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2009-02-13T06:53:00.000-08:00

It will only be this once by anonyomous

Tears are signs of anger within myself.
The expectations and nothing else
I walk through life
adding a little more each time
only to be brought down once in awhile

I rather you not see these
with each questions you ask
i feel more at ease
and the tears will just keep falling
cause i know you have just saved me from myself

So, dont even try telling me
cause i only know too sure what it will be

it will only be this once
where you will ever get a chance
to see all that you'll ever will see within
i will remember and i will run
too ashame to let you see

Tears will fall
and i will never be able to stop
like the strongest person i will ever have beside me
i trust you and will not even try
and the tears will not just be all that subsides

I will make it, maybe that's how it always is
but i will never let it be
ever again a time like this for you to see
cause i have to move on and be strong the next time we will meet

it will only be this once
where you get a chance
to see all that you ever will see within
i will remember
and i will run
too ashame to let you see this on a repeat

cos i will make it, that's how it always will be,
and i will never let it be, ever again a time for you to see all of these....

2009-01-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

I want to vent my frustration. Enough of playing cool, i guess its good to complain once in awhile. I am so tired of keeping up, or rather losing pace.

There is so much readings to do, and i dont just want to read, i want to capture it all, i want to understand. Then, there is another side of my life that i want to be involved in and i want to do it well too. So you see the conflict. How do i cope and ensure that i do not fall of both places or fall of all the places?

Playing cool and nonchalent comes naturally, but i dont want that anymore i want to push the boundaries. Then again, pushing it might really lead to an unknown reaction. You know the thing about cause and effect. How interesting that is. I have not explored that in a long time.

But it is kind of scary, i wouldnt want the effect to harm people i love.Or, maybe just people around me, because i know i am capable of my hidden ability. The passion and drive might be so strong that i might hurt people around me subconciously.

Not that i am not doing so now, it seems my ignorance and nonchalency has led to an aloof reaction from them too. I am at a lost honestly. I probably need a superhero to tell me that it will all be okay. Then again, people will think that i am pushing too hard on an area that i do not need to. But i want to! Dont tell me i cant, or that the other is less important than the other.

I want it all. Call me greedy. Or rather given the choice i probably give up school. But since that is not an option, it is not equally as important to me. So how now? Than there are other things which are just as important too. What do i do?

Do i just bulldozed my way blindly through? I mean that is what a bull do and succeed in doing so. Since i am born in the horoscope year of a Tauras, does that mean i will be good at doing that?

Or should i just accept that sometimes we are not good in everything?
I am lost.

I want to believe that i am a superhero who can do it. i want to believe that i have the determination to do it. I want i want i want. i want to believe that the world is big enough for me. I still have dreams, and i want to believe, so how?

2009-01-16T09:37:00.000-08:00

Clarice is afraid of losing focus.
She is afraid of letting other stupid and silly thoughts enter her mind and ruin her ability to think straight.
What is really important? So many things. Clarice dislikes it when she gets distracted.
She really cannot take people tagging along now.
She has no ability to take care of them.
She has no ability to give anything.

Clarice has been doing well for past few weeks. She cannot let it all go just like that.
It is not easy starting all over again. She will be focus.

Clarice feels sad.

2008-12-31T06:59:00.000-08:00

i have so much to catch up for DANCE!! 2 weeks! how how!!
* stretches and panics*

2008-12-30T06:50:00.000-08:00

i had a great weekend.

i dont what is going to happen the next year, but i know it is not going to be easy. But i will try my best. It is not a resolution but a promise to myself.

i want to apologise to those who i have not been able to spend time with.

I love all of you still.

2008-12-26T05:50:00.000-08:00

i am not exactly high and dandy. really looking forward to the training tomorrow.

I feel more comfortable staying within my comfort zone, at least for now. I love the homey idea. You know the stay at home and rot. Read a few books. Watch a few good movies. Whip up some good food. Clean the house. DIY some equipments.

I sure do feel old. I guess my resolution for 2009 is to be an intellectual me.=)

2008-12-25T05:06:00.000-08:00

The holidays was good. If you consider the items that i have taken back to Singapore with me, than i guess its fantastic. 6 pairs of shoes to choose from. 1 wallet and 1 bag. That cost about 3oo plus Singapura dollars. On a holiday with my family was rather stressful, considering all our idiosyncracies and differences, it was not easy trying to accomodate to everyone.

But i survived, and Jetstar was not that bad either.

Being back from China/Macau/Hongkong, got back into action immediately. Work and tuition all packed. there realy wasnt much rest. In fact, i do feel more tired than when i was back from the States. I still do miss the States.

I have also just held 2 events for NYC-YEP.
Half completed the Leadership Training Course.
Also, with tons of xmas celebrations.

i was chatting with Shiya, i told her, i feel old. really.
Oh well. i need a new environment. I ned to start a fresh somehow.
The year 2009 spells like the right time.

2008-12-22T04:28:00.000-08:00

Am back from China/Macau/Hongkong.

Will update soon!

2008-12-10T04:16:00.000-08:00

ups and downs of life.
suddenly, he just came flashing back into my life.
Makes me wonder. Why is the feeling still there?
All these harping makes no sense, because it is really something that is a desire, just because i do not have it now.

At that point of time, i really thought it would be you. But it is okay.
I am still just as good without you around and i am sure you are too.

2008-12-03T18:07:00.000-08:00

i am so happy for my dear friend who found someone she could share her life with. Although, we would not know if it if forever, but at least at the present moment it is something good.

I just realise, i should not be too consumed with work. It is kind of scary how it gets into you, when it should not be the main focus. Like how previously, when i was working in NY, and nothing really matters about work although we were tremendously busy. I guess we really should learn how to draw the line.

I really enjoyed my time with Shiya yesterday. How we both have grown older and the nonsensical stuff. I guess absence really makes the heart grow fonder. Not to say that we have something going on. Just that i miss those days of friendship. hai!

now 3 of the 5 have found someone. Its just me and her. lol. When will we ever find someone? i guess we just got to keep waiting, and i am glad to say i am very optimistic about it:)

life. interesting how it unfolds.

weight management have been good. I have been doing some good regular exercise. I just got to learn how to really sleep early. Like today if tuition ends at 9 i should really make an effort to reach home by ten and zzz..... my night away after the scrubbing in the toilet.

My skin is bad. suddenly there are patches of redness. am i allergic to something? Cant be... i am getting really tired. tuition calls. till later.

2008-12-01T17:49:00.000-08:00

im enjoying taking care of myself.
so occupied with myself, i think i dont have time for another.

2008-11-25T06:56:00.000-08:00

I feel stifled.

But i dont feel tired.

I just feel i have grown up too fast.

I dont want to explain.

I just want to be in your arms.

I cant keep up with my friends.

I want to just hide and stay alone.

Can i?

I can right?

I will do that.

2008-11-20T15:44:00.001-08:00

Am i going Macau/Zhu Hai?
Am i going backpacking in msia?

whoa. i am excited by all the plans for december!
thats what i call life.
its what u lay out for yourself.=)

2008-11-20T03:29:00.000-08:00

i want:
1. Fancl Products
2. Shoe boxes ( DIY myself)
3. Basket ( for gym shower stuff)
4. Reading rack ( Magazine)
5. aromatherapy kit ( Xmas prezzie for myself=))
6. Eye solutions (save money for it)
7. gym bag ( save money probably nike one)
8. Eye Cream ( save money for it)
9. Bottle Sleeve ( search for cheap one)
10. Story books. lotsa books! ( save money!)
11. Glass cupboard for displays and photos
12. frames for paintings
13. Painting materials
14. Lomo camera

Many more..... u guys can leave a note to state what u would like to get for me haha. i am just joking.
Anyway, drop me suggestions as to what is good and what is not, if you have any in mind.

till later.

