goodness. its so late and i am still awake. unfortunately everyone's asleep so i've got no one to talk to. Shall just settle with some thoughts. These days i have been entering certain depths i have not explored in a long time. Dreaming and fantasizing of a life that never would exist, at least not now. Just finished a set of VCDs. Damnit, never want to dwell in those again, always pull me into the realms of sweetness and than shut me out by ending it with a song.
Guess it just shows that everything must come to an end. Time heals they say, its true, cant deny that.
Dreams and fantasies, see how far they take you and how fast they can ditch you. Afraid i am, but never would i back down. I live on these, i live on testing my emotions, putting me together then tearing me apart. I cry, i fall, i collapse but i stand up again.
19th June 2005. 3:28am right now, i just wish there was someone to talk to. through the night. right now i'm just vulnerable to anything. just a little girl, who wants to be comforted and hugged closely. i dont want no bling bling, dont want no status, dont want no recognition. i want a voice, a hand and a hug through life. never thought one could feel so lonely. dun get me wrong. lonely yes. alone not.
oh well, this getting a little too emotional, waddahell am i doing. Just the other me speaking.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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