forever.

Sunday, March 27, 2005
11:35 PM

dear creature a

you have given me a fair share of what the world has to offer, and i thank you for all the basic needs and perhaps much more than those that you have to offer for me.

You have fufilled my wishes and some of my aspirations, but its time you realise that i need the space to grow instead of your constant smouldering me. Still i appreciate all the concerns and things that you are giving me, and it is perhaps the fact that i have not been updating you on my life which is why you have no idea how much i have grown.

I have weathered many creature a. Or so you could have seen, if only you have not held on to your perception that i am weak and i have not seen the world. In fact, i have build up a high pain tolerance level, i am able to withstand much more than you think i can. I have seen many, toured and tried lots of things to open up my world.

I know to you it may seem hard to believe, with all these facts that i shove into your face, but its true creature a. You hate to see me grow, but i have. I may have erred in many areas, and i will continue to err but i know where i am going, infact, i am proud to say i am proud of myself.

when i was growing up, i was defenseless, i kept everythin deep within, because i know of your objections and i thank whoever who has backed me up, those who have secretly supported my each and every attempt which made me who i am today. I have no regrets.
I wished you'd see though, and walk with me through those distance, but it is okay.

Now i am just asking you to walk with my brother a. Let him learn and grow how he should, like a man. If any, i believe he is wiser in many ways, perhaps much better than i am, though i refuse to admit outright. Give us that chance to be out in the open and not hide away when there are things we want to share.

creature a i have no idea if i am asking for too much, but you know what, you got to walk this path again and see how it is different. because it is different now.

yours truly.

below pics of previous sungei buloh trip with cheryl..some snippets.

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.