so we're packed with the designing of brochures! touched a little here and there. i hope everything works out smoothly with my team mates. Hopefully, there is no squabbles or misunderstanding. Just crossing my fingers. Dont want any of it to happen.
I feel bad. I have so many dreams, so many things to do and to me commitment and time is a factor i always have to compromise. My family, i owe them a lot, how much i say i dislike their lack of support at times, i know i owe them a lot. I'm always away. Always filled with so many activities always spending so little time, and even if i am home, i'd be busy with stuff. My academic aint that fantastic either, and i feel guilty not even being able to accomplish the basic of all things as a student.
i feel bad for the friends i have neglected. How many times have i said i want to spend time with all of you but always never seem to make time. How many birthdays have i missed? I have not been asking how you guys are, like my present junior guides, my ex guides, my primary friends, my secondary school friends. I am sorry. Valerie's leaving for Tasmania this Sunday, and since she has been back from KL i havent spend quality time with her. I feel bad. There is this tingling feeling, that i know i am going to miss her alot. Miss her like crazy. My buddy in Sec 4.
I feel bad for my soccer pals. As much as i want to show dedication and devotion to it, i feel that i dont have enough effort to put everything into it. I got to find and see the many other things around it, and i'd always believe in putting in my best if not,i'd just got to leave it as 2nd place and move on from it.
My TEP mates. I have always tried to put in my utmost in whatever i do. I'm sorry if i have doen anything that was not up to your standard. But i am only human. I promised i will keep putting in the effort as it always have been putting in, if not better. I will try not to compromise my dreams with our work.
The list goes on there are so many things i have to say. So many apologies i have got to give. But right now, i know i dont have time to dwell on these. Seize the right time for the right issues. I'll try like i said, i'll try. At the end of the day, i'll make a decision, and even if all else fails, at least i know i have tried and my dreams are not far away.
goodness, i miss my stop today while reading my newspapers. Stupid me, as ever. If i pass this week safely, i know its all going to be ok.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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