2008-11-11T09:46:00.001-08:00

I know i have supportive friends, colleagues and people around me. I always appreciate when they open me up to suggestions and possibilities i have been blinded to. But, these cannot be enforced on me or one that corners me up. I will shun and i will move away.

Give me the space and i will learn to listen, digest and accept.

The talk about growing old has been around for some time.

I do not fear growing old now. I used to. In fact, it was just a few weeks ago. But today, i embrace it gracefully. A nice idea to be able to grow old. really. I just really need to learn and developed so much more.

I need to be more mature, to be discipline, to be nurtured.

Silas wants to go backpacking in Malaysia this December.
Stella wants to go Hongkong.
I want to go everywhere.

I need more $$! I need to save. I was contemplating working night shift. But really, i stepped away from Sentosa because it was taking too much of my time. Why would i want to take on something again knowing that it would rob me away from time spent with the people i love?

I value time now more than anything. I believe i can find a way out somehow. It doesnt always have to be evaluated by money.

health is everything too.

2008-11-09T06:39:00.000-08:00

I had a great time at batam.
Although it was my third time there, each time i am filled with different emotions and pleasant surprises.
My day started really bad though, i OVERSLEPT!!!
So miss dear michelle and peixin had to wait for me. Eventually, we took the 930am ferry.
we were all geared up with caps and shades. The boat ride was smooth and we arrive an hour later. I was famished so i bought Roti bananala. I think i got it wrong.

We thought it was banana fillings, apparently not. It was jam.
We met up with the rest of the tour people. My first on a tour in Batam.
We went to the Kuih Lapis factory. I love the coffee there, but the nice lady boss advice against me to purchase it. She said i would just placed the beans aside because it was just too difficult as i needed a filter. I bought a small kuih lapis instead.
We met Emmy thereafter the tour guide, and this nice Indonesian chinese tour guide as well as the rest of the group. They were all nice people from philippines, hongkong, US, India and of course Singapore. China too!

The next few stops were the temple, the massage, the polo shop, seafood lunch and Nagoya shopping. We exteneded i ferry till the later trip so that we could have dinner by the road side stall, AnW as well as the cheap converse shoes;)

Thank you girls for inviting me. I promise we will have more fun together.

peisin n mich at the roadside stall.

the mee goreng, super spicy but delicious.

the road side setting.. damn cool eh..

their satay which is very interesting. love their ketupat, and the soup noodles behind.

more of the stalls")

oh the delicious kuih!!

the temple lanterns.=)

For longevity as peisin said.

kuih kapis factory.

and of course us! Met a fellow new yorker, Kevin. Nice guy who has an Asian girlfriend. He stays at Queens now. Brings back good old new york memories.

2008-11-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

i am going to batam tomorrow.
Clarice is relieving those days where u could just travel around during the weekend round the States.

Clarice suddenly feels nostalgic.
Clarice feels lost with school.
Clarice needs to evaluate, think and think and think.
Clarice needs to talk to someone not already part of her life.

2008-11-01T15:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I HATE LATE NIGHTS.

BECAUSE IT MAKES U FAT. OUT OF SHAPE. BECAUSE U KEEP MUNCHING.

IT MAKES YOUR SKIN BAD. CAUSE YOU DONT GET TO REST IT WHILE ITS CLEANSING BETWEEN THE 11PM TO 2PM TIME.

IT MAKES YOU PUFFY, BECAUSE OF WATER RETENTION.

OK TIME CHECK. NOW ITS 6:28 AM.

BLARH!

2008-10-25T03:47:00.000-07:00

Snapshops of me in actions during the training in Vietnam. me, deep in thoughts.

this game really got us troubled.

I was totally clueless at how tired i was till i could easily fall asleep on my bed.

I havent realise the quiet and alone time i need till i find all the noises at home really irritating. When it comes to decision making for now, i would like to psych myself to keep my options open. It is not really wise to get too sticky to an option. Especially when it comes to work, i really got to keep my options open.

I definitely miss the time in the US. Where the dormitory was just mine,and i get all the freedom and alone time i can get in the room. Vietnam was a tough but i enjoyed the feeling of being away from home. I guess people question why i do not get home sick. It is not because i am heartless,but i cherish all these alone time.

But, that is not to say i do not want to share myself with others. I appreciate time with friends and i am awaiting that special one. Well, that one but the many ones that takes part in my life. But i have got to admit that i have problems communicating with my parents. Ironic, aint it.

I love confident guys. I love working out in the gym. I love the music. I love datelines.

Happy birthday Nicholas!

2008-10-21T18:45:00.000-07:00

After returning from the conference, i feel that i have so much to share. But, i have not organized my thoughts. It feels like i have 1001 resources but i dont have the time and energy to match everything together. It is another case of too much things on hand too little time. How sad?

Well, the first step taken is that i have set up the group for International Volunteerism for Disaster Management. Hopefully everything else will start falling in place.

I really dont know how i am going to cope with the school part, but trust me i am doing my best. Minus the need to be physcially present.

I am also trying to catch up with exercises. time is really not on my side.

Maybe i shall end of with this picture, courtesy of terrence.

2008-10-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

I ask myself how i have spend this 21 years of my life. I was wondering if it was well lived. I had lots of expectations of myself throughout the past 4 years. It was only recently that i have decided to let it go. It definitely felt easier. Things were easier to cope. I could just sleep really early and wake up to gym.

Now, things are a little more complicated. Sad to say, when it comes to survival, it is never easy. I have got to admit. This need for the sense of gratification is eating in me. I need to feel busy to erase the negativities. How sad? Very, i say. I used to think it is okay to feel tired and that you are busy all the time. It means you are still useful.

I dont want to live to people's expectation. I have got my parents right at the top of the list. I have to but i hate that. Honestly. Set me free, things will be easier. That is not to say that i am blaming. I dont do that. I take it on. So i am ready.

Just got back from Vietnam, from the conference. May i elaborate more on it in the later posts. But it got my energy back from the negativity i had before the trip. I came back tired but recharged. Somehow. I believe that everything happens for a reason now.

Aim for now, to design my room, be pretty and healthy. determination.
got to go pack the room. More later.

2008-10-08T12:05:00.001-07:00

one big happy family. i like and love it.

I am leaving for Vietnam today.

It is 3:05 am in the morning, and i am still awake.

I was trying to sync my itouch with some cool functions but i dont see it working. I need a person good in technology to help me out.

I have my bag packed. But it feels like i have left out tonnes of things.

I hate packing.

I would really miss the people back in NYC. These days i have grown on the place. It is kind of scary the sense of attachement and feeling that you can get from a bunch of people and a place you once would not have thought to be yours.

I will miss them alot.

I will miss my friends.

It is my first trip out ALONE.

Me, myself and I.

Representing an organization and Singapore.

Those who are reading this can keep emailing and sms me.=) keep me company.

2008-09-29T17:21:00.000-07:00

well, things din quite turn out the way it did.

but it has unexpected twists.

did i say i love dance? yes. dont disturb a girl when she is dancing. esp me.:)

2008-09-05T08:33:00.000-07:00

Clarice decided to place herself in a vulnerable situation.
Seems like the right one.
Oh. no. there is a wedding tomorrow.

Clarice has been really tired lately, she sleeps on trains and buses but still stays awake at night for the special moment.

A decision now has to shared by 2.

2008-09-03T11:40:00.001-07:00

Clarice smiles widely:)
She has made a few decisions in her head.

2008-08-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

So what?
really, so what?
Simplicity of life. i knew two weeks ago.
Can i find it back again?
It is not the money really.
If only i could settle for eat, sleep, run, home.
Clarice is thinking deeply.

