while on the train to Bedok to Ubin, someone shouted for a first aider. Jl told me to move down, so we move down, to find this uncle, who was behaving weirdly like he had some heart attack, what disappoint me was no one helped out when that guy called for help. In the end, 3 guys carried the uncle out of the train to the station and hopefully called for ambulance and got him to the hospital. I wanted to help to check it out, but some stupid guy just shove me aside, stupid, so what if i am young and is a girl. Did tell anyone about this cause what matters is the uncle is alright. bless you.

Back to Settlers Cafe, met my childhood friend Xin Ai working there so cool, but anyways, we played loads of boardgames and had fun before heading back to camp. They were having cultural night, we decided not to intrude, feeling a little anti social, haha so we sneaked around and played dai dee. Met up with Val and went back.

3rd day was back to back activities again. Morning PT, NYP Camp Focus Traithlon and Amazing Race. Very fun indeed. love it to bits. Break Camp at 6.

Went home had Steak at this beautiful restaurant The Vines Steak and Seafood Restaurant before heading to school and falling asleep like a pig.

Than its back to school again today, mudane lifestyle for now.. more later.Competition tomorrow.Test tomorrow. See if i want to go for touch rug. dont feel like socialising.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Friday, July 15, 2005
1:13 AM

Camp Focus tomorrow. Away from civilisation again.
Apprehensive. dunch know why.
Entrepreneurship Idol tomorrow.
Apprehensive. dunch know why.
guitar on sat. not prepared.
hai~

its in the morning so er... its today.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Tuesday, July 12, 2005
10:29 PM

Finally accomplished my flea market stuff, would consider holding another one soon enough. We'll see about that. Accomplished balloon sculpturing course and the committee interview meeting. Thank god its all over.

I'm confused right now and i dont even know why, my mind has been fully utilised so much so that when i am sleeping i am having dreams almost every night. Life in school, hasnt been good these days, bored to death with boring stuff. Food Fest was enticing though.

I want to get a laptop!!! Fujitsu would do!! School computers sucks! Ate at Coca today during lunch, sneaked out, and had the student's buffet. What a feast. Ate like pigs.9 plates of Vegetables!!! All of different variety. Fibre diet! Yippee!!

Camp focus meeting tomorrow, for the camp focus on friday, saturday and sunday for leaders of all CCAs. Excited. Did not go for touch rugby today, i hope i can go one of these tuesdays. i cant go next week again cause of test. Hai~ Man, i am so confused. Suddenly, i dont know what i have been doing all these while, somebody stop me!

I miss my guides friends. I miss my 0406 friends, the times we hang around together.I miss the simple days. Learn to be contented girl!! smacks myself! argh!!!

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Sunday, July 10, 2005
10:40 PM

Wow. Liying took this picture of our booth. and i took it from her photo blog. ooppss. she din sy its copyrighted so anyway here it is! tada!!! Our wonderful booth!

This is the before, scroll down to check the after!! succesful day!!

Yep! total sales of 343! mine i is 153! tired. test tmr. lotsa reponsibilities tmr. talk later.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Friday, July 08, 2005
11:08 PM

dont take away my dreams, if not i'll not be kind to you.
dont belittle me, if not i'll not respect you.
i'm no push over, so get lost.
give me faith and i'll work things out.
listen to me and you'll see my path.

had fun helping out at the blood donation drive today. glad to see so many people wanting to donate, so much so that we have over hit our target. feel that i owe my BPOS mates...

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Thursday, July 07, 2005
11:35 PM

more later. during the Singapore Youth Festival Chinese Orchestra Performance.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

i have completed all my stocklist except for the stuff my mother got for me. Also convinced her that all the setting up of this mini business will help me in the long run. So i am satisfied right now.

I arrived late to school purposely as i decided to finish up my work at home before heading out. More productive that way. Would like to THANK EVON for buying the 2 tubs of ice cream, sorry i wasnt in school to taste it but i really appreciate it! I skipped multimedia lesson too since i anticipate it being redundant. Told so many people to sign for me but many couldnt due to some requirement, but finally got Adeline(love ya!) to sign for me. So off i was to meet Shiya and off we were to Golden Landmark Hotel. We were meeting this pastor who was a client of our school, he was on transit therefore he needed to meet us there instead of here in the school. We met explained stuff and received the 600 dollars deposit, it was an interesting experience, one i did not want to miss. So thankgod i was right there at the right time. What was interesting too was i was in my boardshorts and t shirt, shiya was in jeans and coller tee, i think he was kinda apprehensive about giving us the $$, afraid we were fraud, so much so that he requested shiya's identification. haha. funny.

