life has been pretty good to me, so far i have not experience any hiccups. Been to places to fish, tan, drink and enjoy the basic beauty of life. But i guess you people who know me will realise that these will never be good enough for me. Am i too greedy in life? Is this why Silas told me not to be too greedy in life and be contented with what i have?
maybe, maybe that is the case, but for now life has just thrown me with a whole bunch of questions with such a short time left. i'm feeling very confused. And i do wonder at times whether i am of any significance whatsoever, stupid i know to let such stupid insecurities try screwing up my life now.
But i know, its more than just that. There are certain things that i cant put it down here, certain things that i know will lie within me and eat me up. Maybe just maybe, it will all get sorted out when i do get a reply from him about what i should do next, waiting for his email. happy at the same time to receieve his message.
He cares i know, and he knows i care, which is what makes it all the more better, because he knows what i would do next and what i would be doing, he knows how i would make one wrong move and how to get me out of it, which is why i know he will always be there for me.
Its hard to talk things out , when you know that somehow you'd be judge, so when you do tell them that you dont like things this way, they'd start saying that it doesnt really matter to them whether their opinions are taken into consideration, which i find very disappointing, because these remarks hurts. But its ok.
the good thing about all these, is i know at the end of the road i will be okay.
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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