My mother has been nagging at me to really do well in my studies. Now if you look at it based on the context, its of course for the better, but u look deeper its really cause of the money in it. I feel bad spending away their CPF for poly and spending away their cash on uni. Although, i am not taking pocket money, it is just as bad.

Clarice owe them so much... really...

2008-08-23T09:32:00.001-07:00

Jeslyna, you are a wonderful person who just needs time to find out what suits you.
You will be fine. I am sure. Because you have us around.
Clarice is happy today.
Because of 101 reasons:)
Busy, Long, tiring day, but HAPPY.
Clarice goes lalalalla.

2008-08-22T11:25:00.000-07:00

Clarice ponders and thinks.
She thinks she might just really like him.
yet, she is afraid of taking that one step.
Clarice is leaving all to fate and crossing her fingers.
Clarice oh Clarice.

2008-08-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

Clarice feels lost.
What can she do to make sure she does not miss out on things that really mean something?
Clarice Clarice Clarice

2008-08-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Clarice DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOL!

2008-08-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

Clarice is back from Genting.
The best genting trip so far.
We used to get bored at there due to the lack of things to do.
But, this time we could take life really slowly.
Slept till 11am wake up to Dim Sum brunch and just slacked around.
Had 3 games of bowling, hours of pool, manicure, Singing K and of course Movies.
Slept early too.. and shopped a little and it was casino.
Played Jackpot and Hit Jackpot. Played Bacarat and won a little.:)
Made friends on the bus. really enjoyable relaxing trip.
Life. It is in your control really. How you want things to really be.
if only USA was like 6 hours away.
I want to go redang. To just swim and cook like in Batam. :)
Clarice is happy and tired but smiling.

Rizal IM me and left me a very touching note. He was happy that i was happy. I am happy that people are happy because i am happy. I love all of you.

2008-08-12T07:49:00.000-07:00

Clarice is leaving for genting tomorrow. Just thought i really want to runaway and rest.
Travelling is good really.
I received the call for kevin!! I miss kevin. Can you cook the vietnamese beef for me ?!?
hee! Those were the days.
Clarice will keep saving money and travel all around.
Life is too short. I miss swimming round the jacuzzi and pool at batam and US.

2008-08-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

Clarice is back from an awesome batam trip.
sun sand and the sea.
Clarice sees school and is fearful. fear that she cannot keep up with it. but filled with expectations.
Clarice just wants to go back to US and work.
Aik Hwee is going USA tonight for the DUKE program. DAMN! He said he will try not to get too wild. haha. tough!

2008-08-07T02:51:00.000-07:00

School is starting next week and i am away 4 out of the 5 days.
Cool Huh?!? ;)
Clarice is just thinking of running away to America.:)

2008-08-04T20:39:00.000-07:00

3 days away from home. feels like in the US again.
FREEDOM!
Anyway, Natas fair was as usual without lunch and dinner. selling and more selling.
Singaporeans are really Singaporeans.
Something is telling me i would not fall in love with a Singaporean. Or maybe i am too quick to judge.

Anyway,i am going to Perth with Mr. Chalven and hopefully Jen in June for a mnth next year.
looking for summer exchanges again Korea!

May is asking if i can go Mexico!! wahahah.
Anyway, i will be away from home this weekend. off to Indonesia, Batam.
Really feels like in US. travelling around states.

2008-07-29T20:05:00.000-07:00

Pretty much US means i am still waking up bright and shiny in the morning to go for gym.
eating yogurt and oats.
having salads.
Pizzas and chicken wings.

Anyway, i am so busy at work now it feels like i am working full time.
I watch 101 Gao Feng on cable yesterday interviewing Tony Leung.
Simplicity.
Right now i am so simple.
gym,eat,work,eat,work, eat, sleep.
no internet access. secluded from the phone.

Life is Great.

2008-07-29T01:15:00.000-07:00

i am so sorry to hear that my friend broke off with her boyfriend.
Somehow i felt that they were a prefect mismatch. Not in a negative sense but.
Its ideally what i really like and am looking for.

Sometimes it is just the wrong time. hmm.

On hindsight i am impress with my couz mich. Saluts! IF there is someone who i know live life to the fullest it is her.

I am back in Singapore. but still pretty US.

2008-07-17T21:56:00.001-07:00

wee...back in singapore in 5 days time.
i think i love new york alot. more there than san fran, lA or Las Vegas.
Back to Singapore. means back to reality.
:) its not that bad.
ive got new resolutions.
wahahhahahahhhahah not bad huh.:)

I am so glad i have made so many taiwan and hongkong friends. wahahahhaha...
and i am planning a trip to malaysia. should i also do one this december?
whoa thats a little too fast isnt it? well...... im coming back people.
back to motherland.

2008-07-10T09:40:00.000-07:00

more pictures .. happenings of JUly 4th

2008-07-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

more piccas for ure viewing;)

2008-06-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

just a few pictures for your viewing...
cool chicken wings and beer place near YMCA that we always hang out at...
5th Ave Bryant Park... where we slack sleep and sun bathed like Americans do
us in the broadway musical of Mary poppins and Phantom..more of this later
thousand island castle...

the rest obviously are niagara falls.. bootifull...:)

lalallalala more later okay. i need to bathe and get to the gay pride parade hahahah at times sq

2008-06-25T09:16:00.000-07:00

sucha happening week. lemme tellu wad happen.
after work, we went to picnic under the stars at CENTRAL PARK.
The background was the New York Philmornic Orchestra.
wahahahah.. and we packed food. cheese cracker...pizza, garlic nuts.... etc..
and we got queenie and alan to join us.
wahahahah....
so romantic.....
today its broadway... PHANTOM.. yes... i watched it many times but lets see how it is again...
did i say i watched mary poppins already? so today is the 2nd broadway.

I am craving for sashimi!!!!!!

2008-06-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

okay. i have really neglected this space.
anyway, just like to report that i am having a blast now.
chicken wings with beers almost every alternate days.
good food everyday.
gym everyday too.
went to washington, virginia, delware, philly.
shopped at the factory outlet.
celebrated kevin's birthday.

i wish i had all the pictures up. but haha... nope not at the moment sorry.
more later aiight!
working.

2008-06-09T21:03:00.000-07:00

sumptious food food and more food.
hahah.... the minute u have it in your mouth it feels like you'd melt and dance along to it haha.
yea..starting work late tmr!!! yea!!! i can go to the gym!!!
wee....
more later.
shopping!!!

2008-06-05T22:38:00.000-07:00

hey it is freezing cold here and its way pass 2am... freezing.. so far so good. and i have really learnt independance alot more.... :)

I am hoping to extend my airticket. but i am not sure if they allow me to do so.. bummer...
hopefully able to meet RQ an XH.
you know what iwent to Long Island yesterday. awesome place pictures will be up later.the three fellow NUS people eating the famous xiao long bao ~~ yes!! in new york.. taste so much better than the Din tai fung in singapore...at one of their libraries... national monument in some area.... wasnt suppose to take piccas.
famous ice cream parlour at brooklyn dock!! where i am working at.. super long queue. but sumptious.
yes!!! cheesecake at times sq

kevin and me

more later.. im freezing heehe

2008-06-04T14:03:00.000-07:00

oh my god it has been a few days since i last written here.
lets see.. been to wall street, the world trade center, statue of liberty, Eilis Island.
i am working now, and getting used to it.

i love i here, because the salad taste really good. the pizza are good and they have yogurt everywhere. i'm loving it.

more to come. i am going to the Niagara Falls this weekend.
and am considering meeting up with Xiu Hao after the internship den we can go to LA together.

oh yea. am getting started for a YEP trip!! most prob to philippines!! wee.......
hey my guide peeps!
we going to create a memorable 21st!