We had our lunch at bugis KFC and shopped around for awhile, making use of the time out of NYP. Back to school, i organised my planner updating myself of the days that i am occupied, which really is alot. Scares me a little. But i am enjoying it. After which , Shamie joined us along with her gang, we had a mini gossip session, of love, future guy-to-bes. Very nice only to be interupted by news that results of previous stopover was out. I got a B. Happy! because Bs are only a handful and As are one or twos. So i am satisfied. Ms Tan told me to keep up the good work, hmm.. so i shall take it as a compliment. Joined the conversations back, and time flew as it was time to sign out again!! Hooray! Thank god, Gina Weers is busy, not much things to do these days. Though the things that she asked us to do are not completely done yet.

Next was travelling to Shiya house for tuition, came prepared so i had no fear! haha. Shiya's mum really cooks well, yum yum, man! i cant stop eating the food ha ha. Came back home, Flu got slightly better, cough is coming, but i'd choose cough over the freaking pain throat i have anyday, and stupid tummy ache! Goodness, i'm old.

News of The bombings in London, disgust me alot. Where is the love? Angry, but hurt and disappointed at the same time. Than it brought me to another sad fact, one second of jublilation the very next minute it all might be over. Just a day ago London city was celebrating and now they were grasping the fact of this attack. Disgusted really... Disappointed really.... hai~

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Wednesday, July 06, 2005
9:33 AM

Wednesday

My mysterious throat problem was better in the morning, came to school slightly late but got things all covered up. What was really amazing was, throughout my time in school i was glued to the computer screen watching the IOC presentations, but i wasnt lucky enough to see all, i caught Moscow's and half of London.

The thing about Moscow is it focus alot on culture of the country, which is commendable. London was fantastic in its presentation though, focussing on the next generation and touching the hearts of many who listened it, i believe in every presentation be it for the important or for the norm, its how you present it that matters rather than the content itself. Kudos to them! Clap Clap!

OK oh well, i went for to help out in the blood drive with Jiali and BiFeng. We were in charge of the refreshment, it was really cool. I really want to donate my blood unfortunately they cant feel my vein. Its alright like what Adelene said its the thought that counts. After the helping out was interview session with Rotaract club, but we did not follow through in the end cause there were many people waiting and we had the mentoring AGM meeting so we went there instead.

Mentoring club never disappoint me. Short and sweet, activities that i enjoy, and more importantly food. The people there are nice, and what more i saw Hafizah!!! FREEAAKKKAASSS!! haha. nono just my long time friend haha. I enjoyed my time there, and i might be performing during National Day again!!! hehe!

So we were supposed to meet Gina Weers for a meeting, but there were lotsa miscommunication and so it eat into my time to watch the IOC live at home! so i was rushing and i, shiya and jiali had fun on the train. London won as i predicted!! hip hip hooray!! anyway, now that the hype is over, its more down to the work.

I was feeling like shit at night again. But still caught the TOUR DE FRANCE! As usual respect Lance Armstrong alot. Silas called today about medics issue. I think i will try to help. Hopefully his competition does not clash to any of my stuff.

Unknowingly slept early yesterday, and woke up late on a thursday. which is today. okok, i will do my stock list and head to school....

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Tuesday, July 05, 2005
11:31 PM

goodness! i woke up today feeling like shit, my throat was freaking dry and it hurts when i swallowed. But oh well, i still went to school today. I bought my papers but could not read it on the train because i was very tired and my head hurts. Reached school, feeling like shit. Drank lotsa water, bought lozenges and rest on my table.

News has it that David Beckham would be coming to my school and true enough he came. I was filming the whole event through and through. Chalven and Junsheng were the ushers. Valerie was the guest usher so she got to usher him. Soccer gals got to seat 4 seats behindhim. I got the 7th. But my filming was the best, so much so that the gal behind me wanted to buy my video. He came as fast as he left, what was really disappointing was that fellow NYPians had to leave when he left and did not have the courtesy to stay till the whole event was done. One more black mark for mankind.

After the event, i felt like shit again, my stupid throat was acting up again. But i had a concert to attend tonight, so there was no way i can head home to rest. Had early dinner in school to save money, met Liying at cityhall after getting my business book from MPH. Cheap cause there was a 20% discount. Walk through the Padang, saw the beautiful set up. Too bad i dont have tics. Anyone? We were very near Raffles City Convention and was wondering how the opening show was going on. How i wish i was there.

Back to the concert hall, we had fun watching them, gosh, they are really talented kids man! and while i was flipping through the brochure or handbook, i saw my ex classmate Zhong Ye. That tall guy who was so righteous back in primary school. Indeed, he has grown to a fine young man, full of aspirations. They will be representing singapore in the International Scene at Vienna. So is Liying's friend. Not bad as according to her is available and of good material. haha. ok i will consider. hahahaha.

walked back and after that it was all downs for me. I felt like shit again. and just feel like skipping school, unfortunately there are just so many things to do tomorrow... we'll see... might skip the first few hours.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Monday, July 04, 2005
10:22 PM

chocolate bread, almond powdered bread, cup noodles, chips, watercress soup, chicken and garlic naan.

