okok..done with the past. dont want to talk about mistakes. everybody needs time to settle down. and i have settled down, at least i really know what i want now. So no fear. I am still a sucker for pain. haha. was really tired yesterday, so i slept around 2 am and did get to talk much to Adib and company.. grrr.... Like i said, horse riding was fun, i wouldnt mind picking it up with Cheryl again back in Spore. I bought a fair amount of stuff. But its never enough which is why i never like to spend money on clothes. love more outdoors... where are my kakis? hahah anyway, so much for living a life of no expectation,still as ever expecting so much. okok. anyway i had a good, nice chat with A last night, and it got many things cleared, and this special relationship that we have. like what i told him, love him still the same, miss him still the say will be there for him still the same. heheh still lotsa things to say, but i need to process my thoughts, maybe tomorrow yea? maybe when my brain is less confused and ready for action... promise...tkcare peeps... places been: church sorta like a flea market place spencer village harbour town DVD place