2008-06-01T06:29:00.000-07:00

The hot dog from a very famous place.. guess what they pair it with? papaya drink.
their yougurt weigh by the pounds... its all self serve you can have as many items as you like...

the famous magnolia cupcakes.... super super sweet. BUT..... its nice....

i dont want to work!!!!!!
i just want to travel. i should research.
more later.

2008-05-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

ok officially a week here.
so far so good.

just that when the other start speaking in cantonese im lost. haha.
we're in usa. and they are speaking cantonese!!
ok we are going to cultural places today and tonight probably a drinking session.
;)

i miss dance really.
hahah.
siyin i miss u guys too!!
prawning!! i saw someone prawning here.
and yes.. jackson is at japan now!!!

more pics later

2008-05-28T23:46:00.000-07:00

just finished 2 days of war. haha.
work was crazy. u know what. certain NEWYORK people work really weirdly. like totally without a system. hahah i hope they dont see this. and haha... oh well... pretty glad with Singapore's system, which although can be boring and rigid, it breeds familarity.

actually, i am not really sure what is good. but oh well. haha.
it still needs some getting used to here.
So reached back at the hostel past midnight for the past few days and finally am free to sleep longer. shop more. relax more... and... hmm........... eat? haha.. yes very much irregular meals.

took lotsa crazy piccas at the Wardolf wadever Hotel. which is apparently super high class and nice.
sat with big shots for a moment.
one claims to know all the famous superstar and the other is some nice guy hehe.

anyway, really tired.
You know how i say i love cantonese. believe it or not im speaking in like cantonese everyday, and i suck i know. im working on it. hahaha....

more pictures up in the next post yea?

im sleepy.*yawnz
*jackson's going japan, envious haha....

more later.

2008-05-27T06:49:00.001-07:00

pictures of their SUBWAY (MRT)

piccas of times square and everything there...

Guess what.. yesterday was Memorial Day for them. So internet wireless was cut off after 3pm.

haha. so here i am blogging now.AND You-tubing!!!!
internship only starts at 3pm today:) but lasts all the way to 12am. haha.
wednesday is another long day again.

Americans definitely have a different style of working. they are rather straightforward. and NYC specifically works like mad. To think the pace of living in Singapore is crazy.
oh yea, i bought a calling card to Singapore. so u might just receive my calls. wahaha...

okay more later.

2008-05-26T05:10:00.000-07:00

okay. wanted to upload some pictures but but..... haha connection problem between my phone and the laptop. haha.

so i guess i'd do a little update.
went down to 5th Avenue down Times Square yesterday all the way to the heart of it.
they were having a bazaar there. so it was buzzing... bought the i love NYC t shirt haha...
one black and one white...

man!!! they have all sorts of brands everywhere....hahahhaha... excited.
IPHONE costs 599 USD... worth it?? i dont know...
did not get it in the end.
but cameras here are very cheap .. so hahah.. temptation...

took the subway here and there so hhahah... yea pretty tired
dinner was chinese food. which was really cheap. but portion was crazy !!!
had a nice chat with the fellow mates.

its orientation day today. and memorial day for them... will do the uploading of pictures later...
tata.. update me peeps.

2008-05-25T06:45:00.000-07:00

its 950am here. bright and sunny.

finally met up with kevin and chen xin. Singaporeans united!! wahhaa...
we have 2 extra free days cause its MEMORIAL day over here for them so we are free... whahaha
and there will be sale going on.. hahahhaa....

we are probably going to have breakfast and it'd be selection of DUNKIN DONUTS oR MAC. would grow fat when i am back. wahaha...

had good japansese food with SAKE yesterday. and walked around to explore.
:)

lovely place :)
oh man.......
will update with pictures later. cause my camera and stuff not around with me...
keep the messages in!!!

2008-05-24T10:47:00.000-07:00

frankfurt city streets... they are actually very nice.... my handphone cam abit lousy, but when i get my camera links up den you will see nicer stuff...

frankfurt public train tickettrain station - frankfurt airport
frankfurt train

hello people..

i am reporting from NEW York. i just reached about two hours ago!!
right now at YMCA Flushing. Where i;d be staying.

SQ not as fantastic as it seems..
haha. anyway, those who know that i have a 12 hr transit in germany, would know how horrible it is over there. guess wad, everything is not open. be thankful for the nightlife in Singapore REALLY!!

the maps are really uber confusing. with so many lines and extensions.
bt we managed to find our way to River Mein i think...
it was like 1 am in the morning and we were travelling round the city area.

so fun!!! :D die, i think when i am back to Singapore i will have a hard time adjusting.

2008-05-22T09:42:00.000-07:00

packing is tough. and i am done.

i got screamed a little by my mother.

not a pleasant scene. somehow she just does not seem to trust me.

long story.

anyway, i got a new luggage cause the previous was too too small.
man utd won.
yesterday, was had a long conversation with my couz Andy. I love my cousins day by day.
Andy, if you are reading this, just want to let you knw that i appreciate u in my life.

:) even more these days haha.

you know why all the emotions in this entry?
because, i have got so many silly friends, who made me cry cause of the conversations and messages they gave me.

silly silly silly.

lay koon.... dance hard *wink

more later.

2008-05-21T11:45:00.000-07:00

thanks for all the wonderful fun and laughter during dance!!! thanks for the hugs and well wishes...

okay im done to the last 2 days in Singapore.

or rather the last 1 and a half days. boo hoo.

haha.:) and i am still caught in packing.

there is just too many stuff...

i guess... more or less is done.

and today is my last dance lesson.

kind of sad. i did not tell XIAO KE about me leaving.

dont want to explain it all.

but in time to come she will know.

I will try to practice my dance.

shiya treated me to dinner of my choice we went bugis, had fun and food.

and geared up for tonight's match.

i am leaving .

reality has sunk in.i feel sad leaving behind part of my life here in Singapore.

but it will not be for long.

CHERYL, MICHELLE AND PEISIN ARE COMING TO SEND ME OFF!!

together with SEAH!! we shall all eat popeye together.=)

will update soon soon.:)

2008-05-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

i will miss all of you.

Clarice is getting emotional. so dumb.
but thats me. haha.
and i know if i dont cherish the minute i am in it. when i am back in Singapore i will definitely regret it all.

but still i will miss the mahjong and all. haha. ok dont call me mj freak!!

will update regularly. so stay tuned.

2008-05-14T17:12:00.000-07:00

its a commitment.
not just to myself.
to the great people out there.
42km here i come.
diet starts now.

its going to be an uphill tasks.
but at least its a 脚踏实地 movement.
social work might just be the answer too.

clarice sometimes is one confused person.
going one big round and realising again what she wants.
she might just change any moment.
i guess a positive way of saying this would be that she is flexible.
at least thats what i would love to believe so.

time is running out. im leaving in less than 2 weeks.

2008-05-12T03:27:00.000-07:00

hanging out with siti from NYC at our neighbour....
the good ole simple days;) i have 5 days straight of havoc-ing. and i am 100% dead tired and i think soon to be sick if not for my last minute rescue efforts. haha.
went zouk with this bunch of uni wackos hahaha... crazy girls but fun.
played mahjong with sarah, seah and jie ying.
liquid kitchen-ed at serangoon gardens with poly friends. so fun!! :) opened bottle.
post birthday cele with guides... awesome!! haha and mahjonged!! with us high on red wine!
mother's day lunch and dinner.

and concussed only to run errands for my bro scholarship.
went to get my hair done so that i woulnt have to screw up having it in place when in NY!
@ Monsoon! love dennis the stylist.:)
so professional.

i am still feeling the blues. and many more activities to come.
shaggedelic.
more later.