So much for wanting to have a proper meal, fack it! hate it when i cannot have a proper meal. now my throat hurts, and i am having difficulty waking up in the morning. seems that its not the best of time for me.. hmm.... hai~ becks coming to NYP tomorrow, not 100% confirm yet but oh well, somehow i just wish it would be cancelled. Attending SYF concert tomorrow with Cheryl and Liying.

I still am trying to fix up a proper lifestyl here, with proper food of course, wassup with the convenience of food around me, CHEERS is like just right below my stopover, screw that. Proper meal!! yea! Better get that into my thick skull! oh well. more later.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Sunday, July 03, 2005
11:37 PM

sunday.
this day is specially taken away from my stupid hectic life to spend time at home. Somehow i am so not looking forward to school tomorrow although i love school very much. Things are so different now, it feels like so uncomfortable knowing that friends are always busy in their various stopover or classical lessons. You know their there but they are just so far away. I miss the times we had so much in common to share, whereas these days we'd be telling each other what we have been up to, it just feels so weird.

Than it struck on me that we arent even in the same class anymore so even if classical starts we still wont be spending those times together again, gosh, this is worst than a break up. BM0406 is so special that every single character that is in it has played such a huge part in my world, that i do find these parts missing now and i miss it so much at times.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Saturday, July 02, 2005
3:00 PM

saturday is supposed to be my recovery day, but i doubt it would be any time soon. sorry peeps you have been hearing my excessive complaints these days, but dont worry i am appreciative of everything that i have now, i rather have all these than none of these.

So i woke up at 8 today. Got myself washed up and dressed for the Singapore Polytechnic Installation. Rotaract Club stuff. Interesting event, socialised again. Food was my target again! hehe. I should stop eating so much. Had a brief meeting with the other Rotaracters of NYP. I am slated to be In charge of the Changi Prison Project as well as involved in the campfire plans. Interersting, but i am going to be so damn freaking busy as usual. Whats new.

Rush home, practised guitar, was debating whether to go. I really suspect that there is this super lazy side of me that is being oppressed somehow. I am suppressing it down under, right now i am forcing my lazy self to go for the lesson. There is Amore not signed up yet. Better hurry before registration closed. Heritage fest 2004 has not been faxed over, flea market $$!! Bloody hell, i better start doing all these! I need sleep!! I feel so old, like i havent been sleeping in a million years and i am desperately craving for it.

I missed many calls these days, really sorry, its either i am in a meeting, there are deadlines to meet or that i am really tired*yawn* and my body refuse to even open my mouth to answer, i sincerely apologise to everyone, i know its wrong. I promise i will get back to you. Or just leave me a message i will reply to it asap.

i am just so tired, or even afraid of being tired, haha, stupid as it sounds, its part of my idiosyncracies, anyone volunteer to be my personal driver? i took 2 cab rides to school last week already, and it really isnt worth the money. But somehow i cant seem to wake up these days, oh well, more later, got to take a rest before heading for guitar, than back home to settle all the nitty gritty details.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.




Friday, July 01, 2005
10:42 PM

Wednesday

caught War of the Worlds on the premier day itself with Liying and Stella @ Tiong Bahru. Everywhere else was booked. We smuggled BK into the cinemas and ate like crazy idiots in the dark ha ha. But i think the smuggling part was even more insane. Stella just had her pay so the two of us were being good shopping companions after the movie.

Thursday

days in BPOS really bring me back to basics, but at least i dont have to do research, mine has alot to do with business development. A lot of exposure to many different areas of globalisation, national and tertiary area. Learnt how to be resourceful and stuff. Being the leader of the team has taught me lotsa interpersonal skills. But more importantly, TEP is really about socialising, gosh. this sounds like some testimonial for TEP.

we are taught to be interior designers too haha. oh wells, i'm still trying to figure out the softwares. me being late for TEP has already become a habit. A very bad one, i really have difficulty waking up. Mel's girlfriend birthday today! They invited us for Coca steamboat but i have to tuition shiya sis. Not good to push it away. But i had great dinner at her house. Man, the food was awesome! Received stuff for flea market, lotsa planning and sorting out to do.

Friday

late and was almost screwed. But somehow my ass was saved. TGIF and went Crystal Jade again. Saw Randall Ong. Nothing much, just that there is still alot to do, alot of things to attend, like the seminar i am having tomorrow, guitar not practised yet. i am in deep shit.. Flea market. yada yada.. more later.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.

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