forever.

Sunday, March 13, 2005
12:49 AM

i guess the whole day was spend slacking or rather taking a break.
which was rather cool. you wouldnt be able to imagine the number of times i fell asleep.
guitar lessons was okay. i was rusty and whose to blame but me, cause i havent touched it in like ages haha. okok, i will start strumming and plucking the chords real soon.

had my typical dinner after travelling all the way back. my herbal soup, cod fish and vege.
seems that i am drinking herbal soup rather frequently these days.
cant believe i am taking such great care of my health. plus all the crunches and stuff. grr..haha

anyway, i officially finished my econs theory which was quite a relief. but i was kinda half hearted because i got so motivated by the Yonex Badminton Open match. that i took out a racquet and shuttle to play. i took out a soccer ball hoping to kick around afraid of losing touch. was almost on the verge of bringing out my table tennis bat and ball to play too.

ok anyway, what was appeasing was, after everything was done, i sat down on the floor and my mind just blanked out, which was cool in a way. peace at last. its not that bad after all.
Oh my family will be leaving for Bangkok on the second last day of my exams for a 5 day trip. They are kinda harping on my back to make sure i am home. Am i that bad? i mean yea, i wont listen. Maybe they know that, but they got to realise that they got me safe being alone. i will break rules i will go against, because i dont have time. rather i dont know what is time, but i'd be safe.

So i'd fight for what i still have, and cherish what i already have. so yea.
i am not alone on this i know, but guess what, i always have this thought in mind," Accept and cherish your son/daughter for what he or she is now, what he or she is doing, just be glad that they are by your side now. learn to accept and you know what? Keep an open mind ,it will help prevent them from walking away. Instead learn to embrace and cherish the now that you have with them." Something like that.

But dont get me wrong, i;m not fussing over their concern. i am currently okay with it. i also feel bad not being honest, not spending enough time with them. rejecting their offer to go overseas, but then again...hmmm..... i dont know. i think i am beginning to sound like someone.

thinking about edmund. the life before with him. hmm... interesting. boy oh boy, how are you doing now....

i'm not gonna stand here and wait.