2008-05-08T10:26:00.000-07:00

im thinking alot.
its quite unlike me, but im thinking i will miss many many many people back here.
not used to time moving so fast.
its like i have to celebrate my birthday within this span of 2 weeks.
gather with friends within this 2 weeks
spend time with family n relatives this 2 weeks.
still have to complete my dance and golf before i leave.

exams over. club-ed. mah-jonged. intern-ed.
and met so many new friends.
and ... im getting emo.
i just want to sit down and chat with everyone.
thank madge for the advice! i need advice.

2008-05-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

the person behind this cup made my day.
not xing feng he is called marc.
haha. dont think crooked.
did i mention? i love the phrase, "we have enough space to love everyone."

i'll be back for more. definitely.

2008-05-02T20:01:00.000-07:00

i'm down to serious marathon business.
serious control of everything.
great excuse to lose weight huh.
haha. nah. just a commitment to something that has meaning.:)

i've found the shampoo for me. DOVE.

2008-04-30T11:20:00.000-07:00

Rochor's tau huay.

grab a chair, order a bowl.
sit down and have a chat with me.

i've got my feet grounded this time.
im running marathons till i'm old.
life's lesson is in it.

liverpool versus chelsea next up:)
wish them luck.

2008-04-29T11:27:00.001-07:00

im dreaming of a prince who would sweep me off my feet.
im dreaming of a business that i would dedicate my life to.
im dreaming of friends whom we could hang out all day.
im dreaming of a life void of realities.
im dreaming indeed.

thanks to all the wonderful well wishes.
well, dont worry no need for fancy celebrations and loud shoutouts.
cause, life is has only just started.
why should i just live for that one day ?? hahah that would be pretty dumb.

now now..... im still dreaming of dreams...

ankle is better for those concern:)
ice ice and more ice .
life is going to get better. tts a promise to myself.

2008-04-28T02:23:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to myself hahaha!!

my first unofficial gift to myself.

swollen twisted ankle.

hahahahaha. i am so injury prone haha.

more later.:)

2008-04-25T22:41:00.000-07:00

of the very good people out there.
jing xiong.
rengde.
ling ling.
priscilla.

life is good with these people;)
dun have to say more.

miss shape run. miss saucony run. miss dualathon.

aiyo! but its not a too bad a thing. cause i have been slacking. not training at all. hahaha

2008-04-24T04:42:00.000-07:00

the buns that me and jes made a few days back or weeks ahhaha... flavour-full!!! because we made so much i remember eating it 3 meals a day.

tutu kuih when its not freshly made does not taste nice at all regardless if its chinese or malay.

bah! i just walk through the pasar malam and bought more of it.

plus a packet of bee hoon. salty salty salty.

i think i am addicted to bumming at home.

i think it saves me the money too.

clarice is tentatively low on cash.

currently limited flow of income in.

past three days i slept for less than 10 hours in 3 days. so today i woke up eat sleep. and only started revising from 2 to 5 and slacked all the way till now. i guess i can only function at night.

oh well thats a good thing right? at least i wont suffer much from the jag lag.

i want to play mahjong, sing song, slack, blow bubbles.

i want to stay at people house and watch movie and scare myself.

or i want u guys to come to my house and do that.

stupid exams.

golf. dance. stupid exams. haha.

2008-04-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

my recent cravings for tutu kuihs!
the chinese versus the malays!
who won!!
the bigger guy!

money issues.

i hate it when decisions are based on that.

blarh!

i hate it when i have to compromise education with the things i love to do.

blarh!

so not in the mood for to turn 21.

blarh!

hee.. on a kinder note. please do not waste ure food. help those in poverty.

really, after seeing how easily we obtain food here in singapore, the abundance of choices and what have you, you cant help but feel that you are definitely on the higher end of the pedestal here.

I made a commitment from now on not to waste food as and when i can and not eat extravangantly.:)

food can still be interesting really.

REALLY.

got to have faith.

Su Korean Restaurant

2008-04-20T18:05:00.000-07:00

their small dishes. sans the spicy-ness otherwise its not as salty as the typical. yesh. they had the option of doing it yourself or they cook it backend for you. the nice mister manager took great care of us. constantly checking on the colour of our pork collar.
korean rice cakes. the nicest i have eaten so far. it is slightly harder than usual. which is what i like.... not as spicy too.. but tasty.
korean zhar jiang miang. shiya said was the country must have. its black.. like the blank ink spag. but this is not as strong, just right.

hmmm.... it has been long since i post on food so i thought i start doing some. this is at level 1 of far east. has korean staff working in there which we keep eyeing on, which the manager spotted and asked if we wanted his number hahaha.

muggging sucks. really it does.

2008-04-16T07:08:00.000-07:00

i am kind of slow in updates these days. just dont have the feel or the mood to do so.

anyway, the above pictures are courtesy of seah sim yee's 21 st birthday.

and of course we went wild with our ERDINGER drinking game. haha.

i read a message recently on cleo magazine that was meant for the editor.

it states... if you dont slow down enough.the people around you wont be able to catch up with you. soon you'll realise that you will be left to run the race on your own...

so true huh? we are all blinded by financial needs and wants that we neglect so many things around us. worst still, we are obssess with the best and constantly strive for more than what we need.

am i not victim of such? now that i have stopped working i have realise the morning sun that shines at 715 am and its ray the brightest at close to 8 onwards. it starts to tame when it hits 10 am and it gets humid around 3 and tames at 5 going to 6 pm.

the beauty of human nature.

i realise how food taste so nice too when its cooked at home, that you can fuse your own cuisine and sit in front of the tv and watch as people tell their story. you realise that vegetables rot after 2 weeks slower than dairy and meet produce. so i tend to stock up alot on vegetables and realise that it is too much, ironically cause i am only cooking for myself. :)

you realise soon that it is always good to cook for more than a person.

firstly, cause you wont be gorging down unnecessary calories. and secondly, it is esier to porportion it.

you will also realise garlic and mushroom sauce are your best spices and sauce.

than you realise too, that you cant stay home too long, the air is not as fresh as outside. so you take a walk round your neighbourhood and you get amazed at the kids around who are in primary school, and you think back and laugh.

when night falls. you sleep better too.:)

of course, since exams are round the corner i do try to squeeze studying here and there.

2008-04-08T07:56:00.000-07:00

this week marks a brand new start to life.
A life with renewed vigour to catch up on my studies.
A life away from sentosa. ( except to sun tan)
A life to catch up with old friends before i leave.
A life with healthy regimes.
A life to let go off the past, the useless expectation.
A life to live just for myself.

I have been selfish all these while, thinking about everything but myself. I just realise my trip to USA, the plain decision to head there seems like a selfish decision. It is true i ignored the financial aspects.

I was ambitious. Not down to earth.
In fact, since i became who i am today, i forgot humility, i have forgotten about the simplicity and the basic principles that made me who i am today.

I should seek to revisit it. But, however so? How do i seperate myself away from all these materialistic gains and seek what is truly important in life. I can no longer be the Clarice who was so passionate about social work, that she willingly give up anything for it.

I can only ask of myself to treat everyone with honesty. I should just aim to be considerate. I should tame my aggressiveness. Yes i should. I getting way to big for my own good.

So what if i know so many things, so what if i have learned so many.... I've got to learn to be generous, fill with graciousness and i guess forgiveness....

before i hit my 21st birthday, i hope i'd be able to put behind all the selfishness.
I am already happy typing these.:)

2008-04-05T17:01:00.000-07:00

ah shan's birthday.

what do you do when u feel tt its not your day?

you make im promtu decision.

i've made a couple these days.

like.... sun tanning with siti.

like....singing songs.

like going crazy with the ERDINGER GAME.

life sucha bitch.

but im enjoying it.

it was a great day yesterday really.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIM YEE!

i hope my burn gets better. haha

lychee martini. erdinger. cards. crazy girls.

funny thing about life is .... it keeps going up and down. vicious cycle.

for me, its going up way too fast and down way too fast too.

more later.

