Was supposed to head for a game of tennis early this morning, but i guess Cheryl had not booked the court so perhaps either tomorrow or another day. Sunday is the day i dont feel like heading out though. But we'll see haha. Anyway, i bet we will have the whole of TEP days to play around.
Have not been updating much these days. Basically, upon reaching home, i'd seriously be so freaking tired, that though the computer is on, i would just sleep right in front of it, and it doesnt help when i have to get up for school the next morning at 6.
But its been pretty alright these days except for the little gliches here and there, some people got caught for gambling, i have tried sneaking out of TEP a few times. Hang out late at night outside school only to reach home in the early morning, like i said feeling them shagged.
Not only so, i am currently in the midst of wanting more but not sure what to want. I lost the hunger for whatever i was looking for. Like i cant even be bothered to go for my events, though i badly know that i want to be part of it. I want to sign up for so many things, but at times i just cant be bothered to put myself into the emotional challenges whilst in it. I am just so freaking lazy.
I am also such an ass. I cant attend Stephanie's birthday. I am such an idiot these days. Feeling so freaking lost and always seeking senseless pleasures. Upon seeing SBM grand finale today, i realise that i jolly well could have been those up stage, those were the things that i had wanted to do, but did not do. Why? Because i am just such a loser. ok, sorry, i am just trying to be harsh to myself, to knock some sense into my head.
I dont want to waste time anymore. hai~Wake UP girl!!!!!!!! I just got to find the right balance now, and i really want to go France and i hope i can get the money. we'll see how it goes huh... we'll see how the next few days unfold. bring me back to life..hahaha.. i dont even know the date today.
haha okok, Clarice, relax.. hahaha
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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