I have been spacing out a lot today. espcially during soccer.
I was thinking about something, i know there is something.
But i just couldnt put a finger onto what it was. But i was very distracted.
I felt hurt at some point. hurt for someone or myself i dont know.
It might be you who stirred this emotion in me, or rather no emotion in me, the result of me starring into space.
after so many weeks, months, i thought you were erased.
but you made me feel again. its not that bad is it?
My life has been without feeling. if u get wad i mean.
Whether its the only hope or there is no hope, i'm glad i dared chanced upon it.
Wont blame you for raising me up den crumpling me down later. i swear.
stiffed ankle. cuts.
you summed up my day today.
there are certain things my sub-concious mind has been making me avoid. i dunno if its good.
like what would happen if ure dead? am i ready to face death again?
why am i thinking about these? i need to anyway.
time to face my fears.
*there is no negativity in here*
i'm not gonna stand here and wait.
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