2008-03-29T09:56:00.000-07:00

i think because of the fact that i have not been in touch with civilisation.
i have been pretty emo these days.
emo in my thinking.

of course not the depressive type.
just that suddenly i feel so expressive about so many things.
even the simplest of issue.

like even the jog around the neighbourhood today got me thinking so much.
i stayed home at watched the 20 ep of this hong kong drama serial
and i continued thinking even more.

must be some pent up emotions.
work tomorrow. hopefully i feel better being out there.

2008-03-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

i went sanpo shimasu at 7pm.

Did not feel like sitting in front of the terebi.

it was not atsui at all.

As i walked i pondered real hard, how i wished my friends were all staying round the neighbourhood. So that we could just buzz each other and head down to la kopi.

i like the hawker stalls opposite my house. I somehow like to see the uncles gather, the aunties bitching, the kids scrambling which reminds me of my primary school days.

No wild ideas of striking rich, no wild ideas of making it big.

When i was younger all that i wanted was to be as true and sincere to my classmates, so that we can call each other and chit chat through the night.

All we thought of was to avoid getting our textbook thrown out by our teacher, to not be caught not bringing our books to class.

For me, i feared PE lessons, i was super lousy at physical activities.

needless to say i was ten kg heavier than i am now.

I remember the small stone table behind the school.

I remembered mixing around with the EM3 students although i was supposedly an EM1 student.

I remembered hanging around the basketball court with them and popping by their houses to chit chat and play and lying to parents that we were at school to study.

I remembered fearing being late of school.

When i got to secondary school, i missed primary school so much, i went back every alternate days. I complained to Ms Lim. I wonder how she is doing now.

I realised that people in my class were all so outspoken. So talented. So good at sports.

I soon wanted to be like them. and soon was like them. :)

I had my happy memories then. With my CCA. its like a life dedicated to it.

Of course, then i imagined myself to JC. I never dared dreamed of the best. But somehow, i gave up the dream of going JC ever so readily.

I chose Poly.

I felt like a grown up girl in there.

It felt good after awhile to learn things that could apply so readily to real life.

I got ambitious. I started all the ideas and networking there.

I made many friends from there.

there were times i dreaded going back, but it was just cause of the distance.

and cause i started working more, i got in touch of the working world alot.

i compared to studying.

when i graduated, i wanted to go Uni so much.

there was alot of unforeseen pressure.

I gave up 3 jobs i managed to clinch to enter NUS.

I remembered being interviewed by the dean and the vice dean.

How it was so easy chit chatting with them, they were amazed at my clear visions and aim to be a social worker.

When they told me i was in, i quivered in my voice.

I was so happy.

its not hard to relive the happiness, really.

its not easy to enter university.

but today i regret a little. regret forsaking the job at Mcgraw hill.

that opportunity at such a good pay and job scope.

but than again, i learnt to accept it.

today, i dont know how my life will turn out, at the moment i am feeling a little emotional. it is the time of the month again. but things will be better, it always does. 20 years of life. I always wish to relive the parts over again and again..

and there is nothing wrong with that, as i continue to walk back to the paths and areas i used to play and linger......

2008-03-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

clarice has been feeling the blues these days. because she found the feeling of love that she might think its for real, but she has not had the guts nor the time to go for it. Because, she feels too unsure about the situation, she decided maybe its just the sudden comfort found in the accompanionship. She said she did not allow herself to slip into the situation too deep, because she knows her mind can trap her deeply in the realm of fantasy.

but what is a girl like her to do? and why should a girl like her resists the impressions love gives? Sometimes, you just cannot expect too much, but i told her its good to feel so, its what makes life all the more interesting.

she started baking the cheesecake. believing in the therapeutic impacts it provides. she loves life this way. doing things she love at her pace. she does not have to prove to anyone. really.

that night when it rained, she felt the comfort in the warmth. what warmth you'd say, the warmth of the lights down the streets and the music to her ears.

she really wished she had someone to spend with.

2008-03-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

im feeling a little happier now that the results are out for my midterms.
You know the one i was supposed to have, and despite the weightage and stuff i still played mahjong through the night.
Above average is good. Above average means you are doing just fine:)
Now lets just say that i am pretty satisfied with stuff going on this semester academic wise.

of course la. sacrifice gym time and work time. not that i am doing much but at least im like taking it a little more seriously, though i skip lecture more often.

Next step is to lose the weight. Since i have not been training for any runs this year, my eating habits are horrendous. and i put on 4kg. haha. So yea. beginning running in the morning every day now. and fruits fruits fruits.....

im flying off in MAY to USA NYC for my internship, visa application now.
So fast~
with a guy call Nicholas... hmm....

i like golf ya know, i just gt my PC!

my bro is just one smart ass.. 6As and applying for scholarship, something i never imagined associated with myself.

2008-03-14T19:01:00.000-07:00

loads have happened during this space in between.
i've just applied through my school an internship to US company and my school called me a few days ago saying that i have an interview through the phone a couple of days back.
And, i've received a reply saying that it went well and i think i am on my way to New York.
Wow, i'll be at the other side of the world.
When i applied, i did not think about how scary this would be.
It is not for school, its for work. work at an environment and a country so culturally and diversly different.
What the hell have i gotten myself into?

I'll be away for 2 months. not as scary, but scary nonetheless.

what would i do without dance? what would i do with golf? what would i do without jap? what would i do without gym? what would i do withough NYC? what would it be like without sentosa friendliness? what would i do when friends are miles and miles away??

wow............ SCARY indeed.

2008-03-11T11:06:00.001-07:00

im back in writing. yes,as if i had not written enough.

its like way past 2am.

and yes life has been like that for me all way past 2am sleeps and a day of no sleep even, which brings me back to days in poly where we chiong for presentations.

those days were fun though. because we were in it together.

now its like every man's for himself.

how sad.

yea, once in awhile care, concern and a little hug from the special ones out there does help.

im grateful i have a bunch of ppl to grumble and complain to.

chases the heat off things.

need i mentioned gym's been under renovation, just when i was about to get on track for marathon runs. its okay. could do with the break.

food no longer as appealing as before.

still enjoy the ones i cook though.

hmm pork chop

2008-03-07T05:15:00.000-08:00

i miss my sane days.
now life revolves around school, no matter how i hate the idea of that.
i just realise its not right to keep rejecting or living in disillusioned.
stop complaining clarice!!

i just saw a cute guy. but its more like hmm.... smilez....:)

2008-03-01T21:42:00.000-08:00

Fisherman Wharf!

i've been on hiatus for some time. I used to not understand why people can not write in their blog, but now i truly understand. Sometimes, the MOJO is just not there.

Life has been busy these days. as usual like what is new.

with exams coming.

mahjong addiction is coming on strong! played thrice this week. and both through the night. goodness gracious. its like u cant stop it.

it has been raining these days too, and i;ve been doing my fair share of slacking and have also been going rather frequently to my internship.

goodness, i;m feeling sleepy. less thatn 4hrs.

sometimes you dont feel like sharing the good and the bad anymore. After awhile you realise that it does not really matter.

Communications become less essential.

2008-02-19T07:16:00.000-08:00

the beauty of mr jones. fish n chips
chick??

ive just ended my history paper. phew! it wasnt hard just that, you know how things are when they take up tons of your time.

nothing much to say now. Just hmm... till the next time.

i've been enjoying my self made recipes these days.

join me for the next meal:)

2008-02-13T23:21:00.000-08:00

golf and me:)

i am having my break now.

i had a very nice valentine day.

nope. not with just one person. but with 4 beautiful people. haha.

it was the cny 7th day anyway, so Shiya, boots, cheryl and me went to this delicious chinese place at tiong bahru- Poh Kee restaurant to Lo Hei!! okay we spent like 100+ there. haha. but it was nice and good. There was this old uncle who was serving us who was all nice and a tad too friendly but haha....

After which, met up with the wacky 2, Michelle and Peisin. of coure not forgetting the KANGOO!!! The ever sturdy and reliable vehicle the PS drove.

What happened in between i shall not elaborate. haha. Stupid cabs and luck haha. We persume it might be cause this year is the Rabbit Zodiac Fan Tai Sui!! haha. yes, we are all rabbits.hee.

Anyway, PS drove us to SCARLETT the boutique hotel!! UBER Fantastic!!!

Will discuss more when the pics are up... heeh...

so we had our valentine day there.... all the way till 3 am did we depart.

So, right now i am feeling tired. and feeling low cause studies are being neglected. at least i am feeling something haha....

I love my friends. thanks for the simple and wonderful memories.

i hope i can post pics up soon... i am busy with alot of stuff but i dont know what... lalallalalalal

2008-02-06T18:46:00.001-08:00

ah teo's 21st !! one big happy family and will always remain so..

the liyng(s) and the lee ying

the cake i baked!
wee.....
21 candles.

irashaimasu!
birthday girl.
:)

the spread.
yum....
top view...

ok!! first and foremost.
happy cny!!!

i think cny will still be pretty busy for me. but i'll try to squeeze in the time for studies.

had a lovely renuion dinner yesteday. though i was shag!I swore i concussed straight after cutting the prawns and also caused since its the new year!!! i've started my morning runs round the neighbourhood;)...

arent you happy for me?? uncles and aunties round the neighbourhood are all so friendly today, with the wishes and stuff. :) i see familiar faces whom i use to run with at the stadium.

well i should be out visiting till the evening than i would have enough rest throughout. for some catch up and more visiting tomorrow again.

once again thank all those who supported me!! we will have quality inspection checks the next rounds. due to overwhelming orders( Yes!! we overestimated ourselves!!)we;ll work on it and improve the next round. there might be more to the menu and for goodwill we will keep prices around the same range.

meanwhile, i'll take birthday orders!!! cakes of all sorts. in advance of couse.

happy cny!

2008-02-04T08:19:00.000-08:00

tired.
these few days have been. really sick and than u feel slightly better. than u feel tired.
*yawns*
cny hopefully is a break for me.
need to start studying and round up sales.
and head for 2nd business.:)
cakes^_^ and the cafe.... tough tough tough.

u dun feel like entertaining anyone when ure tired.
and i lost my ez link. dumb stupid me!

2008-01-27T07:19:00.000-08:00

this was at the very beautiful yet very expensive jewel box experience with anne, meiling and sulaiha. Also, got to thank harold for the ride. it was the xmas season... weee.....

we settled for the cheaper of the 3 areas. but it wasnt all that cheap either thought the scenary was awesome.

creamy salmon pasta. some salad which i cant really remember.

the cable car ride. one had the fear of heights, while the 3 of us enjoyed it to the max. really grateful for the disc. haha.
i think that is the carribean.

bad angle. but oh well. it was supposed to be the jewel box.

shit. i sense a dry throat coming. cant afford to be sick.

so many things so little time.

readings equates sleeping pills.

we have more than 50 orders for pineapples now. er.... crazy. but just some pointers for those who bought... do not keep it beyond 2 weeks. its really fresh and you know how fresh stuff turns bad easily:)

and a billion and one thank q.

i had fun at my couz wedding. will show ya the pics whn its ready and editted by my talented cousin.

brain breakdown.

2008-01-25T07:36:00.000-08:00

Remember i mentioned that i met up with my ole pals straight after work at the countdown event in sentosa!! YES!! NO SLEEP!!
This was the beautiful surreal place we went to... Botanical gardens.

Halia Restaurant which provided both indoors and outdoors seating. Staff were very well service oriented.
This is the swan lake.
Thats 2 white ones and one black ones.Banana Cheese cake.Banana Crepe.
The delicious food. Spaghetti with cram sauce. Some bread with focacia bacon and side salad. as well as my bangers!!

Tutorials starting soon. I should get my act started. and, i dont know... got to learn to stay more focus this time round. My Baking orders are coming in... i think we'll prolly be able to breakeven this time round. Hoping for profits next round.
I am so glad i get to stick around for another round of internship with NYC! More events coming up!
Summer plans are still unconfirmed. I do hope the deal with Keppel land falls through. because i doubt im heading to aussie already. Unless for summer exchange.Otherwise, i got a list of local interns to turn to....

We shall leave that to later.. just had some rounds of golf with my poly mates who keeps pestering me to get the menu up so that biz can start. haha. i'll try babes!! COUNTRYROAD here we go!!
till laterz.

2008-01-24T08:29:00.000-08:00

ok! i am here to promote the tarts!!

i of course only recommend the best!!

do support call me at 9436**** or email me @ claricesong@yahoo.com.sg

cheap cheap!! and has promo so haha.. buzz me!!

stay tuned for more piccas!!

2008-01-22T07:45:00.000-08:00

my head feels like its about to burst.
i never realise it all could be so much to take.
haha.
lack of sleep. lack of exercise. lack of everything.
but i have an abundance of pictures which i am kind of lazy to upload.

why am i so fussy in picking guys?
aiyo!! why the digression.
clarice must make sure she studies japanese.
clarice must make sure she hit the gym at least 3 times a week.
clarice must make sure she go for dance twice a week.
clarice must make sure she clock working hours of at least 25.
clarice must make sure she keeps working on her biz plans.
clarice must make sure she keeps sourcing for recipes.
clarice must make sure to eat healthier choices of food.

clarice must start sourcing for summer plans...
clarice! clarice! clarice!
how to have time for him?? haha
stupid !digress again!
nonsense haha.

2008-01-18T21:32:00.001-08:00

my gingerbread lady and man for those who came to my partay.. i spent the whole afternoon cause i din not have the mould so i had to cut it out myself. hahah.

i was baking thru the night yesterday after golf.

silly me! why did i even think of quitting golf. hahah.. it was really fun.

so i slept close to 3 plus and woke up at 7 to cook for the birthday surprise today. Not forgetting that i need to hit the gym.

everybody is hitting 21st ..

goodness i just remembered i need to buy stuff.

rush rush.

till later

2008-01-17T08:35:00.000-08:00

MY XMAS PARTAY!!
Thanks to all that have attended!!!!
The overnight mahjong.
The food
The gifts
The laughter.:)
Thank q!

tired. man i am so sleepy now.
these days though im working alone, i feel as if i have rekindled the initial zest since 2 years ago.
The shop was revamped by Rosalind and me.
I definitely do enjoyed the sharing session today.
Though work has deprived me of my gym again, since i have not made myself overcome the fear of running round my neighbourhood ( due to the numerous falls i had) Yes! i am very afraid of running around my neighbourhood.
But i will overcome it soon.

There are a couple of things i am looking forward to
1. pineapple tarts baking sessions i have 20 orders now.
2. rosalind chicken rice session
3. dance practices;)
4. Work @ sunny sentosa with lovable people
5. my cousin's wedding
6.Jeslyna's house gathering
7. Sun basking!!!!!

aiya! i dunno what i am writing here right now. i am in a third dimension space now. i am so sleepy but i need to come up with recipes to cook. and the decision to go or not to go golf tomorrow. argh!!!

i want to cry.....i want to go to the gym.
hahha u see im talking nonsense.
thanks for the msgses.

2008-01-16T07:42:00.000-08:00

this is the xmas special part 1: the sentosa xmas partay. it really seemed like ages ago. but there was a performance and prize presentation haha.... i remembered rushing for it after my flight back from bangkok:)
me rosalind (VM manager) and her child. also the judge of the day.

YEa!!! the team that hit the sales target for i dunno how many times.. lost count.. haha

beach babes.... some others missing in action hee...
our hampers and prize!!!

my angel?? hahaha..exchange of gift.:)

weee..... i have 12 orders for the pineapple tarts....
do support okay?
feel free to ask for samples.
i'll try to provide.
meanwhile. more cny goodies.

should i give you a chance?? it seems like i have been shutting people out of my life these days. i closed down 3 doors. and 2 more came knocking. What exactly am i waiting for?
oh well. i got to think of menu for this saturday's party.. heeh

2008-01-14T08:09:00.000-08:00

let the happy memories stay:)

2008-01-13T08:06:00.000-08:00

my eyes are swollen. and there can only be one reason.
i was thinking real hard through the night yesterday. suddenly felt empty. realise that all the mindless occupancy with life seems redundant after all.
the only consolation is that i have done what i have wanted to.
heartless?
i dont feel a thing really.
but why do the tears still fall when being confronted.
what was it that matters so hard that made it fall?
i did not understand these causes and effects.
i am putting a wall so hard and strong and uber defensive. its going to take someone strong to break it down.
my eyes are really painful.

imma selfish biatch. and i cant bring myself to hate myself or feel it just yet.
i need a cooler to my eyes.

2008-01-11T19:37:00.000-08:00

Ooo... second installment of thailand trip. sit back and relax:) this was bought at their food court. Their version of spring roll but not fried. or was it popiah. Skin is a little sticky but the sauce is really appetizing. Its real cheaper too. I think about 25 baht. which is 1 dollar or less.
their famous sald. this time we got the papaya sald. In actual fact is not as spicy as the ones we have in singapore. Just a little more sour. They have it with sliced pork. which adds to the bite.
Chinatown in thailand. Which has numerous shark;s fin and bird nest. Fresh fruits too.

fried kway teow. Phaad Thai. Thai style. Nt very cheap though its from the road side. but very tasty.
their potong!! hahaha.
This is one of their roadside cafe which is very very countryside. Everything is wood. and the service is excellent. This was at chatukchak. SO u know weather was kinda hot. so they provide ya with wet towel and stuff.
The drinks that we ordered from the cafe.:)

Siam's Paragon. Tip top brands. I would say better standards than singapore's/ hmmm... maybe cause its bigger. probably of standard with vivo's.
Ah... thei gaai rice. Authentic thai food. which cost 10 baht. But we paid 25 baht. i think they thought we were tourist.
Chicken roasted or grilled.
they had fried oyster like the ones in singapore and huge variety of seafood.

that is their connection of sky train. express rail and mrt.they still use the old school coins thingy with the flimsy card.
the railway.

the stadium that we frequent most. Because MBK is near.

OKay! one more installation left. and we can round it up for the hmm... christmas. hahahah.. seems so long ago... but oh well....

my brother is going in ns hahahah.

2008-01-10T08:34:00.000-08:00

MY LOOT!!!! from Thailand
i'm dying cause of the stupid bidding thing.
was so caught up with making the pineapple tarts that i totally forgot about it.
now my free days is tues, wed and thurs...
bummer.
i am so afraid of being busy.
i will miss my holidays. though occupied i never have to feel caught up with life.
i am afraid of being caught up in school.
can i just leave everything behind?

how is 750 bucks for food and the whole of Ami's book??

Clarice is afraid of poor time management.

2008-01-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

first installation of the thailand trip.
haha.
I am just back from 2 days of consecutive mahjong.
had my first lesson of intermediate jap. everyone is so smart. i think i really should buck up.
Couz andy treated me and my bro to Ah Roy Thai Food. Slurps and Drools!
and finally went back to NYC internship! i miss you guys!!! hee. i am glad i can be back to help heheheh.
and of course OG Uni Chalet! :)
took a lift from Andy. went home and concussed for two hours and jump right up and outta the house for internship and dance. shaggedelic!!!
Bidding sucks!
baking tmr!

2008-01-06T07:38:00.000-08:00

i finally get to take a week off work and the appointments are already piling up.

i travelled all the way down to changi to lay my hands on popeye and viewed t3 with shiya.

haha. insane i know.

bidding is troublesome, actually its only cause i am forgetful.

2008-01-05T08:50:00.000-08:00

i hate it when this happens.
i hate it when you put this emotional baggage on me.
i hate all these responsibilities that i dont think i should carry with me.
i am selfish. but this is me.
leave me alone

2008-01-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

seems kinda blur here. but i think i really do like nail art. :)

i'm hitting the gym soon again than it'd be dance later.

u know laydee... it takes a little softness and a little respect to be given to tame us.
its not all daggers and claws...
its not to show who is right and wrong.

anyway, since the rest cant be bothered about it i shall just pretend i did not hear or see anything:)
the world could do with more peace.

seriously dread the day school starts. im just gonner work, intern, fitness my days off. of course, merry making.
i need a new dress soon. another wedding!!

2008-01-03T16:57:00.000-08:00

man...i'm leaving for work real soon and i am blogging here. haha.
life without school and formal work is really relaxing.
i basically get to plan my day as and when i wish it to be.
hmmm..... so indeed i head for the fitness club yesterday and will do so today after work as well.

u pay a price for what you want.
i was watching NEXT new face models and realise how freaking skinny one of them were as they got ticked off by the nutritionist. hmmm...
being skinny a size zero aint that great after all huh?
women really should be curves.

watched the taiwan super model too. the poses some really looked real good.

hmm... i wonder wassup with my sudden addiction to make ups and models .;)
till later.

2008-01-02T17:44:00.000-08:00

the food menu from furama hotel

the appetizer was real nice. the prawn was soft and crunchy just that the mayonaise was a little too heavy for my liking. the rest of the fried stuff weren't too oily either. it was light as it should be. shark's fin soup. every wedding must have. but i never did like shark's fin. and even if i do i prefer thai style. so i din finish my bowl.

crispy chicken. this was good too. i love the breast meat that most people dislike. i always find breast meat good anc chewy. like u really get to eat something instead of the soft and silky ones.
the yam basket was good. fillings inside were fresh. i love the celery and of course the prawn. Yam was a little too thick.because of the fact that i was emceeing that day. i came back to the table thinking that it was abalone on top of the broccoli but it wasnt. the sauce was a little too savory. i prefer garlic stired fry. but it was good. the fish was awesome. soft and fresh.... hong kong style
by the time the dish was served to this. everyone was bloated. but i took a few bites and it wwas a little too soggy and plain.

last dish.. the ahboling inside was the best lar i took 1 more servings. hwahaha..

my knees and arm has recoverd so i can hit the gym after so long of piling on the good food wahaha.

i have prepared my next sem modules and they have nicely been fitted into the mondays and tuesdays!! so it will be 2 school days i am so happy!!! i can work from wed to sunday haha. and go for gym on those days too wahaha.

provided i do attend my lectures on monday and tuesdays. ;):)

I was kind of dead throughout yesterday after suffering from the lack of sleep. felt sleepy at work while playing the 10 by 10 bingo. went to the office so lethargy. could not concentrate during dance. nowi feel slightly better. and i am really glad i can head back to the fitness centre. hehe. kickboxing? 320d? wahaha....

i should start on the menu planning. so cheryl !! be prepared to taste the mouth watering dishes. oh actually i have already tried to make a couple. :)